tingling shimmers;

red suits you;

2012-01-24T21:28:00.001+08:00

haven't been here forever!

LOL can't believe this blog is still my FF homepage tho.

Guess it's a part of life I don't really want to let go of?

Anyway I'm coming back here because I kinda screwed up the timings for something , so we're just waiting around and yeah.

I feel horrible today. Simply put.

It's CNY and everyone's going around visiting while I just stayed at home reading fics and doing things I regret, again.

Anyway you know how they say women always rake up the past in arguments?

I have to agree lol. Well, it's just that when I'm angry/upset w someone I tend to remember and bring up all they did in the past, in my head of course.

I've learnt to keep quiet in an argument now, doesn't make much difference whether I argue or not.

Especially when it comes down to family. I've long given up on trying to defend myself with any of them.

I know people love their family and all, and sometimes I do, but most of the time I wish I was grown up and could leave them.

Rewatched I Not Stupid Today and one of the boys described home as a place only to sleep. It's pretty true for me.

I dunno, I don't talk to anyone when I'm home, I just stay in my room and do my stuff, greet my mum when she comes home.

tbh I don't recall ever having a family dinner other than on special occasions. Everyone just eats at their own time, whenever they want.

I usually take my food and retreat to my room and eat in front of the tv and computer.

Guess it's good we don't have family dinners anyway, it would be awkward.

Like how it always is when I'm out having meals w my mum.

Sometimes I try to make conversation, other times I dont. It really feels like I'm the one trying most of the time.

le sigh this has been a family rant. I don't feel pathetic or anything just because I don't have a complete family, and I hate to self-pity.

But sometimes I do mope around about it. Yeah pathetic, I know.

I wish i didn't care as much, but I think such things always remain with you, and they surface from time to time.

on a completely unrelated note, is it weird I like to read stories with angst (fighting, arguments, pining) but with a happy ending?

I dunno I like the heart wrenching stuff, provided it's a good ending.

I'm probably secretly sadistic lol.

I wonder if anyone irl will read this, considering how long I've abandoned this.

It's a good thing I guess, then no one will read this? ^^

anyway I hope this doesn't get me into any trouble because the last time I posted a family rant my mum's friend read it and told her about it.

Didn't go down very well.

TOO FAST TOO FURIOUS;

2011-04-24T19:32:00.003+08:00

"A thousand more regrets unraveling, oh
If you were here right now I'd tell you this"
©BackstreetBoys

you know how sometimes you meet people you instantly click with?
that feeling is wonderful.

in your mind it's just, why did i not know you earlier?!
where have you been all my life.

and you talk about, just anything under the sun.
you feel comfortable talking about anything, really.

of course you started with one common topic, and you still bring it up from time to time.
but it's different when you dont just talk about one topic.

and the most irrelevant things in your life could happen, but you're just like hey he/she would be interested to know! i would tell the person when i talk to him/her again!

and then the world seems perfect.

but the faster the progress is, the faster the decline is.
always, happens.
reminds me of flowers for algernon actually (pretty amazing story).

and all of a sudden, i dont know how it happens.
you guys stop talking.

idk but for me it's not that i want to stop talking, it's just like. we depleted all the topics.
what a contrast to before.

sigh third or fourth time this is happening.
guess i saw it coming but.

alright rant over need to get back to studying/homework T.T

what a wasted weekend, really.

DIFFERENTIATED BURSTS;

2011-04-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

"Maybe it's wishful thinking,
probably mindless dreaming"
©TaylorSwift

"If there were 1000 steps between you and Him,
He has already taken 999 steps."

so amazing, so wonderful, so magnificent.

but too much for me.
that ONE step, seems so huge, so distant, so uncertain.

NUMBER LOCKED;

2011-03-19T10:47:00.002+08:00

"Hurry up and wait so close but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste but you just can't touch"
©LeonaLewis

okay i know i havent been here in like 2 months...

but that's because my life has been just mundane. idk just school and more school?
anyway for more updates you should really just follow my twitter because i go crazy there.

so updating because.. i'm bored and i felt like typing something!
yes i dont actually have a life..

anyway it's currently the holidays (tho ending ;~;) and as much as homework has overtaken my life, i must say it was a pretty good week.

pretty crazy week as well.
i had very good laughs and at the same time very stupid tears.
but let's just say it came as a package. i wouldn't have gotten to laugh if i didn't cry.

and don't people always say, that you only understand what's happiness and joy because of pain and sadness :)

i say, it's true.
you learn to treasure the joy so much more because well, it could always be worse.

one thing i have to say though, is the past 2 weeks have been blasted :D
the week before this was officially the best of my year so far (excluding the implications of homework that came with it).

so i was away for this thing called the model ASEAN summit, something like model united nations i guess, just on a smaller scale, and i suppose not as competitive.

because i hear at MUNs, schools just aim to wipe out the awards.
well okay maybe it's the competitiveness that makes it fun for some, i dont know, but i like it because it was just nice and slow. (contrary to school of course)

and i had a lot of fun, even though i didnt win anything (but why would i be expecting to in the first place) and it was a great experience.

i guess the people made it a lot better too - thank you to the 7 other MG girls who went and are now suffering from the after effects as well, and everyone else i met that made the whole event so fun and just, memorable.

and apart from that what made the week even more perfect was the fact i got into Eastern Europe for ROCs 3 :)

honestly, i cannot even imagine myself anywhere else, taking pictures or learning.
let's just say the EE trip is freaking perfect to me, as much as people slam it.

but i feel bad. when i hear about people crying that they didnt get EE or whatever choice they wanted. i know i don't have to feel bad because i wasn't the one who allocated it but.. and when i hear about people getting EE and they complain they dont want it.. there you go. you crossed the line.

okay sure if you don't want it, give it up then, to someone else who wants it.
okay sure if you don't want it, just tell a few people or keep it to yourself. not spread it on social networking sites and wonder why you get hate.

you need to get some brains.

and the last thing that really made that week so perfect, winning a silver for drill comp.
okay i definitely was aiming for a gold/challenge shield, but we made so many last minute changes to our final routine and on the day itself we really screwed up so the silver is a pure miracle.

besides, there were only two golds so i am happy, enough.

yesterday my contingent had a BBQ at my commander's condo and it was awesome :)
not like the high, crazy awesome but just the nice, get-together, slack around, play awesome.

i was really glad most of the contingent turned up because i really got to talk to some people a lot more and it is a nice way to end our time as a contingent i guess.

so yep two more days before school starts again, and everything will seem so foreign.
because thanks to MAS i have been waking up later than usual, taking the bus past the usual school bus stop, getting weird stares, wearing the blazer and now it's back to reality!

i really dont want to go back to school because this whole week i have been slacking around (read: pointless 3am nights) and all my work is of quality i can't even defend.

example i had to write the commonwealth essay for english and it was complete utter nonsense. i know i've said this a million times but honestly, i am not interested in feminism. i guess my only defense is i tried to work on it, as much as i could. my teacher replied me basically saying it was complete crap, just in a much more refined and polite manner i guess.

lol enough of rants. i have been ranting a lot this week, and to the weirdest people i must say. like people i don't actually know that well and who hardly even know what i am talking about.

but then i say, that people you hardly know/aren't gonna talk to again are the best to talk to.
because they can't pre-judge you, and you know that when you tell them anything, it's just buried with them.

pretty great march holidays and i know i will miss it when it ends. no more pointless staying up, no more twitter wars, no more time for juvenile arguments.

that's it, back to reality and i enjoyed this dream.
it was perfect in so many ways, but all good things come to an end.

and this term, i want to try harder. put in more effort and study harder, and stop dreaming.

P.S. you should treasure this post because the next one might just be 2 months from now.

SOFTENED CLIP;

2011-01-16T12:58:00.001+08:00

"You're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no"
©KatyPerry

HAI.

YOU SHOULD IGNORE THE POST BEFORE THIS.

no like seriously lol. i'm really starting to regret posting that because now it all seems a tad stupid. i really should have waited till the feeling blowed over - which didn't take long, probably one night?

lol sleep does wonders.

anyway yes btw when i posted that i was suffering from PMS so you shouldn't take that too heart. i wanted to delete that but like i spent so much time typing it it would have been such a waste, and people have alr read it so..

sigh one more embarrassing thing to add to the collection.

SLOB BLOB;

2011-01-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

"I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain"
©BrunoMars

sigh idk how long it has been since i blogged a ~emo~ post, but today i feel like it. i mean, i do feel like posting a more personal/feelings kind of post once in a while, but most of the time i just tweet it/get over the feeling so i don't bother to.

but today i guess it's different. like, idk i don't exactly want to say it because it feels kind of stupid, but i kind of do too, like just to get things off.

so yeah i guess school has been okay, things are not too complex yet, still pretty normal for now... considering the seniors made sec 3 seem so busy. but i guess the work will kick in soon.

but i keep feeling sec 3 is like a repeat of sec one.. like i still remember the day i walked into school and looked at the class lists for the first time and realised i was practically separated from all my good friends.

yeah i'm kind of feeling the same thing now, but i'm really trying to be optimistic about this whole situation, because i still have some good friends in my class and i know my sec1 class eventually turned out pretty well, so i'm just hoping it will turn out the same way.

but idk maybe it's because my sec1 class turned out so much better than i expected that i'm really impatient for everything to be better. it's like i know things are gonna be better but it's just not happening fast enough.

sigh yeah and i kind of miss my friends in the other class. i mean, idk if they're enjoying themselves in their new class and all, so i can't say anything about them. but i talked to one of my friends today and she's a little worried about smth in a new class.

i kind of wished i could have said smth to comfort/help her then but i really didn't know what to say. i mean, i don't think i'm the kind that provides great advice/comfort but i'll just like to be there and tell her she didn't have to care about what people thought.

anyway really miss most of them ):

and the past two days i have been really tired. it's not really school work, it's more about how everything has become so mundane and meaningless. honestly, what i have been living on recently is fanfics.

okay very stupid i know. but it's what makes me happy.
yes i know the stories aren't true, and it won't ever be true, but i just like imagining it is true.

it's really retarded i know, but it's like they're keeping me emotionally alive. it's like i really can't be bothered to think/feel anything but it's really the stories that make me giggle at the cute characters/events and make me tear when any of the characters feel broken.

so yeah the fic i'm reading recently basically involves these two best friends who are super sweet to each other and they are so cute tgt.

but sigh as i read it really just makes me think if i could find a friend like that. i mean yes i know it's a story and all, but i like to believe it can be real.

i once heard my pastor say, there's no such thing as BFFs. i never had one, and admittedly i always wanted one. it's nice to know (even if it might just be in name) that you can sort of call someone a best friend.

okay i really dk why i am going into this but yeah. (i wasn't intending to but i'm just typing as i think. this post isn't meant to be coherent.)

so yeah i mean i pretty much trust what my pastors say, and when he said it, it kind of just hurt me, a little. i mean i never really thought about it much but it resurfaced again when i was typing this.

and well i guess true enough, i've seen some best friends come to drift apart, and i do find it a pity. but i guess it really isn't up to me to try and understand, it's not my relationship after all.

& i'm really tired now. like mentally. idk there's a lot of things left to be done in school - upcoming tests, homework which i can't do and feel horrid about, and project groups which haven't been decided on.

like i'm not even really hyped about the project, because i would like to stick to the traditional boring stuff sometimes, and research+presentation isn't really my thing occasionally too. sigh idk i've been praying the project will eventually turn out good, and i'm seriously hoping it will.

anyway but today had it's fun parts too!

like i had PE with another class and we did a floorball module, which was pretty fun lol. i guess cause i like floorball and lol the girls from the other class are really friendly and they make the most lame but ROFL jokes so i was probably too busy laughing than playing.

excited to play with them again next week (:

and i had drill practice today, which surprisingly turned out to be pretty fun! we had quite a few breaks so we just sat down and talked and bonded (:

and lol even during prac itself it was uber fun cause we just kept laughing and our dear commander who was supposed to keep us serious & focused was laughing most of the time herself sigh.

hehe but i really enjoyed it and lol i think i was being completely nonsensical, cracking lame jokes and flinging my arms around :P

lol i can't believe i'm saying this, but GB has come to be an important part of my life. like, i actually look forward to GB meetings nowadays because i'm glad to see the people there once again and talk to them (:

i finally understand why people always say GB is like a big family. it really is actually. it's like in GB i can really just talk to almost anyone and say what's on my mind.

i'm so glad i didn't quit it, honestly. i don't know where i'd be without it. as much as i hated it in pri school/sec 1 i have really come to love it and, i guess i would be pretty sad when i leave GB next year.

plus i think in GB i have made some of the most awesome friends, as much as i hate to admit it cause they're all egomaniacs! :P

so yes, for now i'll go back to immersing myself in the fics and blocking out my school work. i will regret, but for now i really can't bring myself to do any.

EXPLOSIVE ACTION;

2011-01-05T21:48:00.003+08:00

"Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in"
©KatyPerry

well hello this is my first post of the year :D
yeah i know it's a little late but i've been busy, and school started yesterday!

sigh honestly time passed so fast. i still remember the time just before the nov/dec holidays started and i was still planning what i wanted to do during the hols and all... and lol i dont think i accomplished much i set out to do :P

but still it was pretty fun, even though i didn't travel much ):

speaking of travelling, i reaaaaaallyyyyy want to go to germany ): my mum is def. not keen on going there, she's keen on like korea~. i mean korea's fun too but i way prefer germany (yes i'm biased).

and i might get to go this year, on a school trip, though it's more of like a learning journey where we have to do work and all (sigh.). and it's like a eastern europe trip (not just a germany trip) so i think they'll only visit berlin (!!!) for like, a day or two at the most? ):

but, i'll rather have been there for a day than have never gone there :D

lol okay i shouldn't get my hopes too high, they might not be having the europe trip lol. but they usually do :)

so yeah school! first day was pretty okay, a lot of talks blahblah. today we had some lessons and met more of our subject teachers. i like our physics teacher 'cause he has a sense of humour (is it a physics thing?) - "physics was my first love. not my wife, but don't tell her that... i don't know when it (falling in love with physics) started, but i grew to love it." LOL he can really make physics sound like a girl.

anyway my chem teacher seems pretty nice too, so i'm only dissatisfied with my e math, eng & lit teacher. okay maybe i'm slightly biased now cause my e math teacher sort of scolded me for yawning in his class (what on earth honestly, it was at the end of the lesson alr).

but anyway apart from that he's pretty okay i guess. my english teacher seems horrendously fierce & apparently my lit teacher is horrible.

and now i'm looking forward to all chinese lessons cause i got my previous chinese teacher and i love herrrrr <3

so yep i guess that's it for now, and i'll try to update if i can, but it might be hard considering i can feel work/responsibilities coming in ):

hope you all have a great new year!

silent night;

2010-12-25T20:34:00.014+08:00

"Rudolph with your nose so bright,
Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"

ho ho ho...

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

wow okay. i hope everyone's enjoying/enjoyed their christmas (depends on when you read this) & is not like me, sitting here typing away! ):

HAHA. nahh i quite enjoyed my christmas in kukup! oh yes, i went to kukup from 24th to 25th dec! :D

well it was like a trip with a few families combined, and we went off to kukup in malaysia for 2 days! we stayed in a kelong, which is like houses on stilts cause the houses are built on muddy area/near the shore!

okay admittedly i wasn't too pleased with the accomodation at first, cause for our xmas trip last year we went to a really nice resort with huge rooms and all!

but after awhile it wasn't too bad! afterall, the company was more important and i really had fun with the people i went with :D

okay before i continue, just a few pics of where we stayed! (when we first got there the fishy smell was SOOOOOO strong i thought i was in a fish market/farm)

that's the kelong next to ours.. there were a lot of people renting the kelongs in that area for xmas!

and this is our balcony/viewing deck! idk what to call it, but you get the meaning :)

we had a BBQ dinner there, then we played games like taboo & hearts! oh but the best part was, we set off fire crackers & fireworks from that deck ;)

idk if it's illegal in malaysia, but i know it's illegal in SG, so it was quite an eyeopener! the firecrackers and fireworks were reaaaaalllyyyy loud though. some of my friends set off the smaller fireworks but it looked so scary i didn't try!

and we set off like super many? lol so maybe fireworks aren't that expensive after all... cause i know there was one time they set off like 50 at one go (but that was a bad idea cause some of it exploded on the spot instead of shooting up into the sky before exploding, and some of the sparks hurt the people who were standing near)?

anyway pictures so yknw i'm not lying! (btw no photoshop at all okay. all i did was the enhance button on my iPhoto!)

idc what you think, but i think my camera (sony cybershot) did a pretty good job of capturing the fireworks! i mean, for a digital camera i think it's excellent.

(sidetrack: i want a DSLR [nikon or canon whatever idc skills are still more important] but it's ex, and... i'm not into all the aperture, metering, etc photog. stuff. oh and a lot of people in my church have/want it so i don't really want it anymore. it's like quite overrated there and getting it would just make me seem like a wannabe or smth since i'm not even "into photog.". so... yeah.)

and i didn't get a lot of pictures of the fireworks 'cause to capture the fireworks i had to use the fireworks mode on my camera and it takes like 7 secs to capture & process one photo ):

so yep setting off the fireworks was pretty fun, but after awhile it got annoying cause we were trying to play taboo outside but they kept setting off the fireworks so we had to pause.. and when some of the fireworks exploded on the spot (i'm glad i was taking pics so i wasn't near the spot where it exploded) some people got really pissed off.

and for xmas gift exchange, i got a photo frame! okay yes i know, photo frame sounds stupid & bring & dull. but nooooo. i absolutely love the photo frame! i don't have a pic, but i think it's really pretty and was one of the best presents that was there!

& as i have tweeted, idk why some people have a problem when others give them photo frames for presents! i mean, it's useful right? not like, sweets where you eat and it's gone. okay unless you absolutely love sweets/a certain brand of sweets then it's a different story.

but yeah i mean some photo frames are really pretty (like the one i got :P) so i think it's their own loss when people reject photo frames. and as i have said on twitter, people who keep complaining about their xmas gift exchange presents don't deserve a present.

i mean, it's more about giving than receiving right? personally i find the smile on the face of the person who receives my present more satisfying than getting a good xmas present. :D

HAHA so yep, i hope all of you got what you wanted for christmas, be it some technology gadget or games or just like a wish for peace :)

merry christmas once again, and i'm excited for the new year! :D

P.S. If you haven't got me a christmas present, you should! I want die mannschaft merchandise :P (yes i still haven't gotten the jersey ;~;)

P.P.S. sorry for incoherence/abrupt endings or change of topic in recent posts. i just have like. a mental block so i change the topic lol. ah well this is not english class anyway!!!

we've got clocks to break;

2010-12-15T22:16:00.004+08:00

"You had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around"
©DanielPowter

alrighty everybuddy, just a short post since i'm insanely bored!

okay of course i have things to do (as usual - homework) but i'm too lazy. :P

anyway so i've been lazing at home for the past 3 days... watching movies, etc. for this week i've watched bedtime stories, alvin & the chipmunks - the squeakuel and bruce almighty!

hmm they're okay i guess. not very nice, but not bad.

okay yes i know previous post i said i was planning to update on some stuff but it was like so long ago so i decided there was no need for it!

anyway so... today i was lazing around and i was browing the DFB (german football) fanshop.
and no doubt i was squeaaaaaaliingggg all the way. i'm serious like the merchandise there is crazy. if i bought everything i could decorate my house with it.

okay they have like die mannschaft (german national team) wine glasses, pillows, wallets, lanyards, cups and even a foosball table! o.o

can i say that fanshop is like my heaven?

hehehe i would totally buy stuff from there - it's quite cheap actually like 9 bucks for a scarf? but obvsly i live in sunny (but not cheerful) singapore so my shipping charges will be super ex and i can't navigate the website properly cause it's only in german -.-

well of course i could get my mum's friend who's in germany rn to help me buy but... i alr asked him to buy a jacket and the jersey (with no. and name) so it's gonna be real expensive alr. D: i wish singapore had like. a german football fan club.

or at least sell more die mannschaft merchandise. the only die mannschaft merchandise i have seen here is the scarf (one design), the FIFA WC 2010 ball, and the jersey in huge sizes.

idk i'm only feeling so indignant is 'cause the more "popular" teams/clubs like LFC/Chelsea/Manchester United have like truckloads of merchandise here in SG. and it's not just because they're clubs, i'm sure bayern munich (which is btw a v good club in the bundesliga) has hardly any merchandise in SG as well.

sucks.

but anyway on a happier note i'm going to Genting&KL next week so that means shopping! :D haha idk i'm always happy to go to KL, it's a nice place to be.

but the sad thing about the trip is that i'll be missing the youth and family christmas service in my church and i always have fun at the service. okay idk about the youth one because i've never been to one cause i'm always on holiday, but i like the family one! not just cause of all the presents (cause it's mostly food) but it's just like the atmosphere :D

i mean, my family doesn't really celebrate christmas so... ):
yeah and we don't like go christmas shopping and all..

we used to do that when i was much younger, like up till 7?
but now we don't.
we don't even have a christmas tree so yaaaaa.

anyway on a happier note my birthday is next month! hehehehehe i'm excited. for presents! LOL LOL okay i shouldn't be so shameless or i might not even get a single present :|

but i don't think i'm having a party, as usual.
i havent had once since i was, 7?

idk, can't remember. but ah well, the only times i really wanna celebrate my birthday will be when i'm 16-21. heh.

anyway but i kinda don't like the fact my birthday is so early in the year cause.. i dunno. i just don't like it. but, i'm not exactly complaining cause that's a special day after all ;)

so yeeeep i'm gonna go off and find smth to do. i dunno what though. i'll probably end up on like barbie.com

DAZED BROWSER;

2010-12-03T10:17:00.007+08:00

"Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head"
©BritneySpears

hey hey hey (:
okay so. update on my mundane life.

yesterday i went to watch Rapunzel/Tangled, and it was super awesome :)
i loveeeee Rapunzel's hair in the whole movie!

okay basically she had three different hairstyles - when she was a baby, when she was 18 and had that super long blonde hair (which the directors said was super hard to animate), and when Eugene/Flynn cut her hair and it was short and brown.

okay so that's her long blonde hair, but i can't find any pictures of her other hairstyles on the internet.
guess you have to watch the movie to find out ;)

i think my fave look for her would be her short and brown hair, cause although her long blonde hair was v pretty it looks super hard to manage and it was excessively long. excessively long hair isn't THAT pretty anymore.

heh she's so pretty and she's v cute (with the frying pan and all) so she's my fave disney princess now! :D

but i loved a lot of other characters in the movie also, like Eugene/Flynn (the male lead), Pascal (the chameleon) and Maximus (the horse) (occassionally only though :P).

My friend likes Eugene/Flynn Rider cause she thinks he is hot, but I think it's so weird! okay admittedly he is quite charismatic but he's like a cartoon character so how to like him! as in, in the BGR way. LOL.

so i told her to go like Zachary Levi (the voice for Eugene/Flynn) instead. :P but i know Zachary can't do the famous smolder:

):

HAHA cause someone once asked Zachary to do the smolder but he failed so badly :P

ohoh & not forgetting pascal!

mad cute right! :D

plus he changes colour - like red when he's angry and blue when he's scared. or smth like that.
heh i know disneyland sells pascal stuffed toys so if i ever go there i'll buy pascal in all colours! That is, if I have that much money :|

haha okay i'll will stop spoiling the movie for you, and you should really go watch it! I don't know if 3D is nice (i'm actually considering re-watching it in 3D) cause i watched in 2D, but it was really awesome in 2D alr! <3

i think the only other movie i ever felt so strongly about this year (meaning i encourage EVERYONE to watch it) is Inception, which you cannot deny was AWEEESHUMMM. so you should absolutely trust that my taste in movies is good. :D

i'm still waiting for the Inception DVD! it's taking forever but websites say the DVD will be released in early dec - which is like now. -.-
okay, doesn't matter, good things come to those who wait!

actually i watched another movie this week, but i don't feel like talking about two movies in one single post, so i'll keep the other movie for maybe sunday? :) at least i have some material to entertain you guys with ;)

okay now onto more boring stuff.
i know this has happened really long ago, but i haven't blogged about it yet and i feel it deserves some attention, so here it goes :)

so yep after I returned from my church camp, i went for LTC (which i think i have already mentioned in my previous post).

so basically i was pretty excited for it, cause they told us our groupings beforehand and i knew quite a lot of people in my group and i thought they were really fun people :)

okay so yep my group was not really up to my expectations, like we were really quiet and stuff ): but i think as the camp went by we all grew closer to each other and we became more open, which was good (:

okay so the camp was.. tiring. in one word.

like not just physically (cause we had to run around the school/do push ups/static exercises/jumping jacks/run up four flights of stairs as fast as possible at 9pm at night & we had a land expedition where we went out of school to different places to perform some tasks), but also mentally.

mentally cause i was quite tired at some points (esp. the land expedition) but I still had to go on (duhh. ) and i knew that throughout the whole camp the SFs were like observing us and all (to see if we have potential, etc) so yeah. :|

okay i seriously think they don't think i have any potential! like i dunno. i wasn't like really contributing during meetings (like mental block) and I was hardly enthusiastic.
and not to mention i came late for my recent LTC meeting to discuss our project -.-

oh yes about the meeting - each group in the camp was assigned a project, and we got Total Defence Day.
okay i know, what the crap is that.

it's like a day in SG where we commemorate the fall of SG to the Japanese in WW2. so on that day we basically have to educate the students on how we all have a part to play in protecting SG, etc.

and honestly, when we got that, i was like okay i wanna go home now. pretend i never signed up for LTC.
because seriously, they gave us that project on the first night, and my mood was like, rock bottom kthx.

i mean, TDD is like one of the most boring events among all the projects (Orientation camp, orientation day, P1 picnic, cross-country, and best of all - Cycle of Hope).

okay but as we started on the project it definitely got more fun, and it started to occur to me that TDD isn't THAT bad after all.
like we had/are having fun planning it, and i think it would be nice if we could make TDD fun for once. :)

it just seems easier to make a small boring project fun, than to handle a huge project like Cycle of Hope.

but nah, i'm not saying Cycle of Hope is bad. that was the project i wanted at first. i guess every project just has its pro and cons.

so back to the meeting, the programme comm (which i'm in) met up on wed to discuss the programme for TDD, and we really had a lot of fun :D

we digressed a lot while planning and we even stayed back for one hour after that to talk ;)
i dont even remember what we talked about lol. i think it was like, teachers, kpop, tv shows, etc. LOL everything under the sun.

haha okay so for now that's it! i actually have a lot more to say, but i like keeping suspense. plus, maybe you're not so interested in my life after all. :D

OHOHOH WAIT.
before i go.

the 2018 WC host is RUSSIA; and the 2022 WC hosT is QATAR!

okay. i really don't mind russia, but QATAR?!
i honestly don't even know where that is, and according to my friend they only have a population of 1.4 million.
greeaaaaaat. have fun hosting it.

i don't mean to be mean, but i just. don't know how they're gonna handle it.

my friend and i wanted england/usa to win the 2018 WC bid cause we would probably be studying there then, and we could go watch! ):

ah well. if i have $$$ when i grow up i'll buy tickets to go watch in Qatar.

BLINK;

2010-11-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

"Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back"
©KatyPerry

heeeelloooo.
ahhh i'm so sorry i haven't been posting in like forever):

i just ended church camp today, so i couldn't blog in the past few days, and the week before that i was, lazy. :P
and there wasn't anything interesting to tell you guys about anyway!

so yep i'll just type a short post about the church camp, cause i'm really tired, and i haven't packed my bag for LTC camp tmr (yes camp after camp ): ).

so this camp was pretty short, 3 days but it was an overnight camp, and it was for the school children in the BB/GB cca instead.

the kids this time are really way easier to handle though, unlike the CSI camp one :P
and they're all reaaaally cute!
but maybe cause this time there's only like 100+ kids so it's easier to handle and all (:

and this time i served as a gamemaster!
it was really tiring, cause we didn't just manage stations but we also had to help do other stuff and clearing up after the stations was real tiring ):

so all the gamemasters were split into groups of 3, and i was grouped with steven and jacqueline. they were really fun (:

so yep we had two station games, the day station games and the night station games.

so day station games!
basically our game was to use a ski-pod (a empty flower pot) to get to a bucket of bean bags, and transport it back to the starting line, and the group with more bean bags would win!

it sounds pretty boring lol but it can be quite fun (:

& i'm a real pro at it now cause i kept doing demos :P

so yep it was quite funny esp when people used the double ski-pod, meaning two people in one ski-pod, so you need to coordinate.

faith was probably the most hilarious for that. she kept asking her group members to go faster when they were using the double ski-pod, but when she was playing and using the ski-pod, she finally realised it wasn't easy and she kept screaming and shouting faster faster and even fell down lol lol.

but the cleaning up was horrible ): there was so much mud stuck to the bottom of the ski-pods and i had to use my fingers to dig them out :| we also had to wash the buckets which had some mud and grass on them.

then there was night station games which i totally loved my station. it was so pretty (:

we used tin cans which were filled with kerosene and we lighted them up, and formed a semi-circle in the middle of the school parade ground as part of our game. it eventually became a photo area for the groups to take photos before/after the games lol. but i didn't get to take a picture inside it )':

anyway so my game was basically just to shoot lightsticks (red and green which were v pretty) into the target area, which is the semi-circle formed by the lighted tin cans, and the group with more lightsticks in the target area wins! (:

but it was not easy okay! i couldn't get one in at all ):
but then again, i only had like 5 tries :P

anyway the game was quite tiring cause i had to keep bending down to pick the lightsticks which were everywhere and the fire made the whole place so hot ):

and i rmb we were so stressed when the first group came cause night games was supposed to start at 7, but they came at like 6.45 and we weren't even ready yet! i was still breaking the lightsticks and steven just started lighting the tin cans :|

but thanks to charissa and sarah for helping we managed to settle everything quickly and we started at 6.50, which meant the first two groups played many rounds.

and lol in the very first round only this boy shot the lightstick and it toppled the tin can, causing the kerosene and fire so spill and it starting burning on the floor! we were all so clueless and we were like "water! sand! ahh how? eh water! go take!" and in the end uncle brendon just stamped it out.

and i'm glad it happened when the principal was at other stations instead of ours, cause we were so flustered and we burnt his floor, heh. but it didn't happen a second time so phewww. though we had sand ready after that :P

this station had a lot of funny incidents too lol. like uncle andy tan was so confident, and he did a huge swing and after he shot the lightstick out, he kept looking far and was like "where's my lightstick? i can't see it anywhere". and guess what, it landed about 50 cm from his feet LOL.
oh and that happened to faith also :P

anyway so yep it was really a great experience (:
def. learnt a lot! :D

ohoh on the second day we hiked to dairy farm which was pretty.. uneventful. i wouldn't really say boring, cause it was nice and peaceful and we saw monkeys and a monitor lizard, but it just didn't really stir up my interest.

but. i learnt that SG used to rear cattle! :P

so yeah those are probably the highlights of the camp!
but i was really worn out by the camp, that i would feel sleepy even after i bathed when i got home.

okay technically i didn't go home. i went to my friend's house to stay cause she lives nearer to the school, and i didn't want to sleep in tents in the school :P

but admittedly, the tents are quite pretty and spacious! (:

ahh but of course nothing is perfect, and i dunno if it's due to me being tired or what, but i thought i was being quite grouchy during the camp :|

esp today. like i dunno. very easily irritated at people? i know i got annoyed at a few people when they weren't even doing anything much.

and I was constantly annoyed at a few people lol. like i dunno la, everything they do is annoying?

i'm mean.

LOL. anyway but i'm not mean to my blog readers 'cause i know all of you are nice and won't irritate me (:

heh so leave a tag or i'll hate on all of you!!!! D<

yepyep. i'm going to slack around awhile more and i'll go and sleep! have to report for camp at 7.30 tmr ;~;

bai guiseeeeeee.

PEELED GLITTER;

2010-11-06T16:01:00.012+08:00

"Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start"
©Coldplay

alright everybody!
i'm back from camp and tired! ):

lol actually camp was pretty fun - i would say the second best GB camp i've had :)

anyway so before camp, i mentioned i went to sleepover at my friend's place right!
lol it was quite fun, we (or actually I) played FIFA 11 manager mode on her computer, and I was an awesome manager!!!!

after like 2 hours the board had full confidence in me and my reputation was 2 stars! not bad eh ;)

but sadly i tried to buy players like neuer (cause i was managing bayern munich) but he only had 36% interest in joining my club and he rejected my offer twice! >:(

okay so in revenge, i defeated schalke 04 multiple times :P

evidence!
hehe. loserrrrrr. who ask him no join me!
and i was telling Tessa that the game was pretty realistic cause schalke wasn't doing very well in the game and they aren't doing very well irl too :P

anyway yes my name is mr manager because i clicked save before i realised i could change my name -.-

but anyway when this ^ happened. i was at a huge loss ):
cause my other goalk was kinda sucky gahh.
stupid neuer all his fault for my losses/draws!

but anyway, after awhile it became boring, because i became so good at it, so we went to play guitar hero!
alright don't judge me, but that was the first time i played it!
and eh Tessa said i was not bad ok :P
and she's a reliable source since she's a pro.

hehe a picture of her playing and none of me playing cause i was busy taking the picture :)

and anyway after that we got bored of GH too and we went to learn how to play Risk!
it was.. complicated.
lol but we managed to get the gist of it!

i actually have pictures of us setting up the board (which took like half an hour) but my stupid phone crashed after I got it back from GB camp when i had to surrender it, so i lost all the pictures i took at her house ):

blah but anyway it was quite fun, and we stayed up to like 2 am talking lol. and by the next day we totally forgot what we even talked about -.-

so yep moving on to annual camp!
anyway annual camp, as its name suggests, is a yearly camp GB has and I can't run away from it ):

but surprisingly it was quite fun :)
and this year, during the camp we had a biannual drill competition on the second day of the camp. (BAD CHOICE!)

so on the first day, we had some ice breakers (which were really fun!) and a workshop related to the theme of our camp - listening to God's voice.

i thought the theme of the camp was pretty interesting and applicable, since i always hear people talk about hearing God speaking to them and such, but I never knew how it really works. like.. do you actually hear an actual voice or what?

so yep this camp has taught me some important stuff that def. will help me to keep focused on God, esp during the 2 months holiday :)

so anyway back to the first day, our ice breakers was a game something like dog-and-bone, just that what you're supposed to try and take is a sponge in a pail, and bring it back to your group pail and squeeze the water out.

it was really hilarious though cause the game masters read numbers to add and subtract to get the number of the person to go and get the sponge, and my group was real confused so we ended up just sending anyone lol.

and i think the highlight of the game was when they asked for everyone in the groups to go and try to get the sponges, and my group brought back the whole pail of water rofl.
andand my friend and I were trying to snatch the sponge from the other group, and while we were trying to get the sponge, we ended up squeezing all the water out of the sponge and on to the floor lol.

and then in the night we had the workshop by a lady, and it was pretty boring lol. not that i didnt learn anything though :)

and before we went to sleep i was polishing boots for the next day's drill competition and all my boot polishing skills seemed to leave me at the moment ): i couldn't make anything v shiny. ):
i hope i wasn't the downfall of inspection :P

anyway so next day - drill competition + botanic gardens!

the morning was pretty rushed, cause we only had about 50 mins to prepare for the drill competition!
and some of our seniors - amanda, charlotte and naomi came back to help us :)

lol so yep they helped us as we tried to iron our uniforms/pin badges/tie our hair/clip our hair neatly :)

lol but i think my group's hair was all pretty bad cause it was all coming out and the hairnets we bought were too small ):

i pinned like 10 clips just on one of my friend's fringe lol.

and ahhh inspection really scared me ):
cause we're the sixth group to be judged, we were also the sixth out of seven groups to have inspection (where the judges check the uniform/hair/boots), which means we had to stand still for pretty long.

and one of my friends in my group started to feel giddy and had to squat down. and i was really scared 'cause if she couldn't march anymore we would have to use one of our subs, which i must say, were definitely not up competition standard.. :/

but yep anyway she was fine after that cause she stood up after awhile and made it through inspection and the actual march! :)

anyway i don't know the exact scores the judges gave us ('cause the scores are confidential ): ) but i think our inspection was average.

anyway then we waited and practiced a little more, then we had to go in and do our format and impromptu drill!
i personally thought we did really well for format (except for the beloks)! most of our stamps were together and hehe i could hear the crowd going whoaaa~ at our stamps :P

but i guess the part we really messed up was our impromptu ):
our commander was pretty soft, so it was quite hard to hear with the crowd mumbling and with a timer.
also our commander was asked to give us commands on the wrong foot (!!!)(the other commanders were never asked to give wrong commands!) and we were supposed to ignore the commands and continue marching if it was on the wrong foot, but losers like me can't tell if the command is given on the wrong foot until i actually make the turn ):

so yes.
i guess it's my fault, cause Christelle was asking what we would do if commands for right and left turns on a march were given on the wrong foot, and she suggested that we continue marching and ignore the commands, but my big mouth had to tell her that i wouldn't know (maybe i would.. i dunno. i just didn't think i would know) so we decided to just make the turn, and if it's wrong we would just march on the spot.

BAD CHOICE.

anyway so yeah.
before we got results i was really quite confident we would get either 1st or 2nd, cause there was another group that was pretty good as well, and everyone (most of my friends) thought we were gonna win..

so yes i was feeling pretty good until results.
well in conclusion we got 3rd. and the other team that did pretty well got first...

ahhh i hate to sound so whiny, but i still think we deserved a second. ):
the whole of my second day was practically spent praying that they made a mistake with the calculation of marks of smth ):

did not happen.

am sad.

but anyway it's over, and i can't change it!
but whiny me will still be whiny me,
and sore loser me will be sore loser me,
and i will never get over this~

BUT.
even though we didn't win, i really thought this was the best drill i've ever done :)
i really just did my best, and i felt everyone in my squad did the same, and every perfect stamp we had is really still ringing in my head now.
and no matter what place we got, we're always first in my heart. (:

and.
i'm really pretty sad my mum didn't come..
lol i know everyone doesn't want their parents to come but that's because their parents have watched them march before but my mum hasn't.
and this is my last inter-squad drill competition so i really wanted her to go and i was really proud of what i did in that hall so i really wished she was there ):

ohoh but tanya (our squad commander) didn't get best commander ):
i was really rooting for her!
who ask her to forget her commands, tsk.

lol anyway there was a tie for the best commanders, and i didn't watch cara command, but i definitely thought agnes deserved the award :)

yepyep so that's it for this year's drill comp, and i guess all i can do now is to work harder for next year's national drill comp and try to get the challenge shield! :)

er so after drill comp, we left for botanic gardens! ):
i am really not a fan of nature.

anyway so we had some station games there, and i took a few peekchures! :Done of the stations where we had to connect straws together and place them onto the ground with our index fingers and no one's index finger and be lifted from the straw at all times. bahh.
took quite long to do this and i think everyone (not just my group) was real annoyed with the station masters. D:

and look at all my aunty juniors holding umbrellas lol.

okay gonna post some squad photos now! :D

ayeeee can you see my juniors! they're so cute :D
just that they're pretty quiet and the only people they talk to is each other, and tanya whom they are absolutely obsessed with! they follow her everywhere she goes lol.

anyway oh you see the picture where we were sitting on a tree branch, that tree is a heritage tree and we're not supposed to sit on it lol.

and i have realised...
that botanic gardens is actually a pretty nice place.
and it probably means really nice cause i don't like nature stuff usually.

botanic gardens is quite nice and peaceful, and i guess i used to hate it cause i always go there in huge groups, and it just spoils everything.

like can you imagine yourself sitting comfortably in the middle of this:and then... a huge group of orange people comes running towards you, screaming their head off and taking photos...

i would pack up and leave right away!
lol joking. but i would be pretty annoyed, to say the least.

and it started drizzling after the games, so we went back to school early!
we had to eat our dinner with droplets of rain in it lol.
andand i was really quite excited for "worship under the stars" but we just had worship in the school hall instead ):

and ahh by the time worship finished i was having a headache and i was sooooo sleeepyyy~
but from then on everything was nice :D
we had like 1 hour and 15 mins to bathe, and we got to sleep in the hall with air con! :D

and it was a pretty good sleep!
i was so tired the hard floor didn't even bother me lol.

we wanted to sleep on the gym mats at first then miss yang disallowed it ):

so yep anyway fast forward to the last day!
didn't do much except for clean-up and we attended another workshop!

we had four workshops to choose from - dancing, percussion, miming and sign language.
i wanted the sign language one but it's was full (max 25 people) so i signed up for the miming one instead!

it was quite different from what i thought it would be but it was still quite fun! it wasn't really miming but we just did some actions to a really cute ten commandments song and a song about love :)

HAHA yep so that concludes my camp!
it was really great in general!
i got to know my squad members a lot more, and I had a lot of fun with them!

though i have finally come to realise that I'll never succeed as a squad leader!
i mean, i'll be like the first to run away from cleaning up the toilets and I'll be easily frustrated with the juniors and all! ):

and i really want another internal drill competition next year! ):
but maybe this time round not in squads? :)
not that i don't love my squad, but it's good to have bonding across the company!

alright and that concludes my post! :D
i took real long to type this so you should appreciate it, and leave me a tag! :D

off to watch football now! :P

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2010-11-01T10:02:00.003+08:00

"I should've put it down, should've got the ring
Cause I can still feel it in the air"
©Nelly

aloha!

alrighty so today's like the first official day of my two months holiday!

but ahh november is kinda packed - i have 3 camps to attend D:
okay granted i signed up for two out of three, but still ):

anyway one of the camps is this thursday-saturday, and is definitely the one i dread most ):
and we have a drill competition during the camp, but my squad's standard is really not up to competition standard yet ):

but i've really grown to love my squad so much i really want us to win!
it'll be a wonderful memory for sure, considering this will be my last inter-squad drill competition. (can't decide if it's a good thing)

but anyway because of the competition, we're having practices today, tomorrow and wednesday! ):
gonna be so tired.. but if we win, it's all worth it! :P

and i'm going to my friend's house after practice today (since she has practice today and tmr as well) so i'm pretty excited cause she has a big house! LOL.

nah it's just that i think we're gonna watch amazing race tgt and play some games? :D
too bad my other friends cant come or we can't play more games ):

anyway, recently i started on Harry Potter, & i know this is reeeaaaaaallllyyyy late, BUT THE BOOK IS AWESHUMMMM <3

lol i love harry potter, but everytime i think of him i simultaneously think of daniel radcliffe, which totally spoils my image of harry potter D<

HAHA. yep yep i'm pretty slow though, only on the second book! ):
and my mum was not one bit happy i bought the whole HP collection D:
but it's worth the money!!!!
ALL YOU PEEPS OUT THERE SHOULD READ IT!

anyway yes i know witchcraft blahblahblah.
but honestly (okay sidenote, i use too many 'but's) the book isn't really THAT much about witchcraft!
at least that is what i see from the first & half of the second book.

and if you really wanna be so strict about such stuff, then you might as well say transformers is demonic cause they transform into robots..
andand you might as well say romance movies are bad cause they focus on BGR which we shouldn't be involved in..
andandand you should not celebrate CNY as well cause it started from a legend of a dragon and every year it follows the year of some animal (horoscope) which once again to certain people *cough* is bad.

then you might as well don't watch/read/listen to anything la!

idk but to me it's just about choosing what you want to get involved in after you read/listen/watch anything.
i mean, everything has its good and bad points.
it's just what you want to take from what you read/listen/watch.

like if you read HP and you love the witchcraft so much you get involved in it, then obviously it's not good.. but if you just read it for leisure, as a nice story to enjoy, then why not?
it's not as if everyone who watched GG ends up having sex with their friends/people they've only known for a week or two/with married people.

so yeahhhhhhh anyway just my opinion.

argh and yesterday i got reminded of all the homework i have to do ):
sniff sniff sniffle. and it's all chinese homework.
i blame this on the fact that i'm taking chinese o levels next year. D<

lol so yep i just wanted to blog a short post, updating everybuddy out there on my life! :P

hahaha i just got reminded of what my friend said to her mum when her mum kept telling her friend everything that happened at home. she said: "mum, if you're gonna tell her everything that happens at home, you might as well ask her to come stay at our house right!"

i had to LOL.
is that a good quote or what!

oh yeah on a sidenote, one of my good friends is actually coming over to my house for a sleepover LOL.
she's probably the first and only one!
not that i wanted to invite her, but i had no choice >:(

and i have no idea what she's gonna do here cause it's so boring and i havent decided on a place for her to sleep cause i dont wanna sleep in the living room (where there is no air-con/strong fan) with her :D

lalaa i guess i'll decide when the day draws nearer. :P

alrighty now, i'm gonna end here since i wanna read my HP book ;)

P.S. bahh my posts are usually about what i've already tweeted.. feels kinda boring, no?
lol i guess nothing interesting enough has been happening to me D:

GUIDED USAGE;

2010-10-21T18:02:00.003+08:00

"I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning"
©SavageGarden

well hello i'm back again! :)

and update: school has been boring.
well for the past 3 days we have been checking out results for the various subjects, and some random activites such as a chemistry talk (which had some interesting facts like fishballs contain bolic acid) and some arts appreciation where a lady came to play the harp and watching a chinese movie (where i end up with an assignment to compare romeo and juliet to the story).

so results have been alright, not up to my expectations (especially for certain subjects i studied really hard for), but i guess it isnt too bad on a whole.. (:

and tomorrow we're having a talk on choosing subject combinations, and we'll choose our subject combis on monday..
D:

i mean, i kinda know what i want to take, but it's a pretty unconventional choice, and my seniors say that people who choose that combination struggle. ):

so i am confused now.. i hope tomorrow's talk will really help me to make a decision though(:

anyway i'm kind of dreading the holidays ):

it means i have to start on my holiday homework, and i have two camps to attend, and i am not a fan of school camps at all.

well one of them is some leadership training camp, which i really regret signing up for because there's so much to do and the chance of them choosing me is so low anyway.
i still haven't found out my LTC group but i hope the people in my group are nice.. and hopefully i can make new friends :D

lol i always say i hope the people in my group are nice, but i dont think i'm that nice lol. what if people hate me and dont wanna be in the same group as me? D:

and i am in deep trouble for ltc because they expect my hair to be braided but i hate having my hair braided cause it makes my hair all ~curly~ and i cannot braid my own hair (nicely and neatly) to save my own life.

which is why i suspect if i am a girl at all lol.

so yep anyway side point, i kinda want to go out with my friends but i dunno. we always end up in orchard which is kinda boring and i dont have unlimited cash anyway.
we were planning on universal studios during the holidays i think but idk how the plan is going ):

lol and i dont exactly like hanging out in big groups cause it's hard to please everyone most of the time and it makes me feel kinda self-conscious?

but anyway i'm such lazybones i dont like to move my butt so i usually am not keen on active stuff my friends do (e.g. play basketball and such). and lol my friends know me well enough not to ask me anyway :)

actually, what i would do is to ask my friends over to laze at my house while we pig out like no one's business because it's my house anyway and we can play games.
but too bad my house is so ugly and blah i would never invite anyone over to embarrass myself. D:

and my friends all live so far away from me so it's not like i can go over.. plus i dont think anyone enjoys me suddenly popping up at their house lol.

i mean, dont you think it will be pretty fun if you had a group of close friends and whenever you're bored / want to talk to them you can just give them a call and go over?

why too bad i live in singapore where everyone's not that.. open? (i cant think of a better word)
sniff.

alright enough of my daydreaming lol.

just wanted to blog a short post as an update! (:
if you really want to know that much about my life, go follow me on twitter!!! just click that join the conversation link on the twitter widget in the side bar :)

i cant find the html code to put my tweets on my blog instead. ):
i promise i will find it soon, when i'm not so lazy and tired.

andand i really need a new blogskin.. this is getting boring.

alrighty, goodbye for now! :)
i am very sleeeeeppyyyyy.

INSTANT ROLL;

2010-10-17T11:18:00.003+08:00

"There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow"
©LinkinPark

well hello again! :)
hehehehe i have been v free ever since exams ended! :D:D

well so recently i've been watching the apprentice, starting from season 7 though cause the idea of celebrity apprentice was more appealing.. (:

i'm not v fast, only at ep4, but until now it has been pretty good! i love the guys team.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? FOUR WINS IN A ROW? <3

warning: some religious opinions/belief below. i don't believe in forcing religion on anyone. read if you wish, but if you get offended, (though i don't see why you should because this is just my opinion and you can always brush it off), i definitely don't mean to force my belief on anyone :)

lalala anyway i kinda wanted to blog this because.. i went out for dinner with yvonne and some other people yesterday night, and she told me about this guy - Jaeson Ma.

well he's like a musician and actor, but he's also a pastor.
It's really pretty interesting because he reaches out to the influential.
According to some CCN report and well, wiki, it says he is the"world's most prominent Asian hip-hop pastor, travelling the globe and spreading the Christian word of God through music".
and that's what i find amazing.

Yvonne was saying he had this speech/sermon on how the post-modern age we live in, are influenced not by parents or teachers, but by the pop stars. and well, i don't think anyone can disagree. well unless you live in a rural area. that's a different story.

but yes i found it interesting because, most of the people i interact with believe in reaching down. as in, reaching to the ordinary. no, definitely nothing wrong. and the ordinary are definitely more open to anything.
because as we all know, fame gives us this ego. the ego that makes us believe we're right and it's hard for us to accept another opinion. just like Gene Simmons in The Apprentice s7.

it was pretty weird actually. he actually went to the extent of saying that his client was wrong, when it was his idea that failed to meet the client's expectations. he thought that his idea could better sell the product.

anyway back to the point, so yep, definitely nothing wrong. but i had this thought that maybe, just maybe reaching out to the rich and influential would work. you know we have that top 100 most influential people in the world thing every year. just imagine if let's say 1/4 of them are Christians, (well i dont know the list of the top 100 people, but i'm pretty sure there aren't many christians on that list) i can tell you this world will be different.

alright. let's just say.. imagine if Lady Gaga's a Christian..
yes whoa unbelievable but to me, nothing's impossible with my God.

and truth is, there are people who persecute God, but they end up being the vessel that God works through and uses mightily - like Paul.

so anyway, imagine if Lady Gaga's a christian.. her songs which are on the ti[ of everyone's tongue, would no longer be about you know, sex, but about God's love..
a catchy song about God's love. how's that sounding.

well of course it's not an easy task, but it's not impossible..
apparently jaeson ma reached out to sammi cheng and she became a christian! :)

so yep just wanted to blog about it..
i never really told anyone about what i felt towards such matters but i trust you guys enough :)

alrighty, that concludes my post for now, cause i gotta go watch the apprentice! it's getting so hilarious lol.

post again soon! <3

CAPPED SHIMMERS;

2010-10-11T12:24:00.012+08:00

"Holding on,
the days drag on,
Stupid girl,
I should have known"
©TaylorSwift

well hello there :D
how's everyone doing!

anyway first and foremost, sorry for not updating in a long while ):
but i promise i saw every one of your tags!
i check my blog almost every other day, really (:
and i'll reply to any tags as long as it requires a reply! :D

so yep sorry i was having my exams and stuff so yep i just wanted to have more time to revise (:
anyway i'm back now to entertain all of you!

and thanks to all of you who tagged (:
well i mean, i don't know any of you, and idk if you really mean what you say in your tags, but some of them have honestly made me smile, so thanks a mil <3

anyway so update on what i've been doing!

well i've been having my end-of-year examinations in the past 2 weeks..
it's pretty major, i guess.
it's streaming year and everyone's depending on results from these examinations to get them the subject combination they want next year.

i'm trying pretty hard too, or so i think.
i don't think i've tried so hard or studied so much or put so much effort into something before.
i want to do well, really. just to reassure myself again that i can do it.

the subject combination thing doesn't really bother me so much, because being in SBC does have its benefits.
at least i'm not fighting for a 9/10 subject combi. i'm just fighting to choose between the humanities or the sciences. so anyway..

i don't like to be too negative/positive/certain when it comes to how i did.

i guess it was pretty okay, some mistakes here and there, mostly due to carelessness though.
i don't know the extent of the mistakes yet, it could be 1 mark, it could be 2, or it could be 15.

but for now i'm staying optimistic (:

i don't exactly like using my own feelings to manipulate others, because i hate it when people try to do that.
i mean, yeah you're sad/annoyed/angry/frustrated/depressed/whatever, but really, the world doesn't revolve around you.
just because you're annoyed/sad doesnt mean we have to be solemn and serious just to suit the atmosphere which you're creating (mind you, it's your atmosphere, not ours).

granted, you have the right to be sad/angry, etc. but why prolong your sadness/anger for more than what it should be.

but anyway this is not directed to anyone really.
just thought of it so i typed it (:

anyways exams end on wednesday so i'll be free~
and the exams tmr and on wed are papers that don't need studying, so i'm here blogging (:

er so other stuff i've been up to?

heheheheh watching soccer & f1 of course :)

i know this is real late, but i actually managed to get tickets for the formula 1 race in SG (:
well of course i didn't pay for them..
i'm a cheapskate like that :P

anyway we got a pretty boring area- bay grandstand, but of course it's better than nothing! :D:D
okay enough of words.
some peekchures. my arms always look so fat D:

but yep we only went for the qualifiers, and we arrived late so didn't take much!
but after that we managed to catch some adam lambert :)

hmm didnt really fancy the skull part but he's really nice to his musicians and dancers :)

lol love his bassist's hair.

haha so yep it was pretty fun (:

though the results were disappointing ): i was hoping for jenson/hamilton to be on podium!
but hamilton crashed out and well jenson was 4th D:

okay so moving on to soccer.
hehehe. okay i must be boring all of you now :P

anyway short one!
i'm so proud of the die manschaft (German NT) :)

just watched their match with turkey for the euro 2012 qualifiers on sat :)
more peekchures, ok?

glorious entrance at home in berlin :D

hehe klose waving to the audience! :)
he scored TWO goals! ah im so proud of him (:
and i'm def. rooting for him to beat ronaldo's record in the world cup :D

anyway his jacket looks so comfy!
can i snuggle in there. it looks pretty spacious :P

i want to buy his jacket but, i alr asked my mum to buy me two jerseys so idk if she would kill me if i asked her for a jacket too? :/

and of course my darling goalk who's bodyslamming someone lol.
HAHAH oh duckie :)

he almost broke the person's nose lol.

anyway i feel i'm liking duckie less now ):
and i have a pretty good impression of the other goalk - rene adler D:
i dont wanna abandon duckie! he's mah first german love <3

hhehhe anyway another match on wed morning! :)
major excites.
but it's the last international match they're playing this year D:

i'll miss you guys. :C

haha ok i think that's enough for now! :)
leave me a tag with a comment/a question and i'll reply!

and go follow me on twitter if you have twitter! :)
yeah my acc is locked now cause of some stuff..
but it's ok. i generally accept most people! :D

alrighty then, tata :D

IT'S A REVOLT WE HEAR;

2010-09-18T14:55:00.003+08:00

"It's some kind of joke,
I'm obsessively opposed to the typical"
©LadyGaga

well hello (:
i wasn't really intending to blog today, until i watched this.

well yes, i know the video is long, but please. watch it.

well i'm not even american, and the cause she's supporting doesn't affect me, but i believe in her cause.

i'm not a politics person, i'm not even the type who strongly believes in fighting for rights.
but this video and the message there is pretty amazing.

and i know not everyone loves lady gaga, but this time, it's not about her. it's about the reality of the message she's trying to bring.

honestly i don't know why i'm feeling so strongly for this.

but i guess it's just the discrimination even in such a liberal country.

and what really hit me in the video is definitely the part where she talks about all these cases of soldiers who were discharged due to the don't ask, don't tell (DADT) law; but what they missed most was actually serving the country.

In Singapore, national service is compulsory for males aged 18 and above. so i guess serving the country to them is more of a forced thing; but these people in the united states, they choose to serve out of their passion and love for their country. so i don't see why they should be discharged because of their sexual orientation.

in times of war, do you think someone who's straight or someone who has a burning passion for the country will go all out to protect it?

anyway enough said. i think the video is self-explanatory. (:

oh and i don't think i can be blogging much soon. ):
i have my end-of-year examinations coming up in about two weeks, and many of the subjects require intense studying :/

but i definitely won't stop tweeting, so you can read that :D

GLAMOROUS PASSIONS;

2010-09-10T13:29:00.007+08:00

"No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love"
©BackstreetBoys

lalla.
hello everybody! :D

i shouldn't be blogging(with work and studying to do), but it makes me sad to see that same old post there with no updates! and i'm sure you guys feel the same :D

haha anyway i need a break from work and studying right!
not that i have been doing much lately :/

i just came home from drill practice for a biannual drill competition we have.
well it was quite fun talking to the seniors and all.

and we actually progressed!well at least for me, i can do/remember the whole falling in procedure now and can do right turns on a march (which is pretty hard)! :D:D

and i can really see that tanya (our commander) has improved since day 1!
lol i remember how she didnt know any commands and christelle had to write out all the commands for her!
but now she can command us pretty well! like her commands are on the right foot and she can say the really long commands from memory (with really minor mistakes occasionally) :D

i'm rooting for her to get best commander! :D:D

lol anyway. so that means i didnt do any work this morning, and yesterday.

yesterday, i went back to school for LA lessons.the first part where miss ng just went through act 4 and 5 of Romeo & Juliet was really boring, and i only had 3.5 hours of sleep the night before ):

but after the lesson, we watched the original Romeo & Juliet movie!
which i absolutely love love love. hehe well, almost all the guys in there are pretty good-looking ;)
(well yes i know they're all ancient and like 60+ now)

but i was pretty sad about paris ):
he didn't look as good as i thought he would be/should be.
well after all, "he's a man of wax".

ohoh and i think the girl who acts as juliet looks slightly korean?
idk.
haha but i loved the balcony scene and the scene where they met! it was sweet x309432.

and the scene where romeo was running down the hill after juliet said bye to him was super cute :D

and major lol. everyone was hating on juliet's dress at the balcony scene!hahaha i hope you can see why :)

lol but generally the costumes for the whole show was kinda weird?
like all the guys were wearing tights?!

anyway after that movie, we watched the 1996 version!

ok so i have a personal distaste for this movie.
i thought this movie was more of a spoof?

esp the first scene where the fray happens.
it was in a petrol station and all of a sudden people just whip out guns and they burn the whole petrol station down?

oh and benvolio (who's supposed to be the peace-loving one) actually whips out a gun?
and he's dressed like some gangster.
idgi.oh yes that's benvolio above. (does he look one bit peace-loving to you?)

and well i understand mercutio is a bit nuts in the head (but real hilarious) but there's absolutely no need to dress him up like a drag queen?! (i can't find the photo, but he wore a white bra and skirt for the feast at the capulets -.-)

and the prince, was just a police officer with the name prince.

and a lot of people think juliet in the movie (claire danes) is really pretty?
idk. i think she just looks.. normal?
well above average but i dont think she's THAT pretty.

lalal so anyway. just personal opinions!

butbut. i really like the first movie and i wanna buy it!
but it's so old (made in 1968) i dont think many places sell it? ):

if anyone knows where to buy, tell me okk.
or you could always help me buy first.
OR. buy it for me :D
kekeke.

anyway in conclusion, i really love romeo and juliet.
heh i love the love story! (even though it ends in a tragedy)
and some of the side characters like mercutio are really lovable and hilarious :D

grr stop judging me for liking shakespeare.
why, i wish i could quote shakespeare in my sentences!

like if i wanted to say bye to someone, i would say, "Good night, good night! parting is such sweet sorrow" :D

HAHA so yepp i'll go study now!
or maybe go on some tumblrs to check out mannschaft pics first ;)

baiiii. :D

RETURNED BUTTONS;

2010-09-01T17:56:00.007+08:00

"Empty glasses on tables,
echoes fill these rooms"
©LeonaLewis

hellohello!

i'm tired ):
i just came back from shopping!

LOL i'm having one of the most relaxed holidays!(esp for this time of the year where the EOY exams are coming :/)

so yep yesterday we had teachers' day celebrations, and it was pretty fun!
better than last year's at least :)

so our class did a few things for our form teacher and co-form teacher :)

one of the groups did a pinata, for the teachers to break, and when it broke all the sweets and notes we wrote to them would come out.
but well the teachers were so unsporting and gentle they ended up just tearing the bottom when they couldn't break it.

them attempting to break the pinata

and yes cheating in action :)

and my group wrote two raps, one for our form teacher (who's a math teacher) and our co-form teacher (who teaches chinese)

my friends saying the math rap :)

i think the teachers' liked the rap cause they actually wanted to keep the script :)
i really love the chinese rap tho.
it was hilarious and laoshi rolled her eyes at some parts.

ohoh.
i forgot to mention, the theme for the celebrations was Alice in Wonderland!and that explains the poker cards :)

it was quite fun and since school ended early on that day, my friends and I decided to watch Step Up 3D :)

lol 8 of us went so we booked almost the whole row.

it was quite good, or really good if you like dancing, or AWESOME if you love breakdancing.

well i guess among all the step up movies (yes i watched all in the theatres), i still like step up (the first one) the most.

i mean, breakdancing is nice, but i guess i prefer the classic dances more.

my fave dance in step up 3 was actually the tango :)
and my fave breakdance was the qualifiers 2 with the water :)

it reminded me of the final dance in step up 2 which was really cool ;)

my fave character in the movie should be nathalie (sp?).
she dances quite well (well at least to a layman like me),and she's really pretty :)
omg she's rly skinny too.
jealous. :/

haha and i guess my second fave character is luke ;)

i can't believe michelle likes moose -.-
he's so dorky.

but lol he dances quite well and when he gets jealous he's hilarious.
it's so obvious he likes his "best friend".

the gay twins are hilarious tho.
and i love it when they dance tgt, they are really synchronised :D
and their arguments are so annoyingly funny.

lol i guess overall it's quite a nice movie!
catch it if you can :)

lol so yeppppp!
i should get down to some work now after all the slacking ;)

P.S. OMG MY SCHOOL IS GETTING IB. but idk if it applies to my batch cause apparently it starts from the sec ones in 2013. I HOPE IT DOES. will someone pray with me that it does? I've always wanted to be in IB. ):

DASHED CALCULATIONS;

2010-08-19T09:27:00.010+08:00

"He said you're amazing
She said then why you waiting
No more deliberating"
©AshleyTisdale

heeeeeellllooooooooo~

HAHA.
yes yes i am finally back to blog!
so yep didn't blog for awhile due to tests + homework!

but i'm staying at home today and tomorrow cause of e-learning!
well actually the p6s (and sec 4s?) are having their oral exams so we can't stay there to disturb them :)

so yes i actually have a lot of homework to do cause the teachers just enjoy spamming us :)
but being the slacker that i am, i'm yes here blogging, and watching YOG athletics (which the women's long jump really sucks)!

i'm intending to start once i finish this blog post, but imma end up watching shane dawson LOL LOL.

AND OMG. IF YOU GUYS DON'T WATCH HIM, YOU MISS OUT ON LIFE.

lol. yes you do. he's really funny (in a more crude manner tho) and sweeeet :)

HAHA WATCH IT, IF YOU'RE FREE ENOUGH :)

anyways so yep!
i guess this past two weeks have been a little crazy.
tests, tests results, drama, idk what else.

so i guess the test results have been OKAY.
i have two kinda bad ones, two average ones and two good ones.
well actually i would say three average.

but yes my english sucked so much i think i got lowest in class?
ah screw it.
i will talk like an ah lian if i have to.

lol and i guess this week has been kinda fun :)

had tennis on tues but like only 7 out of 20+ people turned up?and it rained really heavily so we ended up playing games on the badminton courts lol.

haha and we played doubles and i shamelessly paired up with adeline!
LOL LOL had a lot of fun (half embarrassing myself)!

i kept going for the out balls, because yes my estimation skills suck like that.
haha but yep adeline's really good and she covered some balls for me heh.

OHOH.
and i bought tickets for YOG men's/women's canoe-kayak finals! :D:D
major excites :)
going with adeline and michelle (michypoopoo) so it should be really fun!
(on a side note, i hope to meet some hot guys ;D)

but the YOG is kinda disappointing.
idk. all the athletes arent really that good, singapore's athletes are pretty shameless.

like lol we came in 29th out of 30 for the triathlon and lost 7-1 to belgium for men's hockey?
and our audience seats are usually kinda empty (even tho the tickets are like only $10/$30 for finals)

embarrassing much.and omg i really want diving tickets but ):
EVERYONE WANTS TO SEE TOM DALEY SO THEY BOUGHT TIX.

i swear if i see blocks of empty seats i will kill someone.not that i want to see tom daley, i actually really like diving!

hahah yes i guess i should stop boring you guys and go start on my homework!!

but before i go, i have to show you guys some stuffffzzz ;)

HAHA YEP another of my cards :)
it's quite long, really.
but it's nice and all so yep i decided to share!
(i dont exactly remember what's written tho)

but yep i think this was like just after the WC season or just before the WC finals so yep!
i actually have a lot more cards stashed somewhere.no idea where.

ohoh but for the more amusing one!

yes yes another once from chace :)
lol i feel slightly delusional but it feels great to know someone wants to join you in your games ;)

hahaha so yes big thank you to tashfia (taffy) :D:D
<3
(lol yes it's my radio in the background)

it's so sweeeeeeettttt right!!!!
omg *faints*

HAHA. i think on the day i got it i was kinda feeling all ugh so this really cheered me up ;)
even my mum thinks it's cute.

well currently it's sitting on top of my life science plant in the living room lol.

BUT OMGOMG.
i know this is late,
BUT CHACE WON CHOICE TV ACTOR: DRAMA!!

brb watching rewinds x82984720942.

i'm seriously so insanely proud of him and his fans :)
i thought everyone was going to like hate him cause of the marijuana and all but i'm so glad people are so beyond that. :D

so yep!
i gotta go and leave me a tag ya! :D:D

P.S. CHACE'S VOICE IS THAT VID IS SMEXYYY. :O

DRAFTED WISHES;

2010-08-08T12:51:00.004+08:00

"He got lips like sugar cane, oh
Good things come for those who wait"
©ChristinaAguilera

ahhh sorry for not blogging in awhile!
well i'm in the middle of common tests (but at least the ones that need a lot of memorising are over) and i've been trying to stay off my mac ):

well you see my mac brings back sad memories.

so you see, last week i was ripping more die mannschaft pics, and i tried to drag and drop them in my iPhoto.
and instead of my iPhoto opening to show me the newly imported photos, a small pop up appeared, and told me, that iPhoto needs a new library to open.

and i was like. o.o omgwthhhh.
where on earth. is my old library then?!

and so i spent like the next 2 hours trying to find out what went wrong, and trying to find pics form my hard disk which was well. kinda empty.

i knew my iphoto's backup has always been slightly conky, but well.

I WASN'T EXPECTING IT TO CRASH FOR NO REASON AND DIE.

well and so the only photos i have now are like the useless fangirl ones -.-
well not really useless. just that i can easily rip them again.

so yeah until now i still don't have my photos, and even uncle brendon the mac pro can't save it. ):

i'm in tears.

so now i don't open my iPhoto anymore.

but yes i'm still going to try and save it, but maybe after my common tests.
plus i still have the "complete and unabridged" version of Romeo&Juliet to read.

it's quite interesting, really.
most of the characters are quite witty ;)

but it sucks to have to keep checking the footnotes cause it's very distracting and it spoils the flow of the whole dialogue. (if you get what i mean)

haha yep and i'm only on like act 4 scene 4!
i know it's going to end, but it's a long play.

and yeah school's been a little crazy with some spam of work,
(OH DAMN THAT REMINDS ME. I HAVE A CHINESE COMPREHENSION TO DO.)
and well. some little drama going on.

haha yeah not really in school only la.
drama everywhere!
even on tv :D

hahahaa i'm so retarded sometimes.
and yeah i have like 3 school projects now, well one's done, 2 aren't!

and i'm gonna spend my national day having math tuition and colouring plants for my biology project.

YAWNNNN.

i'll update more often, i promise.
i just don't like to update if i don't have anything important to say :)

tata ;)

CODED SIGNS;

2010-07-26T14:40:00.003+08:00

"Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?"
©TaylorSwift

i feel insanely bad now.
as much as i really hate to rant, i have to say this.

i'm probably the worst student around.
i bet laoshi really hates me now.

so today we were having chinese class, and the chinese HOD came in to evaluate laoshi's teaching. (and yes the stupid me never figured that out)

and well we were being nonsensical and all (as usual, tho today was even worse), asking stupid questions, talking in english,making random jokes and hitting the tables.

so yeah we kinda screwed up laoshi's evaluation la.
i mean, what kind of teacher will allow her students to talk nonsense and keep interrupting her lessons?
(a nice one of course, just that the HOD probably has a different opinion)

and yes we found out because the HOD was all, hey girls, i got something to tell you. if i'm here to evaluate your teacher, what kind of evaluation do you think i'll give her?, just before she left the class.

&*#@!%

SHE IS. SO ANNOYING.

yes while she's kinda speaking the truth, but what does she want then?
to see a facade of us acting all guai?

arrgghhh.
and of course it isnt her fault anyway. it's all thanks to us.

andand. the thing that really made me feel bad?
laoshi's forced smile after the HOD made the comment.

I SHOULD REALLY QUIT CHINESE.

KEEP THE HORN;

2010-07-25T00:46:00.003+08:00

"Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything"
©ABBA

i cannot even say how much public transport hates me.
my whole boring life is probably only made dramatic because of Singapore's public transport.

and yes of course i just returned home from another of my drama trips.

i wanted to go and sleep, but i felt so compelled to tell you guys about all the drama so here i am typing away with my water bottle and a stick of dove amicelli(sp?)[i feel like eating another one this sucks]

so. INCIDENT ONE.

this happened on the night of the germany vs. argentina world cup match this year.

so i was watching the match till about 12 plus at some kopitiam at bras basah, and then i decided to cab home, because my stupid bus - 190's last bus is like at 1130 pm?

but anyway i was so happy i felt optimistic and walked to the bus stop anyway. then, it started drizzling and of course my last bus had left alr.

but of course i was still feeling good about the 4-0 win and tried to flag a cab cheerfully. and yes of course i failed terribly and i walked down the road, and from SMU to grand cathay, trying to get a cab in the light rain.

whatsmore, i was carrying my tuition bag.

so well once again i failed and walked from the road junction to plaza singapura's taxi queue which probably gave me the shock of my life.
it was insanely long and only about 1 cab came every 5 mins.

so i walked to the cathay taxi stand which was significantly shorter, only about 5 people. not that it was much better as there was hardly any taxis, and most taxis that came in were on call -.-

so yeah i felt this urge to just hop on those taxis that were on call, but no one boarded them when they came along. but me being the miser that i am, refused to pay that few dollars more.

so finally after about 1 hour from the time i left the kopitiam i got a cab :D
and i was super grateful for that cause that cab was actually on call but yeah the guy who called didnt turn up and all so yeah :D
and i didnt have to pay the extra dollars.

WHOOTS TO ALL MISERS.

(at this point of time i really cannot resist the temptation any longer and i get out of my seat to grab another chocolate from my fridge)

yep going on, INCIDENT TWO.

this was last sat after promotion and dedication service at GB HQ.

so christelle, tanya, nicole and i decided to share a cab home cause we all kinda live on the way. firstly, we took about 20 mins to flag a cab.

and when we got the cab, our taxi driver was damn weird and had to go pee first -.-
and along the way he kept talking and talking about how he's a retired engineer and all.

but the worst thing is, he actually follows the speed limit. and drives at like 50km/h or 70 km/h -.-

oh and yes i took about 1.5 hours to get home, because i was the last to get off, and well the whole speed limit thing. andand, we were stuck in about 2 jams, and he kept letting people cut into our lane. stupid.

plus he kept swearing and all and when this guy swerved into our lane he called that guy a bastard.

major wow.

and finally, INCIDENT THREE.

which was what just happened.

so well i left the kopitiam quite early today at 11.05? i usually leave at 11.20. and i was feeling good cause i thought i would be able to reach home before 12, but NO.

we were on the highway and about to exit it, which means i was about 7 mins away from my bus stop, when we got stuck.
we got stuck for about 20 mins moving about 1 m every 5 mins.

and it honestly was only happening to my bus because all the other cars were moving. they got stuck for about 1 min and then they all moved off.

and when i finally saw what happened, it was just 3 cars in a collision and it was a one lane road, so no one could have got past it.
i just found it ridiculous that the bus driver waited there and had to wait for the ambulance to come before he finally came to his senses that he had to take a different route.

well so my ride of 40 mins became a ride of about 1h 10 mins.
and when i got to my bus stop, there were three 190s tgt. -.-
and my bus being the middle one.

YAWN.

ohoh. and i have to say INCIDENT FOUR.

this happened last year i think, during a school morning.

i was waiting for my bus as usual. it came unusually late.
usually my bus arrives about 6.15-6.20, but it came at 6.27.

so i finally got on, and it was really packed because firstly the bus came late, and secondly the bus goes down upper bukit timah which is where all the famous schools are.

and i had just got on, and was on for about 10 mins, and had moved about 5 m from the bus stop, when some girl at the back vomited or smth and yeah we all had to leave -.-

i was super annoyed because i really had to get to school and all.

so yes in the end i made my mum send me to school. -.-

so yepyep. there's actually a lot more incidents, like me waiting really long for buses all the time because somehow i have bad luck with them, but if i name them all you'll never hear the end of it.

so yes, if you have some dramatic public transport stories, ya should share them with me, because misery loves company :D

P.S. LEAVE A TAG. I'm so bored. ):

MAIL A LYRIC;

2010-07-12T15:20:00.015+08:00

"I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind"
©CastingCrowns

this is exactly how i feel now.
i just want to curl up in my bed, and sleep.
just get my head off everything.

i think i'm going crazy.
just look at the number of "emo" posts recently.

and today was the worst.
i mean, i almost cried like 3 times?

i felt the tears in my eyes and all i told myself was, they're not worth it, don't cry. it's stupid. they'll just laugh at you.

i don't even know when it became wrong to cry.
when you could be judged for just letting the tears go.
when you could be deemed a bitch just because you wanted to be yourself.

i wanted to hug someone and tell them how bad i was feeling,
how stupid and pointless everything has become,
and how i hate school.

i want to do all this, without someone pushing me away and giving me a disgusted look.

and i don't even know when i became so sensitive to everything.
and i don't know when things changed so drastically.

all of a sudden, the things that made me happy to wake up at 5.50, to take the bus and walk to school with a smile on my face, the things that make me want to stay in school for as long as possible, are the things that now make me want to hide under my blanket, the things that make me want to close my eyes, the things that make me want to go home immediately, the things that make me want to hide my face.

i'm annoyed.
at everyone, at myself.
at how everyone could be so different, at how i allowed myself to be hurt.

i was messaging my friend yesterday, and i really realised, how everyone is dispensable.
how everyone is just filling up this spot, which is immediately replaced when vacant.
so technically, we're just filling up a seat temporarily.

it happened once, it happened twice, and it will happen again.

the truth is, i'm so damned tired of going through this.
so so so tired of holding on to something that doesnt belong to me, and watch it slowly crash.

"Stop leading me on please.
It hurts that to me, you're the world, but to you, I'm nothing."

(this is taken from my friend's blog, but it applies)

i'm sorry if you're popular and i'm not,
i'm sorry if you're always surrounded by people and i'm not,
and i'm sorry if you're the only one I talk to, while you talk to millions of other people.

i am really so tired of people saying i love you to me,
but are really just patronising me.
i want someone to tell me they love me, and mean it.

(AND NO I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT BOYS)

it's that simple.
if you don't mean it, don't say it.

ugh. i hate myself for being all emo.

i wish i could just yknw.
blog about all things happy and cheer all of you up :)

but then again, how can reading a blog (esp. my blog) make anyone happy.
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but no, my life isnt that sad until i need to commit suicide.
i've still been having fun :)

and yes, congratulations spain :)

i honestly can't wait for the euro cup.

but guess what.
during the euro cup i have my o levels to take, and during the next world cup i have my a levels to take. (unless i go to poly)

DIS SUXXXX.

ah well. they won't stop me from watching :)
after all, these events are in the middle of the year.

but if i fail my o levels, you know what to blame :P

WARM THE SWING;

2010-07-11T13:43:00.003+08:00

"Let's paint the picture
Of the perfect place"
©OneRepublic

"I'm just a little off everyone's expectations.

Just not so smart for an average student,
just not so sporty for an average 14 year-old,
just not so skinny for an average girl,
just not so filial for an average daughter,
and just not so morally upright for an average human being.

Well, I'm just a little off.

I could try to align myself back, but that wouldn't really be the same me, right?

It's quite true while we always try to achieve a goal in front of us, we end up losing what we have in the present.

(though it's perfectly fine with me to lose the wobbly fats on me)

Yes, I think a lot, but not really to the extent of thinking about thinking.

Well, I'm kinda in between.
And that's just where I am in just about, EVERYTHING.

It's not that bad really, just that, you get confused.
It could possibly lead to what I know as identity crisis.

Okay this sounds emo enough, but honestly I'm not really that kind of person.

While I enjoy some thinking and reflecting space, I enjoy going crazy more.

Yes, I don't exactly need marijuana or heroine or alcohol to go high. And yes of course, I have witnesses.

Many things can make me go crazy, really. So recently we have the world cup, and that has made me scream into my friends' ears thousands of times and of course they have screamed back at me for being, annoying.

I wouldn't really say I'm annoying.
Just slightly (to the bare minimum), irritating.

But when it's off-season, I usually just fangirl over Chace Crawford (Gossip Girl), Nat Ho (Mediacorp -.-) and Gaga.

(OHOH. BUT WHILE IT IS STILL THE WORLD CUP SEASON NOW, I ♥ NEUER!)

Yes basically this is my life.
I don't know what I do, really.

I mean, my friends swim, play tennis, badminton, squash, go for tuition, play the piano.

And I practically do none of that.
I really have no idea where my time goes to.

So yes, this is about it for me, and if you still don't think I'm a bad influence, we can still be friends. :D:D:D

But if you do, I guess you can remove me?
After all, even Dorota removed Chuck from Facebook."

so. i just posted this on my facebook about me, and i thought it could be slightly entertaining.
if it isn't, i guess you just wasted a few minutes of your life, then.

but sidenote, GERMANY GOT THIRD FOR WORLD CUP!
nothing too glorious, but I'm still proud :D

HIGHWAY STAR;

2010-07-09T19:01:00.003+08:00

“抱着希望慢慢熬
我鼓起最后的一分力撑下去”
©林俊杰

i have been into chinese songs recently ;)
but i can't seem to find many nice songs):
i can't find all those songs i used to like when i was much younger ):

so if there's any chinese song you reaaaaalllly like you can always recommend it to me :D

lol but anyway the main point of this post should bore most girls out :D

WORLD CUP! ;)

so. if you don't already know, i'm a fan of germany (yes i know they are out alr).

well yes i am a 'new' fan, and i've supported a few different teams throughout the world cup!

but yes i have come to the realisation of the awesome-ness of germany after watching the germany vs. argentina match. :)

i don't know how to describe it, but it was definitely the best match i ever watched.
the people around me were all so high, singing the german national anthem and cheering and all ;)

and it was during that match where i totally fell in love with manuel neuer - the goalie omgggg. :)

he's not good-looking or anything, but he's definitely a very good goalkeeper. tho undeniably casillas of spain is good too.

and omg he looked so precious when puyol of spain scored with a header and he failed to catch the ball ):

he was so angry with himself he took the ball and threw it on the ground ):

omg neuer i love you and you are definitely not to be blamed.

while i'm a huge germany fan, i have to say they had it coming. the germans were on defense and that gave the spainards a lot of chances for goals.

and all the germans were so precious la ):
plus their average age is only 25 ):

when the puyol scored i was like :O
it was honestly a good shot, butbutbut ):

ah well but it was cute to see how the spainards and the germans were such good friends!

like when one of the germans fell down, one of the spainards will wait for him to get up :)
andand the spainards comforted the germans after the games <3

i was seriously super sad after the game ):
whatsmore when the match is shown here in singapore, it's at like 2.30 am?

i was really hoping they would win so it would be worth my time.
not saying watching the match was a complete waste of time, but yeah you get me.

and i really didnt want spain to compete against germany ):
they should have met in the finals instead.

ah anyway paul the octopus suxxxx for predicting that spain would win germany.
not that i believe in such stuff, but it's good to push the blame to him :P

but yay(or maybe not yay to some of you) 'cause the prediction he made that spain will win holland to win the world cup is his last prediction cause he's 6 months away from the maximum life span of an octopus.

lol today miss ng asked us about dissection, and i suggested that we should dissect an octopus ;)

HAHA. okok enough of the world cup before i lose all my readers.

so yep today i had my self-defence course, which teaches us some basic combat skills in case of rape/attacks.

haha and today we did anti-rape techniques and it was funny :)

i partnered tessa and she became the rapist torres who was trying to rape pedro cause he didnt pass the ball to torres :P

it was fun just that we were all too busy laughing instead of executing the moves properly lol. and one of the moves was call rock n roll :D

haha yep so i need to get down to my homework and i hope all of you have a great weekend,
and i'll blog after the world cup finals :P

FIGHT FOR THEM;

2010-07-05T15:15:00.002+08:00

"In her eyes
There's love and fire"
©NeYo

so today is youth day and i'm rotting at home! :D

haha nah not really.
i just wrote an english compo which is going to be graded, but I really had no inspiration so it's going to be real bad.

and i settled some GB stuff and typing minutes is tiring :/

i did so much emailing i got 9 work-relates emails -.-

i'm kind of dreading friday cause i'm being the orderly for roll call and vespers and the songleader for worship.
also we're getting our GB fornight cards which means i have to be shameless and go haunt people for money.

also this friday is supposed to be 24seven games day and i wish i could go ):

oh but yesterday we celebrated youth day at east coast park and we had fun :)

i invited wenjen and sarah and yay they came, even if it was just for an hour or so!

while some parts of the games were just overly aggressive and annoying, i enjoyed bonding with the people in my group :)

but i felt kinda bad that i didnt exactly try to talk to the newcomers :/

but i'm not the most sociable person around, and i mean, what do you want me to say to them?

"hi, my name is berenice. how are you doing? are the games fun? where do you live? where do you study? oh haha great i'll talk to you later again yeah?"

i mean, if i was them i'll just be like, i appreciate you attempting to talk to me, but plz, ask better questions.

anyway baptism for the four girls was greaaaaattt :)
am super proud of all of them <3

hahaha yep and on saturday i had one of the best nights ever :)

WARNING : WORLD CUP ALERT.

it was after church and we went to a coffee shop near bras basah and we watched the germany vs. argentina world cup match and it was AMAZINGGG.

manuel neuer (germany's goalkeeper) i love you.

he was such an awesome goalkeeper ookkk. he saved like 101 goals!

haha but yep i really had so much fun cause there were so many people there and every time germany goals we go high and just start screaming :)

HAHAH tho jacqueline/lim min wasn't the most enthusiastic about the fact that germany won :P

4-0 baby, FOUR-ZERO.

and the big deal is, their opponent is ARGENTINA. not singapore.

so 4-0 is a HUGE DEAL.

and i'm insanely in love with the german team now so i'm supporting them all they wayyyyy!

but i'm just kinda scared for the semi-finals 'cause they're up against spain ):
butbut. i have faith in them since spain has been kinda under-performing and if germany can beat argentina 4-0, they should have no problem :D

so as a german fan i have decided to wake up at 2.30 on 8th July to support them :)
and it better be worth my time or i'll break the teevee.
(just joking. my mudder will keel me)

ohoh, so yesterday, in celebration of germany's awesome win, jesse, sammi and i decided to each wear a colour of the germany flag :)

but sammi la ):
betrayed us ):

she wore her red shirt for baptism so it was all wet and icky so she couldnt wear it at the end):
and when we were about to take with our watches, we had to go -.-

it's ok. i'll wait for germany to win the semi-finals and go to the finals then i'll celebrate :D

lol so yeeeep. all of you should support germany too! :D:D:D

ok i know this blog post was kinda stupid, but i know you guys love it :P

P.S. Six Billion Secrets and GMH keep making me cry ):

FLAMES TO DUST;

2010-07-01T15:52:00.006+08:00

"And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste"
©Coldplay

warning: emo-ness ahead.

it just struck me.

that i have about 4 more months with my class left.
just 4 more months, before we all choose our subject combinations, and move on.

the truth is, while i always wish they were more lively,loud, etc., i don't ever want to trade a single one of them for anyone else.

i'm just, really scared of losing everything.

that in this one and a half years i found a class that is so amazing, that really goes beyond the surface.

i don't care how we don't cheer for our classmates who goes on stage to receive a prize, i dont care how we always stay quiet when teachers ask us questions.

i have this urge to just post this post on facebook, but they'll all probably think i'm some deranged and abnormal freak.

like hello why you so emo.
change class then change class la, i oso dun care.

I CARE.

i really really really do.

i wish i could just make all of them take the same subject combi so we could all stay together.
so we could all enjoy our 4 years of sec school together.

and most of all, i'm most afraid to lose sarah, li wen, adeline, michelle, janessa, vicky and grace.

well, the truth be told, i've never had another group of friends who were so close to me.

granted that i'm closer to some of them compared to others, i know to some extent they will try to be there for me if i need them.

(and let's hope it's true.)

it hurts me everyday when i hear that they want a different subject combi from me.

i know what they're talented in and i know whatever they want is the best for them.

but i'm selfish and self-centered.

i'm just afraid that once i lose them, i'll never find people like them again.
people who won't judge me for anything i do, people who care enough to include me and people who will make me smile.

and because i don't ever want to walk past them in school, and pretend i never saw them.
pretend that all our friendships in the past were nothing.

because i know when i see them again, i will be jealous of that friend next to them.

i am possessive like that.
i don't have a single right to be, but i am.

and the worst truth is, i'm very very very afraid that, no one feels the same way as i do.
no one is going to miss this class, this group of friends, and me.

i should really stop.

and the one thing i really don't want to do is, tear on the last day of school.
because i think i will.

so for the next four months, i'm just going to hold tight to everything i have.
i'm going to try to give out all my love so i won't ever regret it.

/edit.

i have an alternative.
i could just be a bitch to everyone and pull away so when it's time to leave i won't feel hurt.

RIPPLES AND WAVES;

2010-06-29T19:46:00.004+08:00

"Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek"
©AdamLambert

hellohello!
long time no blog!

and my stats have been crazily low ):
i'm back to 1-4 reads per day.

EEKS.

but anyway i've been pretty busy, rushing all my homework after i came back from tasik and getting ready for school.

school has been pretty ok, i'm still enjoying it [:

was pretty glad to see all my friends again <3>:(

and sometimes you can heard the lizards ):

WAILS.

and i really really hate going back to the room in the afternoon.
cause the generator's off so there's no electricity and it's damnnn hot.

as if singapore's not hot enough.

but in the late night and early morning it's kinda cold and nice[:

ok so basically what i did at tasik:

loads of card games (bridge, monopoly, saboteur, jungle speed, slamwich, hearts)
kayaking
hiking
visit to the orang asli village
soaking in the sea

haah yeeeep.

didnt really do much so i felt i kinda wasted the trip ):

but the card games were pretty fun too, esp when we had forfeits!

lol i'm such a loser can, did like so many stupid forfeits (e.g. sticking out my tongue for the whoel game, eating lunch with one hand, raising one arm for a whole game, placing tissue on my lip and sucking it with my nose) -.-

BUT. at least i won the important ones [:

which are the ones that required you to eat dinner with one eye closed, play one game with one eye closed and having others draw on your face with a pen/marker.

the drawing on the face forfeit made me super nervous la :/

and yep i learnt new games also so yay!

i never knew monopoly had a card version!!
it's super funnnnn :D

well. only when you win. LOL.

but pastor andy is super good at it can.
HIDDEN TALENT :)

and he totally helped me to win the game with the forfeit! :D

and hearts is the awesomest game i know now.

<3 it

bridge is sooooo over once you learn hearts.

HAHA yep. enough about all the card games.

so kayaking!
it was well, my first time kayaking.

and i still can't believe i went with lim min on my first kayak -.-

she could have easily caused us to capsize. *cough*

hahaha but it was fun :)

and i still feel so bad for making philip do almost all the work when we kayaked out in the morning to see the animals.

could hear him gasping for air and apparently his face was red la :/

and lol i think it was a bit of a wasted effort also cause we didnt really see much that day ):

(tbh, i dont see what's so fascinating about hornbills)

ohoh and lesson to learn from kayaking?

DON'T EVER CAPSIZE YOUR KAYAK FOR FUN.

if you want to know why, try it.

looool moment of stupidity (quote jacqueline)

oh and we did two hikes. one was just up to some hill where you can see a really nice view of tasik and thailand i think.

but huff puff that hike was tiring ):
and the last part was super steeeeeeeeeeep.

and tbh i didnt really find it worth it...

ah well.

but the other hike up to the waterfall was super fun <3

we saw elephant footprints on our way up and god they are huge.
i never want an elephant coming after me in my entire life :/

and the waterfall was soooo pretty and the water was so awesomely cold <3

but the sad thing was it was drizzling when we hiked up, and when we got to the top it started pouring ):

so we had to evacuate quickly.

meh. i only spent like 5 mins in the water -.-

but the evacuation process was fun as well! other than the part where i kept worrying if my cam was wet :/

HAHA idk why it's fun, but it just was.
i mean, it's kinda like a once in a lifetime experience!

you dont get to run down jungles in the rain everyday :)

but i was just afraid i'll get bitten by a leech cause it was wet and muddy.

and PHEW leeches no like me :)

oh and the trip to the orang asli village was great :)

tho i think we brought excessive food for them lol.
we totally bombarded them with sweets and crackers and balloons.

and after that we kinda went crazy with our guides and took loads of videos and pictures.
our guides were so cute lol they started rolling on the ground and "fighting" each other.

and we even dissected a leech there.

lol poor leech.

firstly we dripped medicated oil on it, and then we kinda cut it open, and then we put antiseptic on it. next we cut it more and then washed it with water.

lol i dont even know what we were doing, but poor leech.

and yeeeep. i guess that kinda sums up my tasik trip!

i really had fun, just getting to know some people so much better, and reconnecting with others :)

(side note : to be honest, i dont know what i am to do with you. to stay with you or to stay away from you. you're amazing but you're not right for me. but since it looks like you've moved on, i'm going to move away. i guess. )

HUG THE BOLSTER;

2010-06-18T19:02:00.006+08:00

"I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time,
it's now or never"
©JamesMorrison

sorry i haven't been blogging in so long ):
well i wasn't really busy, i've just been slacking. :P

but i just came back from sentosa, which is an island in singapore.
i didnt go into universal studios tho ):

but i don't really feel sad 'cause apparently one of the rides has broken down,
and a lot of construction is still going on in resorts world so i'll rather wait 'till everything is nice and complete.

besides, i live in singapore so it doesnt take me much to get there anyway.

so yep basically this is what i did in sentosa yesterday and today :

LUGE
Skyride
Songs of the Sea (love the effects)
Swimming at the pool (hate the sea, esp. Singapore's sea)

lol yep, it's not much 'cause these are the main highlights.

i wanted to go cycling but i had to come home to pack/rest since i'm leaving for tasik tonight.

truthfully i'm not the most excited for tasik.

yes, as you already know, i'm a not a huge fan of the sea/beach.
and tasik happens to be an island surrounded by water and most of the activities are related to water.

meh.

but anyway back to what i was saying, it was my first time on the luge!
yes laugh at me all you want -.-

it was quite fun, but it was vair crowded and wet, so i had to brake quite often.
the toboggan down the great wall of china was wayyyy awesome-er.

tho i think i annoyed bev who was behind me cause i kept braking in the start :P

and lol. when i was walking around sentosa, i heard this foreigner saying : hey, i thought the cable car is not open? why is it working? *points to skyride*

lol. i super wanted to turn around and tell him that's the skyride and not the cable car, but i decided he probably will find out :)

well as usual the skyride was kinda boring.

oh then yesterday night we went to songs of the sea :)

it's a little like a musical, but with a lot of effects, which was basically light projected onto water being sprayed. it was really cool and at the last part they had fireworks, but it caught me off guard and my stupid phone took so long to start so i missed the picture):

but i have a short video of part of it, and i'll upload it after i come back from tasik :)

it was vair prettyyyy.

i can't upload it now 'cause my phone is kinda dead and i need to charge it fast (thus using the power point).

but good things are always worth the wait! :D

and well, swimming wasnt such an exciting part, but the pool was vair pretty, it had a water fall :)
it also has two slides but it was only for children.

*WAILS* ):

so yep i think sentosa has changed a lot, and it's really pretty at night.
so if you're bored and wanna do smth, why dont you go down to sentosa.

well the activities are kinda ex, but i guess the beaches are wayy better than before so you can just go and sit there and slack.

i would do that in the night, but my uncle and mum definitely wouldn't allow me ):

ohoh and the hotel i stayed at was really cool, it's siloso beach resort :)
or siloso beach hotel. can't remember which.

and it's just opposite wavehouse so we went there for like half an hour on the first day [:

it was cool but if i tried the flowrider i'll prolly embarrass myself, heh.

and the day before i went to sentosa, i had a sleepover at sarah's house [:
lol it was kinda fun.

on the first day, liwen and i went over to watch a war film.
it's for an assignment my english teacher gave us, and we watched saving private ryan.

it was kinda brutal, but i didnt get a lot of it cause we got distracted at one point, heh.

and after that we decided to go cycling, but it was sure a tough task.

firstly, sarah had to go get the bicycles ans we had to find the keys and the baygon.
secondly, sarah had to pump the tyres and fix the bicycle chain.
thirdly, we had to lock up, and we couldnt find the keys. -.-

so we took almost and hour to get outta the house lol.

well, on a brighter side, it was a once in a lifetime experience [:

yep and then we went cycling at pasir ris park (i think) and it was quite nice, i got to see the sunset [:

and then our dear sarah got all emo -.-

and after that we had dinner, and li wen had to go ):

bleh and my plans to study my confucius quotes were all destroyed ):
haha but, I TRIED.

just failed ):
cause stupid sister sarah never motivate me la. >:(

and it was super funny we were like sitting next to each other and half-talking on msn.
who ask her so dao, put on earphones and ignore me!!!! >:(

lol and then i was super tired, so we tried to go to sleep early, at like 12+.

but i think we ended up talking quite a lot, and i learnt some hand signs from her. O.O
she is sure knowledgeable.

HAHA.

so yep we ended up sleeping at 1+ i think, and i was soooo sleepy the next morning lol.

but i think it wasnt really about the time i slept, it was more about how i slept.

so yep i really had fun, and thank you sarah :)
i'm going back to disturb you ONE DAY :P

alrighty, i've gotta go now, see you guys when i get back! [:
and enjoy the rest of your hols while you can!

P.S. I have damn a lot of studying to do ):
P.P.S. LEAVE A TAG! you guys bore me ):

WE'RE GOING OVERBOARD;

2010-06-09T12:01:00.008+08:00

"I was too scared to start,
Now I'm too scared to let go"
©FM Static

YAY blog debt cleared after this post :P

haha nahhh i actually really enjoy blogging. well at least it gives me an excuse not ot do my homework. :P

well so if you have read my previous post(s), i wasn't the most excited person for CSI camp. Granted, i used to be always excited for camp, but that was when i was a camper.

it's ironical, really, how i used to really want to serve while i was a camper; but now that i serve, i always wish i had treasured my days as a camper more.

well yes serving is equally fun, 'cause you get to enjoy special privilleges and all :P (e.g. special drinks)

to be honest, i wasn't the most excited when i knew i was serving in the kitchen, because that's where i served last year, and i didn't have the best experience.

but it turned out really great and i got to know the people who served with me so much better :)

so yep thank you qian ying, xue ni, felicia, yan ling, aunty joanne, uncle sunny, aunty margaret, aunty korin and tina. you guys were reaaaallly awesome.

and i def. had a lot of fun even though it was really tiring, having to carry cartons of water up and down.

and well lunch time was like the most dreaded time of the day, with the 360+ children all cramming in the canteen with the 20 odd group leaders all trying to attend to their children.

plus this year we had a lot of little kids (7 years and below), so we always had to spilt the food for them. which well, took up a lot of time and energy.

haha but it was fun, some of the kids were really hilarious and cute.

random story vera told me : "jiejie vera, he want to push me into the rain and kill me"
LOOOOOOL.

and yep some of the kids were super cute la zomg i heard this from cheryl : "jiejie cheryl, i want to hold you hand" *grabs her hand and walks*

AHHH cuteness overload :D yeep and one thing i really loved was the decorations! it was so amazing la. lubbzxzz it.

[photo credits : uncle sam]

it's a bit dark, but i think you can still see the yellow tapes?
it says crime scene do not cross on them.

and there are silhouettes pasted around the whole hall.meh i wish i had one. ): (some of the silhouettes were of the group leaders. )

HAHA.

[photo credits : daniel]

and yep see the barrels?
they had a few of them placed at the entrance of the hall.
and there was foot prints at the entrance as well.

was supeerrr cool but i forgot to take any pictures.
ugh dammmn ):
and i'm not going to go into details of what i did, because that would really bore you.

but if you really wanted to know, it basically consisted of:

placing water/snacks/plates/bowls/tissue into the group boxes for lunch,
going out to collect food occasionally (because we ordered food)
helping the group leaders to distribute food/drinks during lunch time/tea break
going around to serve the station masters drinks
cleaning the tables
mopping/sweeping the floor
clearing the trash/putting new trash bags

and yeeep i think that should be it.

ohhh talking about clearing the trash/putting new trash bags, there was one horrific incident on the 3rd or last day, i can't remember which.

so that day, for lunch we had nasi lemak. and there was this trash bag at the back of the canteen which was overflowing, and by the time i was informed of the matter and go to the scene, the situation was crazzzzyyy.

there were rice grains all over the floor and chicken bones . :/

so well obviously i tried to get the kids to go to the bin at the front instead, but either they don't understand instructions, or they just didnt want to walk that short distance to throw their rubbish somewhere else, they just continued to throw in the ALREADY FULL AND OVERFLOWED trash bag. -.-

and i was kinda standing there.and the worse thing was that everyone was so busy i couldn't get anyone to help me keep the children away while i got a new trash bag.

well of course finally i got help, and the mess was cleared up.

ugh horrific.

lol but i guess it's not too bad to only have one horrific incident in 4 days.

LOOOOL but the funniest thing was that many children dropped their baby teeth during the camp. lol lol amusement.

ohoh and for one of the days i got to be a "station-master" for awhile? like just helping the children to untie their blindfolds at the end of an obstacle course game.

lol it was funnnn and i was spared mopping the floor :P

it was super slack when there wasn't any groups but super hectic when the kids came sliding down lol.
and yes of course the playful me went to try the slide as well.
[photo credits: daniel]

it was hilarious watching the children slide down and they all found it so scary when it was actually just a really short distance but it seemed really long because they were unaware of their surroundings.

mehh miss my days as a camper again ):

lol but anyway as i said, serving has its benefits too :)

i'm gonna show you my favourite photo of the camp okok!

[photo credits: daniel]

isn't the photo so awesome?

haha tho i can hardly be seen ):
well even though most of the people can't be seen.

but the picture is niceeeee. :)
and i love the how the banner is in the middle of all the people.

soo yep . it was great and they just announced next year's theme : Clash of the Titans

whoooots.

haha i'm so insane sometimes. i was so unexcited for CSI and i'm like super hyped up for Clash of the Titan which is next year -.-

so yeeeep i'm gonna end here.
i should really get down to my homework - which is an argumentative essay on singapore's chinese education system -.-

sucks. ):
probably will blog soon to run away from homework.

P.S. watch this if you're a gaga fan[:

PUSH AND PULLED;

2010-06-07T11:22:00.002+08:00

"I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together"
©Daughtry

hmm after i finish this, it's only one more to go! [:

haha ok so this will be about corporals camp.

well obviously i wasn't the most excited and awake when i got there, cause i only reached home at 11 plus the previous day thanks to ROCs.

but i guess it turned out to be a lot better [:

they grouped (at first i typed this as groped -.- ) us by the twelve tribes of israel and i was in reuben. too bad he wasnt such a nice guy :/ he defiled his father's bed and i hope you know what that mean :/

the camp wasn't THAT fun, with 1.5 hours of drill each day (tho our DI was nice and gave us a lot of breaks), and having to finish all our food, and having like 30 mins to bathe 12 people with only 4 cubicles?

but the people made it so much fun [:

haha jeannette was the other 1st coy girl in my group so yay cause some groups only have one person from 1st coy.

wow but she was sure loud and dramatic. HAHAHA.

haha and yep i def. made some new friends there and they're all so nice and funny lol lol.

we also did some game planning, but we were so fail 'cause we only got one material and that was toilet paper.

so we did some maze thingy but yes because it breaks so easily, it did get us into some trouble, and the 10 min time limit was crazily short :/

but i think the highlight of the whole camp should be Special Night! <3

well so for that every group had to come up with a performance of any kind, and present a group cheer.

well we were the first to go up, as usual, so we were quite unprepared lol lol. basically we just acted out the scene of reuben apologizing to his dad for "being unable to save joseph" and when his father took away his blessings.

haha yep and i had a lot of fun that night, maybe cause it was cosy and nice in a air-conditioned room, everyone had such great performances, i knew that was the last night of our camp :D

but the last day was superrr crazy. we had to do clean-up for an assigned area and our dorms. well both areas passed quite well, but they spent like 1 hour on our uniforms yawwwwnnn.

whoawhoa but dorm checking on the second day was def. even worse. they made us arrange all our pillows in ONE direction and all the blankets and pillows had to placed in the same manner (e.g. all blankets below pillow) -.-

and they insisted all our shoes be places outside our dorms in a neat manner. lalala. it was boring and horrific i had to stuff my wet towel into my bag cause there had to be nothing hanging around except for our uniforms :/

but yep it was really sad when we had to leave ):
no i didnt miss the camp but i knew i was going to miss the people.

this girl in my group even cried zomg. lubzxz her :)

at least in this age we have fb and msn :)

so all in all i would say corporals camp was pretty fun and i survived so it couldnt have been THAT bad :P

RATE OF ASCENT;

2010-06-05T23:55:00.017+08:00

"Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love"
©KellyClarkson

elloello i'm here to clear my debt.
my blog post debt -.-

so by chronological order, this is my post on ROCs 2! [:so basically if i even have readers that i don't know personally, and are not in my school, ROCs 2 stands for Reality Out of Classrooms for the sec 2s. It's just learning outside classrooms, and letting you experience what is taught in school.

and for my group we went to Cameron Highlands, Kuala Lumpur and Malacca which is all in Malaysia. the trip took 4 days and it was from 24th May to 27th May.

well generally it was pretty fun, tho the trip was a little badly planned - considering the trip from singapore all the way up to camerons alone is about 8 hours. so back and forth will make 16 hours. -.-

so because obviously the teachers have "never planned a trip before" (quote the malaysian tour guide), we had to cut out part of our itinerary.

well so i'll just give you the basic itinerary of our trip and i'll slowly elaborate. [:

day 1

putrajaya
cameron highlands

well there was supposed to be more, but since there were so many of us, the toilet breaks took reeeeallly long and we wasted a lot of time.

and putrajaya was really cool.apparently it's the new administrative center of malaysia or smth.

yep and by the time we reached camerons it was really late, around 9 plus i think and we had to have our dinner.

but i guess the highlight of that day was the talk i had with sarah, wenjen and li wen on the bus ride up to camerons.
it got me into a horrible state, nauseous and all, but it was all worth it.

we kinda had a talk about God and yeah..it was great, we all kinda opened up and yep it felt great to know we trusted each other :)

and i think i have some plans now... hmm i cant and i dont really wanna say it here, but i hope it works. because this isnt really a plan for me. it's a plan for God. :D i'm really really superrr excited now omgomg i havent been so excited for anything in so long, including CSI camp. not even tasik makes me this excited.

but i guess the sad part was that our "clique" in school kinda split into 2 "camps".

adeline, jan, vicky and grace kinda stayed at the back of the bus most of the time while we were near the front. :/

i kinda wanted to bond with all of them but i guess it's true even when you say three's a crowd. i guess when you have a big group of people it might be hard to have a deeper convo 'cause it really means you have to trust more people as you open up to them.

yep and i guess the camerons hotel was a little disappointing considering they called it a 4 star hotel. YAWWNN i guess different places just have different definitions.

but well comparing it to the nunnery i stayed at the last time, it was 23072 times better. and we had a small balcony! so it was nice... the view was great too.morning view from the balcony

li wen washing the ROCs shirts (yes including mine :P) cause we had to wear it on the last day again

day 2

Malaysian Agricultural Research and Development Institue (MARDI)
Harvesting of watercress at a local farm
BOH Tea plantation

MARDI was kinda cool.

we saw some forms of high tech farming like hydroponics:

and yep it was cool. we saw many types of plants they cultured such as apples and grapes.

and apparently they only cuture these kind of more expensive crops because cheap crops such as probably bean sprouts wont help them earn money lol.

ohoh and we saw this hugeee melon. idk if it's due to the nutrients or if it's naturally like that, BUT IT WAS HUGE. and it was hanging by a small vine. :O

and yep we also saw some super pretty flowers!
even the cactus was really prettyyyy.

gahh i love the leaves cannn. wish i could have a plant like that :/
and now i want a cactus too. ):

HAHA. anyway moving on, so after that we went to a local farm for the harvesting of watercress.

god i swear that sucked bigggg timeeee. :/

so basically we had to step into a big pool of mud and probably chicken faeces to harvest the watercress. well. now you know how watercress is produced.yes that is my happy face when i first got in because i didnt think it would be THAT bad.

but look in the background and you can see all the mud and watercress.

and there were so many flies, probably due to the faeces. -.-

AND HEY.the best part was, as you can see, i was wearing a white levi's shirt and my fave blue/black jeans (but you cant really see that).

yes sometimes i'm insanely stupid like that.
but then again, the teachers told us nothing about having to harvest watercress from a pool of mud before we left the hotel in the morning!!

so yes my shirt did get dirty and i had to roll up my jeans which made me look like an idiot from Mars.

and conclusion?
it so wasnt worth it, at all.

when we got out of the pool of mud, we got to go wash our legs, but because we had to queue, when it got to my turn i didnt get to wash the mud off completely. and then i had to wear my socks and shoes back -.-

and well you might think i'm just being a whiny bitch and pampered princess (which i am far from), EVEN SARAH CHAN thinks so okkkk.

well sarah is the kind who loves all this adventurous stuff so if even she thinks it wasnt worth it to get down and dirty in that mud, i'm not being a whiny bitch.

and that after that we went up to BOH Tea plantation :D

lubzxz that placeeee. well so we got some time to do shopping for BOH tea and i was being a really great salesperson by buying my fave drink from BOH tea and going around convincing people to buy it.

and heyyy i was not too bad at it okkk. i think like 3 or 4 people bought :P BOH should gimme commission :P

ohoh then we climbed some hill which had a really great view and space for taking loads of jumpshots and photos, but as usual the teachers' kept rushing us off again and we hardly took any. -.-

suckers.

day 3

we left camerons and travelled down to KL [:

Royal Selangor Pewter Visitor Center
Batik Painting

Royal Selangor was aweeeshummm. and yep that's me trying to do one of the steps to make a pewter cup [:

failed quite badly tho. HEH.

and yep after that we got to make our own pewter dish! [:

we made a bowl using really basic and traditional tools: (photo credits to grace)
it was funnnn but super tiring and it needed a lot of arm strength which i obviously didnt have, so the people there kept helping me and so did sarah :P

and after that we went for batik, which was quite bad because we got there at their closing time, and they werent prepared at all, so we had to wait another one hour for them to draw the batik for us so we could colour it in because the teachers were being paranoid that we would burn ourselves. -.-

and we were supposed to go at KL tower after that, but because by the time we finished it was already 8 i think, we had to skip it and go for dinner ):
i was like super excited for that one cause i loveeee night views of cities.

well we got to go in the morning the next day, but still. it looked so dull and boring cause it was all grey. ):

day 4

KL Tower
Cooking Demonstration by Kenny Chan (apparently a celebrity chef)
City Tour of Malacca
ZhengHo Museum

so yep we went to KL tower in the morning and it was still pretty fun! haha we could stalk people through those huge binoculars they had! :P

try not to stay near the KL tower. *cough*

but the sad thing was we hardly got any time there cause the teachers' kept trying to rush us off to Malacca -.-

and well of course when we got to the cooking demo we were late, AGAIN.

weeell the demo was kinda boring it was how to cook some stew and sambal -.-

i dont like either.

and because we were late, our city tour was cut. YESSS!!! :D

well we kinda still had it but it was like on the bus so yay.
i had no intention of getting off on that hot day.

and zhengho museum was kinda funnn :P

maybe i just like historical stuff like that. [:

so we just kinda learnt about zhenghe who's actually an explorer from china.
and we watched a puppet show on his life.

*cough* never knew he was an eunuch.

the museum looked really small from the outside, but inside they even had a life size model of a giraffe (cause zhenghe brought a giraffe from africa back to china) and showed us what was on the decks on zhenghe's voyage ships.

so yepp that's about it!

in conclusion it was really really great!
i wished it would be longer, and yes of course more well-planned.

and thanks so much to the whole of 2T who made this trip so aweshum HEART you guys x3056322359.

P.S. Thanks to all you who wrote on the autograph page of the booklet. <3
P.P.S. TAGGGG! :P

2010-06-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

You Are Where

You are a very adventurous person, and you're happiest when you're able to travel freely.

You're interested in the whole planet, and you want to see as much of it as possible.

You believe that you have to see some things to truly understand them. You know that travel makes you a better, more well rounded person.

You are off to see the world whenever you can, and when you're not, you're dreaming about it.

Are You Who, What, Where, or Why?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

TURN AND FALL;

2010-06-02T20:44:00.003+08:00

"For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now"
©KellyClarkson

hola! [:

yes i'm finally blogging and you should be really glad because i'm insanely tired now from the continuous stress from ROCs, Corporals camp and CSI camp.

and yes i'll blog about them all slowly, but you've just gotta have patience. i still need to upload my photos from ROCs and yes finish my homework (the easy ones first).

but one piece of good news will be that i'll be blogging a lot this month, cause i'm going to universal studios on the 17th and tasik temmangor(sp?) on the 19th. [:

well just a basic overview, ROCs was pretty fun, felt super loved by my friends and all; corporals camp was pretty fun and eye-opening and i made new friends; and CSI camp is going pretty well just that i move at snail's speed when doing work :/

but what i'm gonna blog about now is not about any of these, because they'll take me a bit more time than what i'm gonna blog about now.

gonna be a bit ranty and stuffz and you're always welcome to leave :)

so if you've read my latest post and tweets...

i've been feeling so damned bloody stupid recently.

like not ordinary make a small mistake stupid. stupid as in bring harm upon yourself stupid.

so. story 1.

one of my friends once made a promise to me, which goes something like that "i will... ... until you grow up".

unless you count from 12 to 14 years of age growing up, my friend just broke that promise.

well not recently... it's been awhile. but i was just being delusional.

so the stupid thing is, when my friend made the promise to me, i knew it was a lie, just something said to convince me. i knew i couldn't believe it and i knew i wouldn't.

but when i started to realise that the promise was broken, i kept myself hanging on this string. this string of hope that my friend actually kept the promise said without much thought.

being the optimist i am at wrong times, i kept myself on this thread for about 1 year. and yes well now it's confirmed that the promise is broken, you have no idea how stupid i feel.

i'm so insane, sometimes.

is it just me, that i hold on to memories too much i practically live in them, or do any of you out there actually do the same things i do?

and moving on. story 2.

well recently i blogged smth which kinda offended one of my (used to be?) good friends. well ok fine i did deserve it, because i was being a whiny assuming bitch.

but what's really driving me crazy is, well i apologised. and unless her phone is spoilt again, or there is some network problem (which i dont think there is such coincidences) , she's ignoring me.

and yes i have to see her for the past few days and tomorrow due to the camp, it is damn awkward just walking past pretending i never saw her. the only thing i've probably said is, "do you need some more bread" and i shove bread into her hand.

tbh i tried. i tried today but it just seems a little. cold.

plus she seems to be moving on, and i dont want to be a whiny deprived bitch begging her to stay. and i can kinda see the direction she's going and while i'm happy because she's finally rid of me the self-centered friend, i'm only half willing to let go.

because the past 4 years have been so aweshum and i will def. remember all those late-night calls and messaging. all the crazy times and yes all those weird stories.

ok maybe i'm just yknw worrying too much here and being assuming again. but this time, i actually think i'm right.

because yes, if you read this hon, and you never intended it the way i thought you meant it to be, that would be awesome and i would like to know.

but if you read this, you're like,, "yes precisely you finally got my hint", i would just wanna say i love you vair vair much and i couldnt ever possibly give you up.

and if i was right, i want you to know because i'm not giving you up, you can always come back to this retarded friend who can always try to be less bitchy and self-centered.

well of course if i was right you'll probably think i'm an idiot right now and yes move on if you wish. go ahead because i know you've found what you want.

the truth is who you're moving on to, i think they're pretty amazing people and if they can appreciate what you do more than me, they deserve you more.

yes i'm insanely stupid again because i have no idea what i just blabbered on and on about and she'll think i'm retarded.

ah well.

gnight to all the stars that shine.

HOP AROUND AND SCREAM;

2010-05-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

“Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up”
©BritneySpears

hellohello!

i'm going to be away for a really long time, so i'm gonna blog to entertain all of you! [:

well so i'm going to be really busy this week.
I have a school trip to malaysia, which i'm counting on to be pretty fun, besides the studying part.

and the next day after i return, i have corporals camp. and i am counting on that to be really sucky, since i heard from my seniors that they make you finish all their food, even if you've jumbled up all your food with other people's.

ugh.

and right after that i have CSI camp, which i'm slightly more excited for now since i've stopped being a total bitch on the fact i'm only in the kitchen, and i actually have a job in registration so yay.

but well apparently the busy part is only on the first day. but still at least i have a job!! [:

and well after service on sat i got quite pissed.
and if you read my tweets, you probably already know why.

rageee. and this morning i just saw from her facebook pictures that she went on a school trip with her friends.
AND HAD A GREAT TIME I SEE.

WHATTHEHELL.

srsly. and her profile is filled with her liking stuff.

andand she has time to make stuff for the CSI camp.

and apparently- "BUSY WITH (HER) GRANDFATHER" so she cant go get my book.

please la. wtf just admit that you would rather spend your time on boys and facebook than on me. stop using your grandfather as an excuse because then you degrade him.

but forget it.
she's already turned into someone i dont recognise anymore.

she's already turned into the person her and i would say we hate.

she's already thrown me into the past.

but honestly, i think everyone has.

recently, i kinda missed this friend i hadn't talked to in ages, so i messaged that friend.
well yes i got a reply and we talked on the phone, but it felt so damn awkward.

there was a thousand and one awkward pauses, and our whole conversation was question-and-answer.

and i knew we were just using each other.
what kept the conversation going was just the fact that we wanted info out of each other.

well maybe it was because our friendship was built on that in the first place.

ah forget it.
maybe the friendship wasnt even meant to last anyway.

[okay sorry. but this post is going to be a bit ranty and emo-ish.
i'll have a better one when i come back from camp ok :) ]

ok moving on, recently my class had a discussion on making a class t-shirt.

at first i was all hyped up, because our theme was telephone as my class is 2T.

and yes if you dont already know i HEART Gaga, so i was all we can use gaga elements on the t-shirt!

and so yep my friends and i came up with this design, with the front being a drawing of a classic phone, with words saying "CALL ME @ 1800-2T-2010"

and the back with some lyrics from Gaga's song telephone, which probably would "hello hello baby you called i can't hear a thing". and yep it's meant to be contradictory.

idk if you think it's cool, but i thought it was. [:

and so we proposed it to the class, but somehow they just didnt like it.

and yes obviously i know we cant have a full agreement all the time, so we tried to make a compromise. but then everything became effing ridiculous.

firstly they said they didnt want so many words, because they wanted the design to be simple.
FINE.
we reduced the number of lines so it became like what 3 lines only?

and then after a long time of discussion, my friend said to put "TRY AGAIN LATER" or smth like that at the back instead in bold.

AND HEY GUESS WHAT?!

like 9 less people objected.

WHAT THE HELL.

what happened to "oh we want it traditional and simple"?

because the font size of those few lines can be changed. it as be as small as you want it to be.

hypocrites.

srsly. you dont like having her lyrics on your shirt, SAY SO.

i'm fine with your choice of music and if you think she's weird i dont care either because i'll respect your opinion.

BUT YOU DONT BLOODY COME AND TRY TO LIE TO ME AND GO ONE BIG ROUND JUST TO GET RID OF THE LYRICS.

tbh i never even knew my class was capable of such a thing.

oh, and so for the original design, we had half of the class who was for it and half who objected.

and while we were trying to reach a compromise after like 30 mins, i realised something.

WHY THE HELL WERE WE (the ones who supported) THE ONES THAT HAD TO COMPROMISE.
WHY WASNT IT THEM.

we had to take away the lyrics, we had to come up with new designs for them.

and, while we were discussing, this girl who was sort of representing those who objected said something like "the class wants... "

see the bold and red part?

THE CLASS.

wait so you mean, THEY ARE THE CLASS NOW?

so what were the rest of us?

and since we were equal,
WHY COULDN'T WE BE THE CLASS INSTEAD.

well of course in the end i gave up.

i just told them to go come up with their own effing design and make their shirt. (or course i put it in a much nicer way to them) i would still buy it anyway. it's just how much i like it.

because i am not such a bitch and rotten kid that just because i don't like the shirt, i dont buy it. because after all it's all about the class spirit.

yes. if you are the kind that wouldnt buy it because you're stingy with your money and dont like the shirt, I AM CALLING YOU A ROTTEN KID.

yes. i'm tired of being nice.

i'm not nice anyway. so why should i try.

P.S. TAG! and follow me on twitter :P

LET THE BIMBO INCREASE;

2010-05-18T20:31:00.004+08:00

"And 'im in pieces, Baby fix me.
And just shake me till you wake me from this bad dream"
©JustinBieber

okay, so short post!

anyway was having tennis today, and we shared the sports complex with the cheerleaders.
major grossed out with their bimbo-ness.

well i used to have some form of respect for cheerleading.
i still do, but well not so much.

ugh.

so anyway. this is what me and my friends have come up with!

CONDITIONS TO BE A CHEERLEADER:

1) Have relatively long hair so you can flick it, adding to the bimbo effect
2) Own FBTs. (the more translucent the better so your sexy legs can be seen)
3) Own shirts that a relatively long-- able to cover 9/10 of your shorts, but be careful it's not too long, or your shorts cannot be seen anymore. Then you fall short of the trend and your sexy legs cannot be seen.
4) Be able to do the boob shake. (also meaning have big boobs)
5) Be able to sway your hips. (this is extremely important to show off your figure)
6) Do not tuck in your shirt into your shorts. You need to show off your abs/stomach/whatever you want when you do flips.

yup i think that's it.
mm not too bad eh.

P.S. Banner credit - http://s377.photobucket.com/home/__galwaygirl
P.P.S. No offence to cheerleaders. this was just for fun

FLICK;

2010-05-16T00:13:00.004+08:00

"I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me"
©Jojo

okayyy heyyy all! :D

i had a pretty... um emo week?

lol i mean i had three papers..
and we got back results.

so results were ok..
but i was really expecting to do better for my humanities and life science.

but i def. have to really thank God cause i think i have As for all so yay! :D

for all you who have exams i sure hope all of you did well, and if you didnt (or think you didnt because we all have different definitions), just try harder the next exams [:

and i think all of you should believe me because i dont lie about such stuffz [:

i have been writing so many argumentative essays (IN CHINESE) i feel the need to support that statement with examples!

so example 1! my friend failed lit last term so i told her she was going to be fine this term! and yes of course i was right and she did quite well! 16/25 i think :D

and example 2! my other friend was close to failing history because she failed two history assignments. and so the night before i was texting her, and i spent 2 hours telling her she would be fine. lol and the next day before the exam i told her again! so all in all we estimated it to be around 2hrs 5 mins and of course all this time wasnt wasted! she did really well for the paper -- 18/20 which is even better than me :D

so if you want to do well for your exams come look for me...
and if there's a high demand i should start charging people.. :D

okay enough of all this prelude and i'm going into my main point!

so today i had church, and i really like our temporal location -- kum yan methodist church.

okay yes our old church premise had some probs so we need a new place and yep because it was so short notice we had to rent their place first.

and yep i like it cause it's so much easier for me to get there now, just take a bus and walk a few mins!

to get to the old church, i had to take a bus, then mrt (or another bus) then walk. and if i'm not wrong you have to walk even further.

plus kum yan is near orchard so i can go get stuff before church if i want to,
while well... the old church was situated near geylang.

lol lol not that i look down on that place but yeah my mum doesnt like it vair much either...

okok back to main point!

so we had a CSI Camp (coming children's camp) [whoa that was a lot of unintended alliteration] meeting where everyone was told their roles in the camp.

so last year i served in the camp too and i served in the kitchen.

and basically in kitchen you just settle all the food matters. so you have to lay out all the food boxes on the tables before the groups come for lunch, and you take special drinks for the group leaders during meal time and then you help to clear up when the groups leave.

and then you prepare for tea time by laying out more food and drinks.

and sometimes you might get to go around serving drinks to the game masters.

well sounds like a lot of work?
i thought so too.

not really. i guess because we had a lot of manpower we did things really fast and of course that got boring.

it was a great experience and i def. learnt a lot of stuff,
but i did have a bad experience too.

idk if i've alr blogged about this, but just in case i havent, i'm going to [:

well so there was basically a lot of girls in the kitchen and i dont usually talk to them, so it became kinda boring?

and i was quite a social reject during those few days because i was just sitting there while the others had fun. well of course that isnt their fault.. and when i'm a social reject i just become more critical of everyone else because well... maybe cause i was jealous/envious or whatever la...

and yeah i wasnt on very good terms with one of them so that just made things worse having to spend 4 days tgt.

and well yes you probably guessed it.
i got assigned kitchen again.

i really wanted games or something like that.
and yeah i was quite sad.

so one of my friend who was in kitchen with me last year got games this year.
i know she really wanted it so i'm really happy for her.
but it was good to see her so happy when she knew she got games.

and lol a lot of people "congratulated" her?

but then at that point of time shermaine came along and said something very important. "So? You're in games? ok? what promoted? you're not any better than other you know. there's no difference". (promoted because my friend said she was promoted from kitchen to games)

and yeah i thought what shermaine said was really true because the main point of the camp is really for the souls.

but somehow i just cant let go.
it's like i really want it, and i still have to go for this camp after ROCs and Corporals Camp which is all one after another so i know i'm gonna be really drained.

and out of all 3 i was actually looking forward to CSI camp.
i mean, i'm still excited for it with all the children coming to be saved but... yeah.

okay i know i'm selfish.
i know the main point of the camp is all really about the children.

but..
i'm an attention-whore ok?

i like people to know my name ok?

instead of oh that girl from kitchen who just runs up and down and sweats like an idiot bringing us our food.

or, THERE WAS EVEN SUCH A PERSON IN THE CAMP?!

and yeah the people in kitchen this time are worse (nono they're great people but..) cause i hardly talk to any of them, and i dont think we like each other.

but i guess i am not up to the "games standard" anyway.

my friend who got to games is really sporty and she's kinda cool and popular.

and compared to me who just likes to keep my ass glued to the chair/sofa/bed and am a demanding, critical social reject, i'm sure she was a much better choice.

and you get to sleep if you have nothing to do if you're in kitchen so i guess that's perfect for me.

but i think i'll be fine.
maybe the camp will turn out great anyway.

so yep you know i guess this post was just a little on the rant side and if you made it through without being bored, i'm really proud of ya [:

and it's 1.25 am now and i should really get to sleep because i've got work to do tmr morning!
i'll try to blog as often as i can, but i dont believe in blogging unless i think i have good material.

lol okay nightnight!

P.S. If you still don't follow me on twitter, you should! There's a link to my twitter on the left sidebar so you can just go follow me. [:

P.P.S. Thanks to all of you who encouraged me about my tweet today.
If you don't follow me on twitter, this is what i tweeted: "BLOODY GRANDMA CAME INTO MY ROOM. and said, is today fathers' day? OH YOU DONT HAVE A FATHER SO YOU DONT KNOW" and "first person to tell me i dont have a father and it's my grandma. this is why i love my family".

So yep thanks all of you who encouraged me [: i'm really fine, was just shocked at that point of time. lol lol sarah even said she felt sorry for me -.- SIGH. i appreciate the encouragement, but no thanks for the sympathy. empathy is good enough. CHEESE. :D

P.P.P.S. if you have nothing better to do like me, go watch this video. It's on a really talented singer, sorta like a guy and taiwan version of Susan Boyle.

mummumum;

2010-05-06T21:48:00.008+08:00

"The moon lights her way while she’s howlin’ at him"
©LadyGaga

okay, so the promised food photos!

the 16 boxes of pizza :
and of course the ice-cream:

okay fine it looks pretty nice in this photo... maybe the one in front of me just wasnt that great lol.

anyway the scary part is this. take that, and cover the length of this table:

Dialogue In The Dark;

2010-05-02T21:30:00.004+08:00

"Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me"
©KellyClarkson

heyheyhey!
i'm sorry if i haven't been posting much.

nothing really interesting has been happening in my life unless you count my school life being pretty screwed up with me really relying too much on the internet for help with school work rather than my brain.

which is a huge problem because well obviously you cant have a computer/iPhone/iPod touch (i'm saying this because i've been using a lot of internet on my phone :P) next to you while you do your exam paper.

but other than that i guess my life has been pretty normal.

but just as i was lamenting about my boring life, i had a pretty fun friday and a blasted saturday. <3

well friday school sucked a lot, we got a new timetable, which is better in certain ways considering i no longer have art, but my tuesday timetable is horrendous. most of my lessons are 1 hour 20min, which is the maximum any lesson can go, and my shortest lesson is 1 hour. not to mention the 1h20min lessons are physics, bio and PE. ALL RIGHT AFTER ONE ANOTHER, with the exception of recess in between. oh and the worst part, the 1 hour lessons are history and geog.

and on friday i got back some work i did and it turned out to be pretty bad, and i had pretty high hopes when i submitted it.

but wellwell the best part of my day turned out to be GB. we had an outing to Dialogue in the Dark, an exhibition at Ngee Ann Polytechnic.
we had this outing for a badge we needed to complete.

so in a nutshell, it's an exhibition where you enter a room that's completely dark, (and i'm srs about dark because you really cant see anything), and you have a guide that leads you through.

well, doesnt sound like interessting does it?
or are you wondering how can the guide even find his/her way through?

well no they dont wear night vision goggles or anything.
the guides are actually blind.

so the main point of the whole exhibition gives you a chance to experience what it is like to be blind. it was really an eyeopener for me, realising that simple daily tasks were honestly really hard for blind people.

so basically in there we walked around with a cane in the darkness, got to experience some stuff like walking through a market and taking a boat down the Singapore River. It was a lot of fun on the boat, esp when they sprayed some water on us [:

it reminded me of the times in tioman island where we took a speed boat out for snorkeling.

and at the last part of the tour, we got to buy a cookie and drinks and eat in the dark. that part pretty much amazed me because the person serving us at the counter was also blind, but she could give us the cookies, the correct drinks and the correct change.

and well, i learnt some general knowledge in the process (:

okay so look at this note:

see the two dots at the top right hand corner?
blind people can use that to differentiate the notes.

if you feel it, there is a slight bump, which makes it slightly like braile, and different denominations have different numbers of bumps.

cooooollll right? [:

and well i learnt that eating was such a chore, because while i tried to eat my cookie, i dropped crumbs all over my pinafore, and i must have looked unsightly. and while i tried to get my drink from the table, i couldnt tell which was my drink lol lol.

so yeah my friends and i really had fun even though some of them gave me a slight headache from all the screaming and arguing in the dark room lol.

so if you have the time, i highly recommend you go down and have a look.
it isnt very long, just about 1 hour.

plus it isnt that expensive, so i guess it's really worth it for an experience you can't get anywhere else.

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okay so now i'm gonna talk about yesterday!

please forgive me for the long post, but honestly i'm just making it up to you guys for not posting. :D

so yesterday was Labour Day, so my church didn't have service and the youth sector decided to organise a games day for us instead. [:

well so of course i went, and i really had a lot a lot of fun[:

i havent really been attending the youth service, so i was really glad to be able to play games with the rest of the youth, and i reallyyyy liked my outdoor games group very much.

everyone was really enthu and all cheery and optimistic so i guess we all brought the best out of each other. because we were going to play 3 rounds of captain's ball, my group thought we were surely going to lose because well, we were all vertically-challenged.

but our games turned out to be amazing, we won these two groups which everyone thought well of! some people in my group turned out to be really good even though they didnt look like it. [:

lol i probably was the worst player around, you know, standing around waiting for the ball to come, or running around stupidly trying to get the ball, but you know, failing really bad.

and i was being really extra trying to cheer everyone on and sorta lost a bit of my voice for about an hour due to that. -.-"

and after the whole thing we went for dinner at potong pasir, and then we went to the spider web there. well i didnt do much, just slacked around and allowed my fats to grow while talking to karrie and audrey.

it was relaxing and quite some fun because we talked a lot about what happened in the past, which yes, tends to bring back happy memories for me.

i guess i also had a lot of fun because they were really open with me and i appreciate it when people are with me, because when you're open to someone it really just means you trust the person. (HAHAH NO I'M NOT BOASTING)

and while lying on the spider web and hurting my butt because of all the people jumping around, including my pastor trying to bully me by shaking the whole spider web on purpose, it really brought back a lot of memories.

you know, fun times and all.

and throughout the day i got to talk to a lot of people, of which some i used to talk a lot to and now avoid.

i would really loveeee to have something like that again, because honestly it took my mind off all the school work i had.

ohoh and we did have a lot of food as well i'm sure i must have put on like 2kg :O:O

they ordered 16 boxes of pizza for us and we had cream of mushroom soup as well. [:

plus after games day we had like 5 long tables joined worth of ice cream spread out, topped with chocolate/strawberry syrup, cereal, peanuts, sprinklers, maple syrup, bananas and whipped cream.

i think we totally overdid it, because well... you need to see the pictures but i dont have any, so imma post them once someone posts them on fb.

i sprayed too much whipped cream and i think some people got pissed. :P

well the ice cream was really fun and cool but it was a bit too much for people who just came back from exercise lol lol.

plus i heard from someone that you're not supposed to take sweet stuff after exercise because your body absorbs it more or something like that. it might be unfounded but i would rather believe it than not lol.

so yup as you can see i've typed a reallllllyyyy long post for all you guys out there so you should loveee me! :D

and tag and rate the posts to make me happy :D

and i'm vair vair sad because i checked my blog stats recently and it has been reallly low): like idk 1/2/3 reads a day?

i remember i used to have like 6/7/8 reads a day):
at my max i had 11! [:

fine maybe some of them were boosted by me by accident, but still):

all you peeps should make me a famous blogger like XiaXue so i can go to Pixar as well!

HAHAH okayyyy so i hope all you Singapore students out there enjoy your holiday tomorrow, while i spend it studying (hopefully) :D

HUFF PUFF;

2010-04-16T17:20:00.001+08:00

"it takes a lot to change her mind
she's expensive, she's expensive"
©TheVirgins

hello!

recently i've been pretty freeee!
but well exams are coming and I havent started revising :/
i should start soon!

but well while i'm a bit more free now,
i shall blog! :D

so anyway i had my 2.4km run on tuesday!
was really horribly disgusting came in like 27 out of 29.
with a timing of 17.40 mins.

considering a fail is after 18.30, this is really bad.
plus it's an E with means i can't get a gold award.

):

so i've decided to rerun!
it might sound stupid to you, but hello for a person like me who can't run, this is no piece of cake.

i dont need/want an A.
i just need/want a C.

so all you peeps out there should like form a cheerleading team and come support me on my run next tues!

and you can like try to talk to me so at least i can get distracted?
no wait i will want to reply you.
no thanks.

but anyway i'm seriously super proud of myself for my 5 item test!!
i have 3 As, 1 B, 1C.

bwahahaha awesome totally owned the incline pull ups station!

well, not really, but i did TWENTY-TWO!!!
and that is a big deal for me who did like what 7 last year?

but fine i admit i cheated :/
i totally used my body weight lol lol.

unlike my dear macho friend sarah chan who did like FORTY-SIX using her arms. -.-
and she still vair unhappy want to beat others.

psssssssshhhhh.

joking :D

later she come after me and keeeeeel me):

ohoh anyway, I NEED TO TELL YOU ALL SOMETHING.

and iPhone IS FREAKING DANGEROUS.

SUPER SUPER DANGEROUS OMG.

ok fine maybe it wasn't the phone's fault.
it's was mine...
being too assuming :/

so... the story is.

MY PHONE BILL WAS A FREAKING $220!!!

and yes i am only 14 so my mudder almost keeled me. :X

and so what happened was, i thought i was only student plan, which gives me 1GB of data use (or internet use) for free, and unlimited smses.

BUT TURNS OUT.
I WAS NOT ON STUDENT PLAN.

super major wtf laaaaaaaaaa.

my messages alone cost me TWENTY bucks cause turns out i only have 500 free smses and i sent 900.

out of which i think 50 went to TweetSG?!!?!

i only sent so many cause i thought it was freeee!

UGH.

so yes then you minus about 30 bucks for my plan, and you know how much my local data usage cost.

don't judge me i promise it was an accident :/

so now i have 12GB of data usage because my mudder freaked out and signed me up on the iPhone plan lol. :D

yupyup, so that's it for now, because i've gotta get down to my english work ):

P.S. Leave me a tag? [:
P.P.S. All you peeps out there should go watch The Annoying Orange! at least watch one ep? [:
this is my fave ep : SANDY CLAUS!

PUMP;

2010-04-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

"We were the kings and queens of promise"
©30SecondsToMars

this scene is really funny.
and it makes me kinda miss that Queen B or Blair bitch in season 1/2.
she's lost herself so much in season 3.

her storyline is all chuck, chuck and chuck.
[yes i know this scene is kinda about him to, but it's funny. ]

i want her individuality back.

I'LL STAND WITH ARMS HIGH AND HEART ABANDONED;

2010-04-04T20:16:00.004+08:00

"One minute it's love,
and suddenly it's like a battlefield"
©JordinSparks

Just had the awesome-est week ever. [:
this year, at least.

so this week was Discover Jesus Week in school, and it was really fun!

the speaker - Jeremy Seaward was really cool and amusing lol he made the sermons really fun and engaging[:

and on the last day he asked those who wanted Jesus in their life to stand up, and at the point where i saw so many people stand up, i was really touched.

i mean, somehow i felt that i wasnt really feeling a feeling of my own.
it felt like God's feelings.

i felt super proud of all those who stood up even though their friends were all sitting down.
and yeah i cried a little.

stupid, weird you might say.

but well that's how life is.

but well i got kinda pissed at those i knew were so obviously standing up just because their friends stood up.

hey, this is a personal commitment thing. what are you trying to show, that you're in with your friends for this? no this relationship cant be shared, so i dont see why you're trying to "impress" your friends, or whatever you were trying to do.

no actually um you just made me despise you.

well maybe i'm not so much in a position to judge, because of course i have done such things before.

and yeah i guess it was also really great to start off every school day with a short time in God's presence[:

and yup because of DJW we had only 1 hour of math the whole week so YAY!

and i had church service on Thursday instead, so and Pastor Sam preached an awesome sermon as well! HAHA ya gotta love him.

so yup that makes it 4 awesome, engaging sermons in 4 days!

super blessed[:

plus since Friday was a public holiday I took a good rest, sleeping and you know, using the com.

Well, the youths in my church went to kota tinggi but i didnt wanna go cause they were meeting at 6, and well a holiday means a break right?

if i went it would really be a break anymore and i would be really burned out.

plus I had GB enrolment service on sat morning, so i needed my rest.

was kinda dreading the service but it turned out to be pretty awesome. [:

i wasnt the only loner (cause my mum never comes for such stuff) and christelle, whom i was sitting next to for the long service kept amusing me. ;D

and i have to mention this, lydia fong is prettyyyy!

i jealous. :/

lol back to the point, the parade was not too bad, the Guest of Honour didnt take forever to come, and my contingent did 2 out of 3 beloks well and for our standard i'm pleased.

so yeah, my week was really simple, nothing too exciting, other than the fact of course i celebrated the resurrection of my Lord Jesus! [:

it's quite amazing how simple things can make me happy.

oh and little things as well.

i have realised that my lime green jean perry towel makes me really happy!

i lubz the colour and it's all nice and soft :D

hahah yes yes i am weird like that.

so yes i hope all you out there did enjoy your long weekend, and if you believe in Christ then I hope you continue to remember what Jesus did for you and love him! [:

HAPPY EASTER!

P.S. BLESSED BAPTISM WENJEN! (If you see this! ) It's so cool to have your baptism on easter! :)

LOVEGAME;

2010-03-28T11:39:00.004+08:00

"All before me like a dream
Falling in between"
©DavidCook

so.. went to kor henry's wedding yesterday[:
pretty excited la you know i dont get invited to wedding dinners all the time):

think i havent gone to one in like years :O

but anyway was super pissed off before the dinner):
i wanted to wear this black dress (which i wore to that symphonie espagnole thing),
but then i realised i looked like a big fat pig which was going to bust that dress any moment.

no seriously i look like a fat person wearing a tight tube top.

and then i decided to change to a shirt and a vest + jeans, but then it wasnt that great anyway,
cause through the vest you still can see my hamburger tummy (AND I AM SERIOUSLY LIKE LAYERS OF FAT)

and yeah so i just went in that la.
but then i did realise i looked damn horrible and apparently got people say i'm big-sized la.

was damn fking sad for serious):
was like going to cryyy):
SO NOW I AM GOING TO START OPERATION SLIM DOWN.

i hope it works :/

but anyway the wedding was pretty awesome[:
place was quite pretty and the bride had a really nice dress!
tho i was wondering why she only changed once cause usually they change twice?
idk.

but they were really nice i guess they went to like every table to take photo with their guests!

haha but like while i was going to leave then i shook jie evelyn's hand but then i didnt know what to say lol.
and it was like first time i saw uncle roy all dressed up!
HAHAH SUPER FUNNY! :D

and ivy's dad was really funny HAHAHA.
they kept cracking weird jokes which was super lame but hilarious! :D

meh and then i was texting sarah then i told her more people should get married and invite me :P
and i was doing that for the good of singapore so then the couples have more child-bearing years :D:D
and i insisted she invites me to her wedding HAHAH.

I INSIST ALL OF YOU WHO READ THIS TO INVITE ME TO YOUR WEDDING :P

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ohohoh btw today is Lady Gaga's birthday!

and she just tweeted this :"I'm 24 today, so u know what that means? Let's raise a glass to 30 more years of writing music and videos for my beautiful little monsters.X"

<3

i honestly hope she continues to be so awesome and i honestly cant wait for her next album which i think is supposed to be out EOY 2010? [:

and for the last time, whether she is satanic or not, isnt for you to decide.

anyway today is sunday for me and i hope the coming week is going to be great! [:
and obvsly hope OPERATION SLIM DOWN WILL WORK.

INTENT;

2010-03-24T20:12:00.005+08:00

"I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless You’ve left me speechless so speechless"
©LadyGaga

don't you guys think speechless has a retro feel to it?
lol i feel like it does.

anyway today was a kinda sad day.i mean i was actually quite excited for today, like no apparent reason but just quite happy.

then i went to school and like by recess by whole day was so screwed up):

well maybe cause i screwed up my 十月 acting presentation really badly?

and i rewrote a compo and didn't even get that high after all, and another compo i rewrote wasn't even given a grade.

and i dont know all these stuff are actually supposed to pull up my grade?
):

and i was actually depressed about the creative compo also but well forget it.
but generally i guess the day got better?

and i really really have such awesome friends zomg they really cheered me up even though chinese completely screwed my whole life over.
gahh lubxxczx them they made me laugh and smile and forget all about what happened (:

HAHAHA OH MAN ONE OF THE STUFF THAT REALLY REALLY MADE ME LAUGH WAS THIS:

HAHAH OMG SO SWEET RIGHT!
HAHAH yes yes chace crawford gave it to me all you peeps out there be jealous :P

thanks a mil to the person who gave it to me!HAHAH she's super nice and i'm really glad i got to know her this year actually[:
no i cant say her name cause then you'll realised it wasn't chace who gave it to me [yes this sentence is paradoxical by itself]

haha she's like humanely the only one that understands my love for guys TEN YEARS older than me :D
and she likes a guy who's 44 years old so i'm perfectly normal lol. [:

ohoh and this is what adeline drew for me hahah quite funny also:

HAHA so nice right :P

gahh feeling so whiny now):

cause all the bloody keep youtube video websites just wont work! >:(

tried like 10 of them and they ALL HAVE PROBLEMS!?

hello anyone have the same problem as me? ):

i'm quite excited for tmr cause i have a home ec exam, but if i screw it up then no it wont be fun anymore.

i hope my day doesn't screw up again.

AND YAY TWO MORE DAYS to end of school week!
HAHAH mrs heng taught me this optimism [:

i hope your week has been better than mine and look forward to the weekend! [:

P.S. I appreciated whoever rated the posts thanks[:
P.P.S all you leave a tag?

WE KNOCK AND WE SHOUT;

2010-03-17T15:56:00.003+08:00

"She's not broken, She's just a baby."
©LadyGaga

hellohello!

sorry i haven't been blogging in awhile!
well not much inspiration.
but well since i'm stuck at home with nothing much to do, other than homework, i'll entertain all you who have nothing to do as well and thus landed on this blog[:

and in return you people should honestly rate the posts/leave a tag so i will be entertained!
it's TWO-WAY :D
so anyway recently i watched Dear John, after cross-country meet.
was okayyyy.

i mean, i dont know why people think channing tatum is hot?
he was kinda ugly, other than the surfing parts.

but then again almost all surfers look good while they are surfing.
ummm that doesn't make much sense but whatever.

well i guess the plot was kinda weird,
like the first part was really fast moving, but the middle got draggy?

so how was it fast moving?

well basically amanda hooked up with channing within a day, and yeah had sex by like day 3.

and she met his father withing 5 days as well.

so well it was super fast?

and some scenes were quite stupid, like idk why channing went to extend his time in the army, etc.

and well it is quite a soppy movie, but surprisingly i didnt cry at the couple parts cause i thought it was plain stupid?

well sorry if you did cry then.

but i cried at the father parts more cause apparently the father was autistic? (HAHA WEIRD I KNOW BUT VAIR SAD)

and the son couldn't really connect with him?
and the son was actually what caused the father to become autistic so sadz x20444321

but then it became really weird how the son suddenly poured out all his feelings to his father when he was dying.

i mean, yeah it happens, but it takes time!

and the ending was ok, with channing and amanda meeting again.

AHHAHA but the last part was really funny, cause sarah was crying, but then at that time i said channing was wearing a nice shirt, so i completely ANTI-CLIMAXED the whole scene HAHAHAH.

and god li wen spilt popcorn TWICE so i kept laughing at the wrong moments(e.g. the couple hugging and crying) lol i'm the best at anti-climax :D

well so um if i had to rate it i would give 2.7 stars?
HAHHAH dont ask me what's with the 0.7[:

meh feeling really bored during hols manz.

everyone's just like kinda busy doing their own thing?

but i'm glad to hear everyone's having a great time with their own friends and all so i guess it's not a bad thing!

but we all kinda met up yesterday at national library building to watch TKM play, and it was great seeing all of them again out of school[:

but the holidays are definitely a good break for me, just sort of really chilling.

but one thing i dont really like is you start to think a lot, which i dont really like, because yknw sad and all.

not my thing.

so anyway out of my boredom i decided to go back to french, self-learning some conversation stuff, just hope i can get back on track and all.

i hope you guys are enjoying your hols!

and um i went to clarke quay recently, will blog about that sometime this week? [:

SHOOT THE FLOWER;

2010-03-10T18:32:00.000+08:00

What the House Test Says About You

You consider yourself important, but no more important than anyone else. You love attention, but you don't feel like you deserve more of it than anyone else.

You aren't against being community oriented, but it's not really your thing. You tend to prefer to focus on your family and not the neighborhood around you.

You are a playful, charming, and seductive person. People feel instantly close to you.

You take good care of your physical appearance. You dress well, stay in shape, and do your best to look great.

You are moved by romance and love. You are optimistic about people, and you love hearing about happy endings.

The House Test

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

POP THE BALLOON;

2010-03-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

"Our hair is perfect
while we're all getting shit wrecked"
©LadyGaga

just read Xiaxue's blog post on hair here.

so i decided to write one of my own. something like hers but a different topic[:

so yes if you know me irl you know i rebonded my hair like 4 times i think.

and god it's the smartest thing i've done in my whole life.

i used to have like fking ugly curly hair with millions of tangles and split ends.
i remember how i hated going to the hairdresser's cause they always say i got split ends, etc.

so one day i decided to go snip my hair off to around medium hair length, and to rebond it.

and no i have never regretted it.

well before i decided to do that i was quite apprehensive also, cause everyone was like don't do it laaa so ex, it spoils your hair etc. and as i've mentioned i used to have really dry/frizzy hair so i didnt want to worsen it.

but anyway i decided to go ahead with it!

and now i have pretty good hair.
well not the nicest, but 2794o86302 times nicer than 4 years ago.

firstly, now my hair is straight (well not at this point of time cause i havent rebonded in like more than 6 months all curling back alr): )! pretty pretty[:

secondly, my hair is 37926 times smoother than before. i dont know how that happens because it supposedly hurts your hair, but well at least it hasnt happened to me.

thirdly, you can go make people jealous HAHAH.

yes like seriously!
even though they know it's fake, but still it's on your head and it's pretty! so who cares whether it was natural or not!

so if you have ugly, curly, frizzy hair, you should just go ahead and do something about it!

even if it turns out horrible just lather crazy amounts of conditioner, (which is what i did for like the first week of rebonding), and you can go correct your hair another time anw!

it's better than living with your ugly hair and just complaining all day long.

but yes la you need to rebond it on a regular basis or it will curl back like what it is doing to me nao vair vair ugly. ):

and you do need to sit at the hair salon for like 2/3 hours i think and i have no time ):

andand you cant wash your hair for the next 2 days or smth?
so yes while i'm schooling obvs cannot right got PE and all.

andandand you are not supposed to tie it for the first week so even worse cannot right):

nao must wait until like june hols or smth have to live with ugly hair fml):

OVER LOWER;

2010-03-05T19:27:00.002+08:00

"I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track."
©MichaelBuble

tired.

this week has been so draining i dont know how i survived.

monday was pretty damned awesome, and tuesday was kinda good.
outdoor painting turned out to be quite fun and slack[:

wednesday was really downhill with results and all, but chinese competition kind cheered me up[:

hahaha had so much fun laughing at laoshi kinda miss the sec 1 slackness and teasing.

well chinese now is still really great, liang laoshi is really awesome and nice, but it's really stressful cause we write A LOT of compos, and we get a lot of tests.

but yes it is helpful so if i manage to get out of it alive i'll be a lot better[:

well then thursday was horrible.

eng results really disappointed me, cause my summary was real suck as usual, and then i realised miss ng counted this comprehension we did that I FAILED as 30% of the total mark.

so yes i was kinda scrwed over by that.

chinese speech training was so. stupid.

i dont know why i even agreed to it.

it's like 5 days to preliminaries and i havent chosen a story, i havent written a script.

and i dont know why i'm even trying because at the end of the day i'm just going to be one of the 62 people that are going to be kicked out.

recently i really dont know what i've been doing, and why i'm doing what i've been doing.

it's like i really want to reach for something, but i'm very scared that thing is all an illusion and when i grab for it, i grab nothing and all the effort i had to spend to try to grab it was all wasted.

so anyway back to the point, i asked laoshi if i could quit it, because yes i have stage fright.
(wow amazing i know when i'm like crazy half the time)

and also because i didnt want to go try and fail, but she was quite apprehensive so yeah.

i'm gonna just try and let myself fail and experience that pain even though i am already prepared.

today was pretty damn great[:
i really really love fridays now, wit the exception of GB.

fridays have a really great timetable, cause i kinda like philo now that mrs chew is teaching us and i think she's really great at relating to us in certain terms so it kinda gets us to open up more?

and philo discussions are really fun and insightful i wish we had more philo HHAHA.

plus recently we watched the matrix, so i was all excited to finish the show. well the ending was kinda stupid because what? trinity kissed neo and gave him some sort of stimulation so he could get up from the dead and stop bullets and go into an agent's body and cause him to explode?

but i did love the plot though it was confusing at first, but it was quite an refreshing idea.

and yeah after that i got back geog results, which made me quite happy.

well the overall results werent that impressive, but i did quite well for the paper so yes i am seriously doing full geog in sec 3[:

it isnt really just the results, but generally i think geog is quite interesting, esp. human geog.

well yes and then we got back lit too, which was quite disappointing. but then again lit and i have never been really good friends.

so yes this sums up my week, and i dont really want to talk about GB cause it's quite fking annoying.

i dont see why they cant have a bit more time management and a sense of urgency when they are always blowing the damned whistle ordering us around.

story of my life.

sorry this had to be a sucky post about my life, but nothing interesting has been happening and i guess i just wanted to keep the blog posted.

but should have some pretty great stuff coming up next week from learning journey & cross-country, so i'll blog again after that?

and the week after it's the march hols and for now my plans are to go watch To Kill A Mockingbird drama play with my class and 2G, and i'm pretty excited since the play we watches last year (Much Ado About Nothing) turned out really awesome.

meeting the celebs aside. :P

and i might be going for some darkness walk thing for GB which sounds pretty cool as well.

and i'm definitely taking the time to sort out my school stuff, filing, homework, etc.

i need the break asap[:

and i hope all you out there are gonna enjoy this weekend[:

HACHIKOOO [:

2010-02-27T10:01:00.004+08:00

"With my hands up
You got me now"
©Ke$ha

ok am going to do a movie review, but since someone did something and provided me with blogging material, i will blog about that first.

is in a very angry morning mood now. >:(

because, my grandma just spilt hot boiling soup over me.
and hey guess what over my mac too!

and the all she could say was that she was bloody irritated with me and my mum because idk what!

and then yes my mum got irritated and started arguing back.

so while poor me just got fking scalded my soup, they stood there shouting at each other while i sat here trying to clean off the soup -.-

see my family is THIS nice.

and then after my grandma helped me to clean up, all my mother could say was don't ask her to cook for you again.

WHAT THE F***!

hello then what am i supposed to eat.

you cook lahhhh as if you can even cook.

angryyyyyy >:(

so now the whole thing became my fault am so proud of this family i have.

/end.rant.

ok should stop ranting up there before idk what happens and some people confront me again?

sosososo!
watched Hachiko: A Dog's Story yesterday!

no i wasnt so free to watch it at the cinemas, i watched it at church 24seven[:
~~(yes illegally if you had to know)~~

so was glad i didnt decide to go for the LJ [:
yes even tho i'm going to be a loner next wed.

ok back to main point!

i watched the american version, which was adapted from the original jap version.

so anyway, plot summary:

A college professor takes in an abandoned dog and they form an unbreakable bond. The dog arrives daily at the correct time at the station, to meet his owner. After the professor dies while away from home one day, the dog keeps vigil waiting for his master for nearly a decade.

it is damn fking sad okay):

i practically cried all the way after the guy died):

cause the dog came so faithfully every day at like 5p.m. to wait?

and he will wait until like 10?

):):):

yes then what, he waited for NINE years until he himself died? ):

and he even died outside the train station where he waited for his master everyday.

ok if i ever get a dog it must be an Akita breed laaa):

but it's prolly damn ex and it's so big i don't have space for it. ):

ok fine actually when you hear me talking about it now, you really won't understand how sad it really is, cause well i wasnt one person who is very interested in dog/animal shows.

but it was so awesome now i really really understand what people mean by a dog's loyalty.

and yesyes THIS IS A TRUE STORY! dont believe go search wiki laaa. they even erected a statue in memory of Hachikooooo[:

and because this isnt stupid animal shows where the dogs can talk,
the whole show was kinda brought to a different level cause stuff interpreted through actions always have more impact than words, no? [:

please please please, if you do have time you should really really watch it.

I WANT A DOG NOW. ):

/end.review

and gahh grandma still blabbering nonsense at my ear.

and i think i should go study my chem[:

FOR ALL IT'S WORTH;

2010-02-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

"Think you'll be getting this?
Nah, nah, nah"
©Ke$ha

sang this during worship yesterday: "The reason I live, is to worship You"

weeeelll. before that line i was all agitated so yeah was feeling awesome,
then i hit that line.

and suddenly i thought, so you mean, my whole life purpose, is just to worship Him?
so you mean, that was why He created me?
so you mean, i don't have any other purpose?

and then i was upset.
real upset.

because why?

i dont know what the line speaks to you,
but at least for me, my interpretation was: You are of no use other than for worship, and then it seemed all my dreams crashed at one go.

i dont want to believe it,
cause then it just means that my studies, my relationships and my ambitions are all bullshit.

i wish my interpretation is wrong.
it probably is?
i dont know.

just tired.

i definitely agree with the statement "Ignorance is bliss".

honestly, knowing so much just makes you hurt more.

The Matrix kinda tells me about that statement too.

i wouldnt want to live my life knowing that everything i'm eating/holding doesnt actually exist.

well the movie's a little farfetched, but yeah.
same theme.

some food for thought?
no?

vomit it out then. [:

on to philosophy homework.

2010-02-20T14:06:00.001+08:00

You Are Blunt Yet Charming

You tell it like it is, and you don't mince words. You speak your mind, and you use a lot of colorful language.

This sort of brutal honesty would put most people off, but for some reason, it only makes you more charming.

You live life exactly how you want to - no apologies. You act quickly and decisively. And you don't second guess yourself.

By being assertive, you have gained the respect of many. People may not agree with you all the time, but they do admire you.

The Butterfly Test

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

MEEN:

2010-02-18T20:44:00.006+08:00

"Let me feel what I've never seen
You're gonna baby baby, baby be my Angel.
Just take you I wanna get you"
©DBSK(Changmin)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEEEN ILUUU :D

his bday is exactly one month after mineeee!
we're meant to be :P

HAHAHAH ok will stop fangirling :P

but about fangirling, gossip girl season 3 part 2 is going to start sooooonnnn! March 8th i think?
YAY YAY waited for like 4 months alr):

hopefully it isnt going to be as disappointing as part 1 ):

but anyway now my new love in GG is taymom!

used to like leighton meester but i realised she's kinda ugly compared to blake&taylor just that i love her bitch character so muchhh :P

and i guess the whole season 3 was dull because she was no longer the bitchy queen):

ah well the writers better live up to the standards they set for themselves in season 1/2! [:

and yay i have someone new to fangirl with -- sammi! :D

she loves CB too so yay and double yay she HATES dan :P

hhahahaha okok stop fangirling for real now.

so i guess CNY overall was pretty ok, the usual standard going around collecting angbaos and talking tgt and all.

but i have real little angbaos this year am super sadz):

but people put more money inside cause yeah older and stuffz.
but i still have like 10 more days of CNY you still can gimme angbao HAHHA :D

oh and ugh i wanna go to uncle daniel's house on sat so i can play with jasmine and there's going to be loadsa angbaos but have church gahh):

and i cant miss church cause i've alr skipped it for like 2 weeks people are going to murder me soon.

and also i wanna go for kor henry's wedding (I <3 wedding dinners! sorry i'm a romantic at heart :P) but it's again on a sat gahhh wthhh):

oh sigh oh sigh.
i'll figure things out when they come i guess):

DOUBLE THE FESTIVE;

2010-02-14T11:48:00.003+08:00

"To anyone 'cause we'll get through
We're movin' on and on and on and on...
Keep movin' on"
©GoodCharlotte

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VDAY! [:
yes i am sitting here blogging because...
i'm waiting for my uncle's family to come over for lunch,
and i collect my angbao. :D

and i cant believe i have like NO PLACE TO VISIT today!!!! >:(
hello it's like the FIRST day of cny gahhh.

but i have awesome programs tmr and day after[:

just that i have zilch idea what i should wearrrr!
should i wear the shorts + graphic tee or tank + skirt to aunty betty's house or to my uncle's house?

):

but i dont really wanna go to aunty betty's house cause it's usually quite mundane and the guys are really annoying.

like oh brandon was over the moon cause he was taller than me?
wtf hello you are a guy why are you comparing with a girl?

and idk they are all into some b-boy/kpop dance thing and all trying to "own each other's asses" (quote).

but definitely excited to collect angbaos there cause there are a lot of people[:

and then again the people there are pretty damned judgmental so i dont really want to meet them.

but on a happier note might be going to 1 degree 15 on wed[:
either that or aunty eunice/uncle daniel's house?

so yeah that concludes my cny plans, plus some homework injected everywhere[:
just like how i'm doing math nowwww.

so i hope all of you have a really great one[:

P.S. I know i havent been blogging): i do have stuffz to blog about, but it's just not the right time so yeahh): and gahh blog stats are so low i am sadz): HAHAHAHHA rate + tag plz?

SHOPPING UNDONE;

2010-02-08T21:38:00.003+08:00

"K-kinda busy
K-kinda busy
Sorry, I cannot hear you, I'm kinda busy"
©LadyGaga&Beyonce

I JUST REALISED.
THAT I HAVEN'T BOUGHT/DONE SO MUCH STUFF AND CNY IS COMING DIEDIEDIE):

okay i am going to list what i need to buy/do:

Manicure (okay this can only be done on fri)
Buy more clothes/shoes! I only have ONE SHIRT WTFFFF.
Cut my hair (ugly ttm now laaaa. feel like getting a new hairstyle grrr >:( )
PROJECTS! (i want minimal work during CNY)

okay la maybe now when i list now so much,
but still! i have school this week, i absolutely have to time to go do all that! ):

so i think i only have like thurs/fri/sat?
but like shit fri is mudder's birthday and i have no idea what to get herrrrrr.

SOMEONE GIVE ME IDEAS PLZZZ?
like major help needed!
leave me tag or smthhhhhh!

Gahhhh.
but CNY means a proper break for me. [:

sigh ok i should get back to work! gnights!

I MIGHT LET YOU FINISH;

2010-02-07T11:21:00.004+08:00

"Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else I can say"
©LadyGaga

sorry for not blogging for a longggg timeeeee.
was kinda busy and yeah.
wanted to blog yesterday but we just broke camp and my head was throbbing and all grrr.

so yes now while i'm slacking from my life science project i decided to blog.
SAY YAY. :D

HAHAHAH.
so anyway this is going to be a rant-y post.
so if you don't like rants then you can leave now,
or if you hate lady gaga, and love taylor swift ttm,
you also can leave.

i'll give you 5 secs.
then i'll start the rant :P

5

4

3

2

1!

OKAY RANT START STAY AT YOUR OWN RISK.

so if you have watched Grammys 2010, you'll know that Taylor Swift won 4 grammys and Gaga has 2.

Taylor Swift:
2010 - Album of the Year, "Fearless"
2010 - Best Female Country Vocal Performance, "White Horse"
2010 - Best Country Song, "White Horse"
2010 - Best Country Album, "Fearless"

Lady Gaga:

2010 - Best Dance Recording for “Poker Face”
2010 - Best Electronic/Dance Album for The Fame

okay i'm sorry taylor, but i absolutely feel that album of the year should have gone to Gaga.
oh because, your songs are so damn overrated, no?

and may i ask what your songs are about?

oh yes guy meets girl, girl likes boy, boy likes another girl(girl2), and girl is sad.
and here comes a new taylor swift song!

what depth is there in this kinda songs?
yes the tune is catchy and undeniably your lyrics appeal to sad despo girls who are in need of boyfriends, and yes maybe some other girl who are in that guy meets girl, girl likes boy... etc. situation.

and i admit that i do like some of your songs,
and also that lady gaga's songs dont have much depth either.

but well at least she has VARIATION.
like 90% of taylor's songs are that situation, just in different songs, (see: you belong with me, teardrops on my guitar)
oh and how could i forget the last 10% is about princesses. (see: white horse)

yknw what i really wished to happen, i wished that kanye west would go up to the stage and tell her in her face that no she didnt deserve that award.

stupid kanye wrong award ceremony wrong person to stand up for!

but one thing that made me really really happy was this:

yes oh yes she dropped her grammy :D

I LIKE.

but sadly it wasn't the album of the year one):
oh who cares this is a sign that she doesnt deserve the awards. :D:D

and i'm sorry but i dont like her dress.
she never ever changes her style, does she?
always in a long, flowy gown.

well i'm sorry but people like the boomz and this is why gaga appeals to me with her outrageous dressing all the time. (even though i didnt really like her two-toned hair)

this is so damnning and a letdown to our 15 hour working days Gaga.

so much for looking forward to grammys 2010. ):
but grammys 2009 was awesome cause coldplay had a whopping SIX grammys:D
hopefully next year will be awesome.

/end.rant.

yes i know this rant is a bit late, but better late than never rightright! :D

anywayssss,
camp will pretty great! :D

HAHAHA had a real good bonding time with most of the sec2s,
playing black magic and all lol.

and yeah bonded with my squad too,
though in extraordinary means such as gossip HAHHAH.

oh my seniors are aweeesomeeee <3

ohoh talking about seniors,
so many seniors came back to help in night games i was like really really shocked!

there was like amelia, stacey, melissa, amanda ang/mak, petrina, esther seow.

and like tessa and i were just talking about them a few hours before games :O:O

but yeah night games were kinda funnn and my squad owned it :P
butbut amazing race was bleh):

firstly, i do not like parks):
secondly, the race was not even race-ish woth everyone strolling instead of running.
thirdly, THE FOOD STATION WAS SUPER GROSS WTH. we had to eat wasabi with crackers, cold mushy bittergourd, century egg(the best of all of them), raw onion and drink vinegar cidar :O

but after the amazing race was really bonding time,
HAHHAHA oh man sucks to be a teacher.

and my squad got free ice-cream from mrs tan :D
now i honestly think she's richhhh :O:O

and omg tanya c. has a pool filled with MINERAL WATER?!?!!?!?!??!?!

like how damn ex is that!
and her mum says it's good for health AHAHHA.

i want):

so yes i will look forward to annual camp for more bonding,
but i dont want corporals camp):):

and i should seriously start on my life science project instead of just opening more and more tabs about digeorge syndrome.

tata. [:

P.S. TAG AND RATE THE POSTTTTTT! :D

CHANGE-D?

2010-01-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

"So remember Your people
Remember Your children
Remember Your promise
Oh God"
©ChrisTomlin

took down some stuffz from my blog.
sigh this is why i really dont like blogging because people have so many problems with what i say and i get confronted day in day out.

but anyway it wasn't because of them,
it was more of my own conviction during service?

if it was just people i wouldn't have given a hoot.

so yeah i'm going to try and keep one of my new year's resolutions. :D
you'l probably figure out which one soon. :D

and service today was aweeeeezomeeee!

i dont know,
but the message was really relevant,

and worship was dah bomb.

i really like the songs, except for one.
consuming fire ftwwww <3

and the last song,
we serve a god of power,
we serve a god of might.
(etc,etc)

WAS THE BESTTTT.

the jumping was super high,
like never before.

it was like a concert high kinda thing,
but it's different cause it's all christian,
and you don't even feel tired! :D:D:D:D

/reality.check

school's been pretty hectic,
with new projects,
homework, etc.

plus deadlines are all over the place,
and class tests are getting the better of me.

i did kinda bad for the chem powerpoint we did as holiday homework last year,
and chinese class test, which was apparently easy to get full marks for, was kinda average only.
oh and my chinese compos have been so below standard.
oh and chinese oral was the worst got like 2nd lowest wth):

but overall i still have time for leisure and all as you can see me typing all these[:

okok even though i have time,
this is not the way to waste it lol.

so i'll blog again some time soon, when i have better blog ideas?!
heh :D

gnight!

MELANCHOLY IS INTERESTING;

2010-01-25T21:54:00.005+08:00

"How many promises be honest girl
How many tears you let hit the floor
How many bags you packed"
©JustinBieber

this is amazing, like for real.
ripped from lynette, but who cares,
beautiful things are to be shared.

it isn't really the photography that got to me,
it's the writeup.

Days With My Father

i hope you liked it.
just click every photo.

please, just take a look?

P.S. I feel so melancholic today. ): go see my tweets.

[Photo credits: Ocean_Lounge]

2010-01-22T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH CHAN!

YAY YOU ARE FINALLY FOURTEEN JIEJIE SARAH! :D hahah yes i will call you jiejie even though i'm older :P

but anyway thanks for being such a great friend and saving me when i need you, SOMETIMES ONLY.
andand thanks for lending me your jacket when i'm cold hahahha it smells of you okok!

and keep improving in your swimming and all the best for your complicated (love) life! :D
i am still jealous of your tan ):

but anyway!
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU. <3

(and happy lunchbox day. HAHHAA. )

FANTASIES ARE ESCAPES;

2010-01-21T19:07:00.004+08:00

"Throw it away
Forget yesterday"
©BoysLikeGirls

watched tooth fairy today after school[:
and yes in singapore it's out on 21st instead so yay :D

at first we wanted to watch alvin&the chipmunks 2/sherlock holmes,
but alvin&chipmunks stopped showing(!?!?!?) and sherlock holmes screening timing was no good, so yeah.

but it was really pretty funny!

but yeah it's kinda of the usual plotless comedy laaa!

ohohoh i <3 the electric guitar playing parts in the movie omgggg.
is damn awesome now i want to learn hahaha.

and the ending of movie was super funny!

"Do you blog?"
"yes i do!"
"oh i blog too!"
"omg i'll love to be a reader of your blog!"
"do you have facebook?"
"yes i do omgg! we can poke each other!"

HAHAHAHA.
obvs mine are not the exact, but it's smth along those lines.
is hilarious ttm!

so overall i wouldn't say it's a must watch, but not too bad.
3/5 stars?

/end.review

OMG WAS DAMN SICK YESTERDAY FKKK.

completely slept through recess and assembly in school :O

and i slept during LA presentations(sorry to those of you who presented! it wasnt that i wasnt interested, i was just really sick! :/ ). slept a little while mrs lim was doing chem.

i finally understand torpor. D:

it's like beyond sleepy.

when you're sleepy, you still can control your eyelids from closing.
what i felt yesterday, was that you need like all your energy to stop your eyes from closing,
and no it doesnt work all the time.

but like the medicine made me feel better x18379648 super happy today lol.

and my nat ho calendar came yesterday YAY!!!!! :D

it's really niceeee even bern agrees he looks cute/hot inside!

except for one of the months where he acted like some batman thing.
that one was grosssssss ):
i dont like the april clown one as well.

but the January one was awesome so yay he must love meeeeeeeeee.
HAHHAHAHAHA.
and bern was happy also 'cause the july one was nice toooo :D

yay i finally have a nat ho supporter! :D

HAHAH OMG.
my mum was all, " YOU WASTED MY MONEY EHHHH!" when she saw the nat ho calendar HAHAHA.

because i told her i wanted to buy a calendar,
but i never told her it was a NAT HO calendar?

hehhhh. :P
but anyway she probably alr knows i'm a nutcase and didnt bother too much after that.

ahhh okay need to go do art write-up!
):

2010-01-20T21:16:00.004+08:00

When the future's architectured
©Coldplay

this is one inspiring post i've read in ages.
brings us back to the cruel reality of life and death i fear and i believe most people fear.

but when the pain hurts so bad, death seems like freedom.

Time- What's It To Us?

FOURTEEN):

2010-01-18T21:04:00.008+08:00

"Time flies when you're having fun
You wake up, another year has gone"
©TheClickFive

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEE!

HAHAH OMFG THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL YOUR GIFTS, WISHES AND EVEN SURPRISES! YOU GUYS REALLY MADE THIS BIRTHDAY AWESOME! ♥

but i'm kinda sad no one sms-ed me a birthday message at 12 am.
i mean, i know it's a school day the next day, but. ):

ah well but i prolly have fb wall posts/tweets at 12 am! :D
just that i cant be bothered to check heh.

and omggg audrey,karrie and qian ying completely surprised me laaaa!
they are pure awesomeness omggg.

i was just walking out of school,
and then when i got into my mum's car they were like behind!

HAHAH.
and then yeah we went to IMM to eat at ajisen, and shop a little.
(the chicken caused to have a sore throat ugh! ):< ) and there weiwei&jiawen surprised me again! HAHAHHA. but it was damn funny jw surprised the wrong person :P and qianying got like a major huge shock lol. but yeah thank you guyssss it's really nice to know how they really travelled all the way to MG, which is kind hard to find since we're on a hill. and audrey & qy took 2hours to get home OMGGG. sorry guys but i loveeeee youuuuu! :D today they had a day off from school cause ij toa payoh did well for o levels, and it's reallu greta to know how they would spend their rare break to celebrate my birthday! :D because well i wouldn't. i would stay at home and do my stuff and really take a break. gahhh i can say one million i love yous to them.

and yes thanks for the awesome presents that i received today as well! :D

sarah owes me my non-manly wallet!
HAHAH she is cute manz. refuses to give me my present until she wraps it.
it's like the total opposite of me 'cause i will try as much as possible not to wrap a present heh.

and thanks vicky and natalie for the headband!
omg it's really ex but thanks a lot guyyzzzz!
i still need to figure out how to wear it tho HAHAHAHA.

and thanks to jan also for the bottle and message in a bottle HAHAH! <3 style="font-weight: bold;">you should :P
i give you ideas okok.
(but srlsy if you want to get me any of these plz tell me first? someone might be alr getting me the item. HAHAHA i feel like i'm thinking too wishfully :P)

seventeen mag subscription
tote bag
The Fame Monster cd /Alvin&The Chipmunks soundtrack (HAHAHHA)
Goggles (lol yes i know)
birthday card (this one no need to ask :P)
laptop skin
backpack/haversack
audio-technica headphones(big white ones thnks :P)
cash :D
Guiness World record book

haha that's it for nowwww. :D
if i get everything there i will be very happy thooo.

so yeah 1hour+ more till the end of my birthday):
BUT AH WELL IT WAS GREAT! :D

so yup thanks AGAIN, and gnight! :D:D

[Photo credits: Stockers]

I FAIL MANZ;

2010-01-17T21:53:00.003+08:00

HAHAHHAHA.
I FAIL AT HOOKING UP WITH GIRLS LA.

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:45:12 PM)
i is trying to strike a convo with you

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:46:02 PM)
lol

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:46:03 PM)
fail

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:46:20 PM)
):

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:46:24 PM)
tell me what turns you on

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:46:27 PM)
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:46:27 PM)
o_O

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:46:30 PM)
HAHAHAHAHA

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:46:30 PM)
WTF

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:46:38 PM)
so i can strike a convo with you

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:47:48 PM)
i feel so violated now

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:47:52 PM)
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:48:06 PM)
TELL ME!

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:49:15 PM)
and tell me what will make you give me your number

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:49:16 PM)
HAHHAHA

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:49:24 PM)
i fail at wooing a girl manz

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:49:32 PM)
hahahahaha

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:49:34 PM)
you can never be les

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:49:39 PM)
all the girls will run away

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:49:44 PM)
HAHAHHAHAA

tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:50:05 PM)
SERIOUSLY!

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:50:19 PM)
not that i even want to court then

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:50:22 PM)
them*

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:50:25 PM)
you're the exception

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:50:28 PM)
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:51:13 PM)
LOLWUT

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:51:24 PM)
dont you get the hint

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:51:35 PM)
im hoping not

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:52:12 PM)
awww

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:52:16 PM)
must i say it

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:53:17 PM)
you hurt me

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:54:12 PM)
hahahahaha

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:54:15 PM)
i reject youuuuuuu

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:14 PM)
):

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:19 PM)
*WAILS*

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:31 PM)
DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:34 PM)
WHO IS HE

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:37 PM)
WHAT'S HIS NAME

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:40 PM)
WHERE DOES HE LIVE

ShimBereniceHo[: says: (9:55:44 PM)
HOW OLD IS HE

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:56:31 PM)
hahahahaah

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:56:34 PM)
noooooo

( tessa ) ▲ we call her jaymamazing <3 says: (9:56:45 PM)
i just am not interested

HAHAHHAA.
SIGHZ I WILL STICK TO BEING STRAIGHT.

DAMN YOUUU;

2010-01-17T10:52:00.003+08:00

BLOODY PICTURE ON TOP IS SCRWED STUPID PHOTOBUCKET HATE YAAAAAAA. ):
I AM JUST WAITING FOR IT TO COME BACK SO PLZ FORGIVE THE UGLY SKIN):

NO ONE SHOULD BE MORE SAD AND ANGRY THAN I AM.
(YES THIS IS ADAPTED FROM CB)

NOSTALGIA KICKS;

2010-01-15T20:16:00.005+08:00

"You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely"
©MariahCarey

sent my c905 for servicing today at jurong point after school.
and yeah the queue was ZERO people.

my mum was complaining that she didnt want to go and repair my phone cause she said she didnt want to wait 2 hours.

and today i was like, yeah right TWO HOURS.

it was like 15 mins pus speaking to the person?!?!

but after i handed over my phone to the person, i was really sad.

not just sad.
it's a feeling where you feel sad, but it doesnt really hurt until awhile later, and you cant stop thinking about what you just did.

when the lady at the counter tod me that all data would be lost, my heart literally sank.
i wasnt even angry.

i really didnt know what to say.
i had to repair that phone because i did love it so much,
but knowing that everything would be lost in the process?

not so pleasant.

racing through my mind now,
are those text messages that once made me smile,
that once made me laugh,
that once made me grin so wide,
those that i will reread again and again until i can memorise it.

just the thought of it just being gone like that,
makes me shudder.

and as i made my way home,
the nostalgia of losing everything i once had and no longer have kicked in so badly.

):

i dont want it back anymore.
it fking hurts to know it's all gone.

and yes the fking contacts are gone too which yes i cherish as well.

i hope you can imagine the pain i am going through.
yes you might think i am being childish.
yes you say wtf is is wrong with me isnt it just messages?

yes it is just messages.
but i treasure them no?

and what i really really want back is the contacts.
because i like seeing the names of people i no longer contact there, because i feel that if i really want to, i can always contact them.

so yes i am going to pray hard that the contacts remain,
and i will willingly sacrifice the messages for them.

P.S. YES I AM VERY LAME FEELING SAD OVER CONTACTS DONT LIKE ME AND MY IDIOTIC THOUGHTS THEN JUST GET THE EFF OUT OF HERE LA.

[Photo credits(for previous and current post): Stock Icons LJ <3 ]

BREAK OUT;

2010-01-14T20:42:00.006+08:00

"Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle"
©VariousArtists

HEYHEYHEY!:D
was kinda busyyy this week hmm.
but yeah free now ( with the exception of la journal entry 2 which i'm still clueless about).

HOWHOWHOW.
i've been like writing everywhere(school diary, twitter) that i should and am going to do LA journal entry 2, but all i end up doing is like one sentence wtfff. ):

but anyway.
teeth are very screwed):
pain pain pain.
plus the alignment is damn off now ugh! ):

tried eating jackfruit today but teeth hurt like crazy grrr >:(

okay but it's really getting better!
and i'm eating cheese fries nowww :P
jealoussss?
it's aweeeesomeeee.

HAHAHA so anyway i should reaallyyy get to the main point of the post right?

so today we had ISO for the first time, and miss ng explained the choices we had etc.

actually since last year, we alr knew the choices we had and my "clique" people all opted for IvP other than jan, who did life science.

so well yes obvsly i was kinda left out, and i was seriously considering whether i should just join IvP with them so i wont be so loner rightttt?

but i knew that i really didnt like IvP and i think FPSP(future problem solving) was kinda cool.
so last year i just brushed it off while they submitted their names to mr soo.

but today was really well, choosing finally?
and yes i opted for FPSP.

it kinda feels good when you know you're going for smth you really want,
and not just going for smth because everyone else is going?

but at the same time i'm really worried cause i dont really know anyone who's doing FPSP really well.

but i guess it's time to really break out of this comfort zone right?
and i could really get to know more of my classmates better:D

yes and here it ends,
because i want to go watch 'together'.
HAHAHAH. :D

it's awesome cause now nat appears! :P
but he's got a really horrible name -- Louis -.-

okok gtg tessa is spaming meeeee.

HAHAHA she's my chinese drama watching partner. :P

P.S. Rate the posts? Thanks, love[:

STRABERRIES ARE A NOT-SO-PERFECT FIT;

2010-01-09T13:08:00.008+08:00

"could use a little excitement"
©Quinzedene

yes this is the camerons post.
like finally yes i know lol.

i guess i put off blogging this for so long, is because i didnt feel ( i keep typing feel as fell) a passion for this entry.

it's like i didnt really want to blog this so much.
yes you need some kind of passion for blogging.

and i knew this blog really needed some passion cause it would really be a long post.

so i kinda waited, and nope no passion.

so this post wont be a really good one, no pictures, just words.

and i will just blog the rant. yes sorry.):

so i was actually really excited for this camerons trip cause i've never been there, and people like limmin keep telling me how awesome it really is, etc.

so i was like, omg yay time to really relax all over again (like tioman) and just go out sightseeing if i felt like it.

plus i was majorly excited for canyoneering/water rafting (cause i've never done that and water sports excite me).

so went there, happy and all[:

but yes on the first day i was pissed x 3427938 already.

so there was some local tour on the first day, and karrie and I didnt really want to go, so we stayed back. and we were the only ones who didnt go.

so when we went to meet up with the rest at the pasar malam at night, they were all, "oh hey there they are!", "why you guys never go?", etc.

it made me felt soguilty, even though pastor sam had clearly stated that WE WEREN'T PROGRAM BOUND AND WE HAD A FREEDOM OF CHOICE.

how great, no?

which is why i dont know why i felt guilty when i had not one reason to.

and yes i decided to sign up for so much more activities later on cause i felt so bound.
wtf x 280 iknw.

and major highlight: canyoneering/water rafting was cancelled. my life was only pure awesome.

and the food there sucked BIG TIME. like they auto put chilli into EVERYTHING unless you ask them not to.
(yes i cannot take spicy food shuddup)

):

and most of the girls were anyway.

OH YES talking about girls,
THE DORM IS DAMN ANNOYING & GROSS.

firstly, we had 16 people in the dorm.

so there's no way you can stay up late because they are all angels and must sleep at the lights out/grace-period over time.

and like karrie, lim min and i werent even talking, just talking thru sms, and they insist we go sleep.

and they wake up like 1.5/2 hours before the stipulated meeting time for activities tmr.

TELL ME HOW THE HELL DO I GET THE SLEEP I WANT.

and yes la stop boasting about how rafflesia is damn big, so fun and nice and all.
AGRO tour was fun also can!

if you want to boast, i will win you hands down anytime. ( and this is boasting already fyi)

you've been to camerons?
i've been to fking japan.

you slided into mud?
i slided into natural SNOW.

you want to compete?

when they were fking boasting about rafflesia i was really damn pissed.
i felt like saying all that above to them.
just that well i decided to let them boost their ego because they need that boost.

i dont care how many church people are reading this, but this is the truth.
yes i still really love church people and they are still awesome, but this is how they can be.

and i'm not saying i'm not one of them, i could write an even longer post on myself being bitchy, but i'm very sure they are part of the reason why i've become like this.

/end.rant.

okay go on to happier stuff i will not rant anymore.

PREPAID CARDS ARE AWESOME.
like seriously.

malaysia ones only :P
it was like RM0.01 for a sms!

and RM0.10 for an overseas call?!!?!?!!?!?!!

omfg.
yes i will never stop raving about their prepaid cards.

i want a dual sim card phone now.

but anyway, back to the point,
as i stated, camerons post was pretty neutral overall.
tioman was def. better tho[:

getting the rant out makes me feel so much better :P

P.S. i heart that picture on top. love the colour scheme :P

JAN IS THE BIRTH MONTH FOR JAN;

2010-01-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

"We're gonna have a good time I'm glad it's your birthday Happy birthday to you"
©TheBeatles

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNNN! :D

<3 youuuu [:
haha so you're my table partner for at least this term huh?
dont be annoying okok!

HAHA jokingggg.
you're really nice to be with and i am seriously hoping you like your present!
cause i really really didnt know what to get you sorryayyeeee.

enjoy enjoy enjoy your 小龙包 and your birthday! :D

ILY! (:

P.S. I have no idea what colour you like so i just gave you green :P

:D

2010-01-04T15:06:00.010+08:00

"I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me"
©LadyGaga

YAY YAY YAY OMFG IS HAPPY OVER THE MOON.

I HAVE LIKE THIS PICTURE OF

NAT HO

(he looks ugly there tho :/)

AND HE WROTE STUFF TO

ME BEHIND :O

like exclamation marks x436983.

HEART HIM ALL OVER AGAIN :P

I will TRY to be good and study hard[:

P.S. Nat Ho used that smiley picture on his blog :P

SMALL FEET IS <3;

2010-01-03T14:37:00.006+08:00

"You're so fine,
I want you mine,
you're so delicious"
©AvrilLavigne

grr fingers hurt from guitar):
but anyways finally got a tuner so i am happy! :D

and have been bugged the whole day to clear my books am bloody irritated with my grandma.

@#^&*!@

BUT ANYWAY!
THIS IS MAH NEW LOVEEE. :P
he is cute ttc. :D

CHOIKANG CHANGMIN! :D:D:D

love his feet is damn small 23.5 cm okok! (:
totally fell in love with him when i watched dangerous love/unforgettable love.

P.S. yes i will blog the camerons post soon. :/

2010;

2010-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

"So this is the new year
And i don't feel any different"
©DeathCabForCutie

HAPPY NEW YEAR! [:

BYE 2009 & HELLO 2010!

and it's on to sec2, for me!

i can't tell if i'm happy or not.
i'm happy because well, it's kinda streaming year and i'm excited for these kinda stuff.
dont judge me.

and i kinda get a new start?
well not really.
just a new start for me to prove myself in studies all over again.

i'm not happy also because it's streaming year, and what if i do real badly?

and it also really means i get older.

i am pretty scared of this whole getting old thing.
once again, dont judge me.

yes i am sorry for that spoiler lyrics,
but honestly, how different do you feel?

doesnt it just feel like another day, another month and ANOTHER YEAR?

well at least it does to me.

but eventually i find myself loving the year i'm in and holding on to it as tight as i can.
and as i watch it pass i can do nothing.

it makes me feel helpless that i cannot do anything to hold on to what i want and love, and i can only watch it pass and watch myself sink once again into longing and hurt.

every year i find myself looking back into the previous year, wishing that history would repeat itself.

and i like to bring myself back to the past sometime, just lying in that memory.
it's like a beautiful dream you want in reality, but you cant, so you just keep trying to dream that dream.

yet when i think back on the past, what pastor sam says about looking into the future and not into the past always comes to my mind.

but is it honestly wrong to think back?
because what if i said i see nothing in the future?

because as the choices become more and more varied,
i feel the tear in my eye becoming heavier.
i feel that hurt in my heart increasing.
i feel the confusion in my mind twirling.

/end.rant.

okay i know that end was abrupt.
but the thought just kinda stopped there, and i figured since it was New Years, i didnt want to be emo. :P

so i guess i'l write some new year resolutions down?
and yes, try to keep it.

New Year Resolutions

1.Lose Weight. (yes oh yes i am very fat. deal with it i need to be less than 50kg i dont care)
2.Read some classics (e.g. Oliver Twist -.-)
3.Learn Photoshop(ugh what the bloody i had PS for like so long and i am still a noob at it)
4.Buy more nail polish :P
5.Get a nice tan
6.Be less vulgar(i will try okayyyy)
7.Increase blog stats (i dont even know how)
8.Read the Bible more
9.Get nicer clothes
10.Not get any Cs for exams(overall)
11.Be less bitchy and judgmental
12.Buy more birthday presents for people(sorry guys i always forget to buy): )
13.Travel out of Asia(not that i havent been out of asia)
14.Get a new hairstyle(i really hate my current one but i cant think of any nicer one ugh!)
15.Increase my vocab(yes nerd iknw)
16.Grow taller(God pleaseeeee)
17.Be neater
18.Watch Glee
19.Spend more time in church

for now that's it :P
any more will be added in my mind!
lol.

so i guess this is it,
and i hope you guys enjoy your new year, wherever you are!

ily[:

BLOGGER BLOCK:

2009-12-31T15:41:00.005+08:00

"I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around"
©AdamLambert

someone convince me to watch Glee?
i heard it's really good,
but i just need to be convinced.
push me a little.

yes i know i should blog about my camerons trip. but i'll do that next year.
(i like using next year to make things sound really far away, when it really isnt)

but in conclusion, it was honestly worse than i thought.
so much for tioman being pretty bad already.

but yes there was a tinge of longing to be back there when i was on my way back to singapore.

and honestly,
i couldnt feel any sense of relaxation there.

it felt so program-ish and i felt so judged?
like every move had to be thought clearly or you're going to lose kinda thing?
will elaborate on that in a proper camerons post.

and i'm sorry i didnt have a proper christmas post as well, cause I was in camerons?
but i'll try to have a proper New Year one[:

i am off to work on it now. :D

P.S. I feel sadz. I have no program today and it's like NYE! ): ): i wish church had watchnight service.