haven't been here forever!

LOL can't believe this blog is still my FF homepage tho.

Guess it's a part of life I don't really want to let go of?

Anyway I'm coming back here because I kinda screwed up the timings for something , so we're just waiting around and yeah.

I feel horrible today. Simply put.

It's CNY and everyone's going around visiting while I just stayed at home reading fics and doing things I regret, again.

Anyway you know how they say women always rake up the past in arguments?

I have to agree lol. Well, it's just that when I'm angry/upset w someone I tend to remember and bring up all they did in the past, in my head of course.

I've learnt to keep quiet in an argument now, doesn't make much difference whether I argue or not.

Especially when it comes down to family. I've long given up on trying to defend myself with any of them.

I know people love their family and all, and sometimes I do, but most of the time I wish I was grown up and could leave them.

Rewatched I Not Stupid Today and one of the boys described home as a place only to sleep. It's pretty true for me.

I dunno, I don't talk to anyone when I'm home, I just stay in my room and do my stuff, greet my mum when she comes home.

tbh I don't recall ever having a family dinner other than on special occasions. Everyone just eats at their own time, whenever they want.

I usually take my food and retreat to my room and eat in front of the tv and computer.

Guess it's good we don't have family dinners anyway, it would be awkward.

Like how it always is when I'm out having meals w my mum.

Sometimes I try to make conversation, other times I dont. It really feels like I'm the one trying most of the time.

le sigh this has been a family rant. I don't feel pathetic or anything just because I don't have a complete family, and I hate to self-pity.

But sometimes I do mope around about it. Yeah pathetic, I know.

I wish i didn't care as much, but I think such things always remain with you, and they surface from time to time.

on a completely unrelated note, is it weird I like to read stories with angst (fighting, arguments, pining) but with a happy ending?

I dunno I like the heart wrenching stuff, provided it's a good ending.

I'm probably secretly sadistic lol.

I wonder if anyone irl will read this, considering how long I've abandoned this.

It's a good thing I guess, then no one will read this? ^^

anyway I hope this doesn't get me into any trouble because the last time I posted a family rant my mum's friend read it and told her about it.

Didn't go down very well.

"A thousand more regrets unraveling, oh
If you were here right now I'd tell you this"
©BackstreetBoys

you know how sometimes you meet people you instantly click with?
that feeling is wonderful.

in your mind it's just, why did i not know you earlier?!
where have you been all my life.

and you talk about, just anything under the sun.
you feel comfortable talking about anything, really.

of course you started with one common topic, and you still bring it up from time to time.
but it's different when you dont just talk about one topic.

and the most irrelevant things in your life could happen, but you're just like hey he/she would be interested to know! i would tell the person when i talk to him/her again!

and then the world seems perfect.

but the faster the progress is, the faster the decline is.
always, happens.
reminds me of flowers for algernon actually (pretty amazing story).

and all of a sudden, i dont know how it happens.
you guys stop talking.

idk but for me it's not that i want to stop talking, it's just like. we depleted all the topics.
what a contrast to before.

sigh third or fourth time this is happening.
guess i saw it coming but.

alright rant over need to get back to studying/homework T.T

what a wasted weekend, really.

Labels: emo time will be emo time, reality check, someone save me, what can't you already tell my life is just about school

"Maybe it's wishful thinking,
probably mindless dreaming"
©TaylorSwift

"If there were 1000 steps between you and Him,
He has already taken 999 steps."

so amazing, so wonderful, so magnificent.

but too much for me.
that ONE step, seems so huge, so distant, so uncertain.

"Hurry up and wait so close but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste but you just can't touch"
©LeonaLewis

okay i know i havent been here in like 2 months...

but that's because my life has been just mundane. idk just school and more school?
anyway for more updates you should really just follow my twitter because i go crazy there.

so updating because.. i'm bored and i felt like typing something!
yes i dont actually have a life..

anyway it's currently the holidays (tho ending ;~;) and as much as homework has overtaken my life, i must say it was a pretty good week.

pretty crazy week as well.
i had very good laughs and at the same time very stupid tears.
but let's just say it came as a package. i wouldn't have gotten to laugh if i didn't cry.

and don't people always say, that you only understand what's happiness and joy because of pain and sadness :)

i say, it's true.
you learn to treasure the joy so much more because well, it could always be worse.

one thing i have to say though, is the past 2 weeks have been blasted :D
the week before this was officially the best of my year so far (excluding the implications of homework that came with it).

so i was away for this thing called the model ASEAN summit, something like model united nations i guess, just on a smaller scale, and i suppose not as competitive.

because i hear at MUNs, schools just aim to wipe out the awards.
well okay maybe it's the competitiveness that makes it fun for some, i dont know, but i like it because it was just nice and slow. (contrary to school of course)

and i had a lot of fun, even though i didnt win anything (but why would i be expecting to in the first place) and it was a great experience.

i guess the people made it a lot better too - thank you to the 7 other MG girls who went and are now suffering from the after effects as well, and everyone else i met that made the whole event so fun and just, memorable.

and apart from that what made the week even more perfect was the fact i got into Eastern Europe for ROCs 3 :)

honestly, i cannot even imagine myself anywhere else, taking pictures or learning.
let's just say the EE trip is freaking perfect to me, as much as people slam it.

but i feel bad. when i hear about people crying that they didnt get EE or whatever choice they wanted. i know i don't have to feel bad because i wasn't the one who allocated it but.. and when i hear about people getting EE and they complain they dont want it.. there you go. you crossed the line.

okay sure if you don't want it, give it up then, to someone else who wants it.
okay sure if you don't want it, just tell a few people or keep it to yourself. not spread it on social networking sites and wonder why you get hate.

you need to get some brains.

and the last thing that really made that week so perfect, winning a silver for drill comp.
okay i definitely was aiming for a gold/challenge shield, but we made so many last minute changes to our final routine and on the day itself we really screwed up so the silver is a pure miracle.

besides, there were only two golds so i am happy, enough.

yesterday my contingent had a BBQ at my commander's condo and it was awesome :)
not like the high, crazy awesome but just the nice, get-together, slack around, play awesome.

i was really glad most of the contingent turned up because i really got to talk to some people a lot more and it is a nice way to end our time as a contingent i guess.

so yep two more days before school starts again, and everything will seem so foreign.
because thanks to MAS i have been waking up later than usual, taking the bus past the usual school bus stop, getting weird stares, wearing the blazer and now it's back to reality!

i really dont want to go back to school because this whole week i have been slacking around (read: pointless 3am nights) and all my work is of quality i can't even defend.

example i had to write the commonwealth essay for english and it was complete utter nonsense. i know i've said this a million times but honestly, i am not interested in feminism. i guess my only defense is i tried to work on it, as much as i could. my teacher replied me basically saying it was complete crap, just in a much more refined and polite manner i guess.

lol enough of rants. i have been ranting a lot this week, and to the weirdest people i must say. like people i don't actually know that well and who hardly even know what i am talking about.

but then i say, that people you hardly know/aren't gonna talk to again are the best to talk to.
because they can't pre-judge you, and you know that when you tell them anything, it's just buried with them.

pretty great march holidays and i know i will miss it when it ends. no more pointless staying up, no more twitter wars, no more time for juvenile arguments.

that's it, back to reality and i enjoyed this dream.
it was perfect in so many ways, but all good things come to an end.

and this term, i want to try harder. put in more effort and study harder, and stop dreaming.

P.S. you should treasure this post because the next one might just be 2 months from now.

Labels: emo time will be emo time, love is in the air, memories, reality check, someone save me, what can't you already tell my life is just about school

"You're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no"
©KatyPerry

HAI.

YOU SHOULD IGNORE THE POST BEFORE THIS.

no like seriously lol. i'm really starting to regret posting that because now it all seems a tad stupid. i really should have waited till the feeling blowed over - which didn't take long, probably one night?

lol sleep does wonders.

anyway yes btw when i posted that i was suffering from PMS so you shouldn't take that too heart. i wanted to delete that but like i spent so much time typing it it would have been such a waste, and people have alr read it so..

sigh one more embarrassing thing to add to the collection.

Labels: dilemma, emo time will be emo time, memories, poof and gone, reality check

"I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain"
©BrunoMars

sigh idk how long it has been since i blogged a ~emo~ post, but today i feel like it. i mean, i do feel like posting a more personal/feelings kind of post once in a while, but most of the time i just tweet it/get over the feeling so i don't bother to.

but today i guess it's different. like, idk i don't exactly want to say it because it feels kind of stupid, but i kind of do too, like just to get things off.

so yeah i guess school has been okay, things are not too complex yet, still pretty normal for now... considering the seniors made sec 3 seem so busy. but i guess the work will kick in soon.

but i keep feeling sec 3 is like a repeat of sec one.. like i still remember the day i walked into school and looked at the class lists for the first time and realised i was practically separated from all my good friends.

yeah i'm kind of feeling the same thing now, but i'm really trying to be optimistic about this whole situation, because i still have some good friends in my class and i know my sec1 class eventually turned out pretty well, so i'm just hoping it will turn out the same way.

but idk maybe it's because my sec1 class turned out so much better than i expected that i'm really impatient for everything to be better. it's like i know things are gonna be better but it's just not happening fast enough.

sigh yeah and i kind of miss my friends in the other class. i mean, idk if they're enjoying themselves in their new class and all, so i can't say anything about them. but i talked to one of my friends today and she's a little worried about smth in a new class.

i kind of wished i could have said smth to comfort/help her then but i really didn't know what to say. i mean, i don't think i'm the kind that provides great advice/comfort but i'll just like to be there and tell her she didn't have to care about what people thought.

anyway really miss most of them ):

and the past two days i have been really tired. it's not really school work, it's more about how everything has become so mundane and meaningless. honestly, what i have been living on recently is fanfics.

okay very stupid i know. but it's what makes me happy.
yes i know the stories aren't true, and it won't ever be true, but i just like imagining it is true.

it's really retarded i know, but it's like they're keeping me emotionally alive. it's like i really can't be bothered to think/feel anything but it's really the stories that make me giggle at the cute characters/events and make me tear when any of the characters feel broken.

so yeah the fic i'm reading recently basically involves these two best friends who are super sweet to each other and they are so cute tgt.

but sigh as i read it really just makes me think if i could find a friend like that. i mean yes i know it's a story and all, but i like to believe it can be real.

i once heard my pastor say, there's no such thing as BFFs. i never had one, and admittedly i always wanted one. it's nice to know (even if it might just be in name) that you can sort of call someone a best friend.

okay i really dk why i am going into this but yeah. (i wasn't intending to but i'm just typing as i think. this post isn't meant to be coherent.)

so yeah i mean i pretty much trust what my pastors say, and when he said it, it kind of just hurt me, a little. i mean i never really thought about it much but it resurfaced again when i was typing this.

and well i guess true enough, i've seen some best friends come to drift apart, and i do find it a pity. but i guess it really isn't up to me to try and understand, it's not my relationship after all.

& i'm really tired now. like mentally. idk there's a lot of things left to be done in school - upcoming tests, homework which i can't do and feel horrid about, and project groups which haven't been decided on.

like i'm not even really hyped about the project, because i would like to stick to the traditional boring stuff sometimes, and research+presentation isn't really my thing occasionally too. sigh idk i've been praying the project will eventually turn out good, and i'm seriously hoping it will.

anyway but today had it's fun parts too!

like i had PE with another class and we did a floorball module, which was pretty fun lol. i guess cause i like floorball and lol the girls from the other class are really friendly and they make the most lame but ROFL jokes so i was probably too busy laughing than playing.

excited to play with them again next week (:

and i had drill practice today, which surprisingly turned out to be pretty fun! we had quite a few breaks so we just sat down and talked and bonded (:

and lol even during prac itself it was uber fun cause we just kept laughing and our dear commander who was supposed to keep us serious & focused was laughing most of the time herself sigh.

hehe but i really enjoyed it and lol i think i was being completely nonsensical, cracking lame jokes and flinging my arms around :P

lol i can't believe i'm saying this, but GB has come to be an important part of my life. like, i actually look forward to GB meetings nowadays because i'm glad to see the people there once again and talk to them (:

i finally understand why people always say GB is like a big family. it really is actually. it's like in GB i can really just talk to almost anyone and say what's on my mind.

i'm so glad i didn't quit it, honestly. i don't know where i'd be without it. as much as i hated it in pri school/sec 1 i have really come to love it and, i guess i would be pretty sad when i leave GB next year.

plus i think in GB i have made some of the most awesome friends, as much as i hate to admit it cause they're all egomaniacs! :P

so yes, for now i'll go back to immersing myself in the fics and blocking out my school work. i will regret, but for now i really can't bring myself to do any.

Labels: dilemma, emo time will be emo time, homework, rant, reality check, someone save me, what can't you already tell my life is just about school

"Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in"
©KatyPerry

well hello this is my first post of the year :D
yeah i know it's a little late but i've been busy, and school started yesterday!

sigh honestly time passed so fast. i still remember the time just before the nov/dec holidays started and i was still planning what i wanted to do during the hols and all... and lol i dont think i accomplished much i set out to do :P

but still it was pretty fun, even though i didn't travel much ):

speaking of travelling, i reaaaaaallyyyyy want to go to germany ): my mum is def. not keen on going there, she's keen on like korea~. i mean korea's fun too but i way prefer germany (yes i'm biased).

and i might get to go this year, on a school trip, though it's more of like a learning journey where we have to do work and all (sigh.). and it's like a eastern europe trip (not just a germany trip) so i think they'll only visit berlin (!!!) for like, a day or two at the most? ):

but, i'll rather have been there for a day than have never gone there :D

lol okay i shouldn't get my hopes too high, they might not be having the europe trip lol. but they usually do :)

so yeah school! first day was pretty okay, a lot of talks blahblah. today we had some lessons and met more of our subject teachers. i like our physics teacher 'cause he has a sense of humour (is it a physics thing?) - "physics was my first love. not my wife, but don't tell her that... i don't know when it (falling in love with physics) started, but i grew to love it." LOL he can really make physics sound like a girl.

anyway my chem teacher seems pretty nice too, so i'm only dissatisfied with my e math, eng & lit teacher. okay maybe i'm slightly biased now cause my e math teacher sort of scolded me for yawning in his class (what on earth honestly, it was at the end of the lesson alr).

but anyway apart from that he's pretty okay i guess. my english teacher seems horrendously fierce & apparently my lit teacher is horrible.

and now i'm looking forward to all chinese lessons cause i got my previous chinese teacher and i love herrrrr <3

so yep i guess that's it for now, and i'll try to update if i can, but it might be hard considering i can feel work/responsibilities coming in ):

hope you all have a great new year!

Labels: homework, rant, reality check, someone save me, what can't you already tell my life is just about school

"Rudolph with your nose so bright,
Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"

ho ho ho...

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

wow okay. i hope everyone's enjoying/enjoyed their christmas (depends on when you read this) & is not like me, sitting here typing away! ):

HAHA. nahh i quite enjoyed my christmas in kukup! oh yes, i went to kukup from 24th to 25th dec! :D

well it was like a trip with a few families combined, and we went off to kukup in malaysia for 2 days! we stayed in a kelong, which is like houses on stilts cause the houses are built on muddy area/near the shore!

okay admittedly i wasn't too pleased with the accomodation at first, cause for our xmas trip last year we went to a really nice resort with huge rooms and all!

but after awhile it wasn't too bad! afterall, the company was more important and i really had fun with the people i went with :D

okay before i continue, just a few pics of where we stayed! (when we first got there the fishy smell was SOOOOOO strong i thought i was in a fish market/farm)


that's the kelong next to ours.. there were a lot of people renting the kelongs in that area for xmas!


and this is our balcony/viewing deck! idk what to call it, but you get the meaning :)

we had a BBQ dinner there, then we played games like taboo & hearts! oh but the best part was, we set off fire crackers & fireworks from that deck ;)

idk if it's illegal in malaysia, but i know it's illegal in SG, so it was quite an eyeopener! the firecrackers and fireworks were reaaaaalllyyyy loud though. some of my friends set off the smaller fireworks but it looked so scary i didn't try!

and we set off like super many? lol so maybe fireworks aren't that expensive after all... cause i know there was one time they set off like 50 at one go (but that was a bad idea cause some of it exploded on the spot instead of shooting up into the sky before exploding, and some of the sparks hurt the people who were standing near)?

anyway pictures so yknw i'm not lying! (btw no photoshop at all okay. all i did was the enhance button on my iPhoto!)

idc what you think, but i think my camera (sony cybershot) did a pretty good job of capturing the fireworks! i mean, for a digital camera i think it's excellent.

(sidetrack: i want a DSLR [nikon or canon whatever idc skills are still more important] but it's ex, and... i'm not into all the aperture, metering, etc photog. stuff. oh and a lot of people in my church have/want it so i don't really want it anymore. it's like quite overrated there and getting it would just make me seem like a wannabe or smth since i'm not even "into photog.". so... yeah.)

and i didn't get a lot of pictures of the fireworks 'cause to capture the fireworks i had to use the fireworks mode on my camera and it takes like 7 secs to capture & process one photo ):

so yep setting off the fireworks was pretty fun, but after awhile it got annoying cause we were trying to play taboo outside but they kept setting off the fireworks so we had to pause.. and when some of the fireworks exploded on the spot (i'm glad i was taking pics so i wasn't near the spot where it exploded) some people got really pissed off.

and for xmas gift exchange, i got a photo frame! okay yes i know, photo frame sounds stupid & bring & dull. but nooooo. i absolutely love the photo frame! i don't have a pic, but i think it's really pretty and was one of the best presents that was there!

& as i have tweeted, idk why some people have a problem when others give them photo frames for presents! i mean, it's useful right? not like, sweets where you eat and it's gone. okay unless you absolutely love sweets/a certain brand of sweets then it's a different story.

but yeah i mean some photo frames are really pretty (like the one i got :P) so i think it's their own loss when people reject photo frames. and as i have said on twitter, people who keep complaining about their xmas gift exchange presents don't deserve a present.

i mean, it's more about giving than receiving right? personally i find the smile on the face of the person who receives my present more satisfying than getting a good xmas present. :D

HAHA so yep, i hope all of you got what you wanted for christmas, be it some technology gadget or games or just like a wish for peace :)

merry christmas once again, and i'm excited for the new year! :D

P.S. If you haven't got me a christmas present, you should! I want die mannschaft merchandise :P (yes i still haven't gotten the jersey ;~;)

P.P.S. sorry for incoherence/abrupt endings or change of topic in recent posts. i just have like. a mental block so i change the topic lol. ah well this is not english class anyway!!!

Labels: die mannschaft, i need a VIP pass to die mannschaft, jingle bells jingle bells..., memories, outings, PRESENTS[:, rant, reality check

"You had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around"
©DanielPowter

alrighty everybuddy, just a short post since i'm insanely bored!

okay of course i have things to do (as usual - homework) but i'm too lazy. :P

anyway so i've been lazing at home for the past 3 days... watching movies, etc. for this week i've watched bedtime stories, alvin & the chipmunks - the squeakuel and bruce almighty!

hmm they're okay i guess. not very nice, but not bad.

okay yes i know previous post i said i was planning to update on some stuff but it was like so long ago so i decided there was no need for it!

anyway so... today i was lazing around and i was browing the DFB (german football) fanshop.
and no doubt i was squeaaaaaaliingggg all the way. i'm serious like the merchandise there is crazy. if i bought everything i could decorate my house with it.

okay they have like die mannschaft (german national team) wine glasses, pillows, wallets, lanyards, cups and even a foosball table! o.o

can i say that fanshop is like my heaven?

hehehe i would totally buy stuff from there - it's quite cheap actually like 9 bucks for a scarf? but obvsly i live in sunny (but not cheerful) singapore so my shipping charges will be super ex and i can't navigate the website properly cause it's only in german -.-

well of course i could get my mum's friend who's in germany rn to help me buy but... i alr asked him to buy a jacket and the jersey (with no. and name) so it's gonna be real expensive alr. D: i wish singapore had like. a german football fan club.

or at least sell more die mannschaft merchandise. the only die mannschaft merchandise i have seen here is the scarf (one design), the FIFA WC 2010 ball, and the jersey in huge sizes.

idk i'm only feeling so indignant is 'cause the more "popular" teams/clubs like LFC/Chelsea/Manchester United have like truckloads of merchandise here in SG. and it's not just because they're clubs, i'm sure bayern munich (which is btw a v good club in the bundesliga) has hardly any merchandise in SG as well.

sucks.

but anyway on a happier note i'm going to Genting&KL next week so that means shopping! :D haha idk i'm always happy to go to KL, it's a nice place to be.

but the sad thing about the trip is that i'll be missing the youth and family christmas service in my church and i always have fun at the service. okay idk about the youth one because i've never been to one cause i'm always on holiday, but i like the family one! not just cause of all the presents (cause it's mostly food) but it's just like the atmosphere :D

i mean, my family doesn't really celebrate christmas so... ):
yeah and we don't like go christmas shopping and all..

we used to do that when i was much younger, like up till 7?
but now we don't.
we don't even have a christmas tree so yaaaaa.

anyway on a happier note my birthday is next month! hehehehehe i'm excited. for presents! LOL LOL okay i shouldn't be so shameless or i might not even get a single present :|

but i don't think i'm having a party, as usual.
i havent had once since i was, 7?

idk, can't remember. but ah well, the only times i really wanna celebrate my birthday will be when i'm 16-21. heh.

anyway but i kinda don't like the fact my birthday is so early in the year cause.. i dunno. i just don't like it. but, i'm not exactly complaining cause that's a special day after all ;)

so yeeeep i'm gonna go off and find smth to do. i dunno what though. i'll probably end up on like barbie.com

Labels: birthdays are awesome, christmas, die mannschaft, homework, i need a VIP pass to die mannschaft, money money money, PRESENTS[:, rant, world cup

"Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head"
©BritneySpears

hey hey hey (:
okay so. update on my mundane life.

yesterday i went to watch Rapunzel/Tangled, and it was super awesome :)
i loveeeee Rapunzel's hair in the whole movie!

okay basically she had three different hairstyles - when she was a baby, when she was 18 and had that super long blonde hair (which the directors said was super hard to animate), and when Eugene/Flynn cut her hair and it was short and brown.

okay so that's her long blonde hair, but i can't find any pictures of her other hairstyles on the internet.
guess you have to watch the movie to find out ;)

i think my fave look for her would be her short and brown hair, cause although her long blonde hair was v pretty it looks super hard to manage and it was excessively long. excessively long hair isn't THAT pretty anymore.

heh she's so pretty and she's v cute (with the frying pan and all) so she's my fave disney princess now! :D

but i loved a lot of other characters in the movie also, like Eugene/Flynn (the male lead), Pascal (the chameleon) and Maximus (the horse) (occassionally only though :P).

My friend likes Eugene/Flynn Rider cause she thinks he is hot, but I think it's so weird! okay admittedly he is quite charismatic but he's like a cartoon character so how to like him! as in, in the BGR way. LOL.

so i told her to go like Zachary Levi (the voice for Eugene/Flynn) instead. :P but i know Zachary can't do the famous smolder:


):

HAHA cause someone once asked Zachary to do the smolder but he failed so badly :P

ohoh & not forgetting pascal!


mad cute right! :D

plus he changes colour - like red when he's angry and blue when he's scared. or smth like that.
heh i know disneyland sells pascal stuffed toys so if i ever go there i'll buy pascal in all colours! That is, if I have that much money :|

haha okay i'll will stop spoiling the movie for you, and you should really go watch it! I don't know if 3D is nice (i'm actually considering re-watching it in 3D) cause i watched in 2D, but it was really awesome in 2D alr! <3

i think the only other movie i ever felt so strongly about this year (meaning i encourage EVERYONE to watch it) is Inception, which you cannot deny was AWEEESHUMMM. so you should absolutely trust that my taste in movies is good. :D

i'm still waiting for the Inception DVD! it's taking forever but websites say the DVD will be released in early dec - which is like now. -.-
okay, doesn't matter, good things come to those who wait!

actually i watched another movie this week, but i don't feel like talking about two movies in one single post, so i'll keep the other movie for maybe sunday? :) at least i have some material to entertain you guys with ;)

okay now onto more boring stuff.
i know this has happened really long ago, but i haven't blogged about it yet and i feel it deserves some attention, so here it goes :)

so yep after I returned from my church camp, i went for LTC (which i think i have already mentioned in my previous post).

so basically i was pretty excited for it, cause they told us our groupings beforehand and i knew quite a lot of people in my group and i thought they were really fun people :)

okay so yep my group was not really up to my expectations, like we were really quiet and stuff ): but i think as the camp went by we all grew closer to each other and we became more open, which was good (:

okay so the camp was.. tiring. in one word.

like not just physically (cause we had to run around the school/do push ups/static exercises/jumping jacks/run up four flights of stairs as fast as possible at 9pm at night & we had a land expedition where we went out of school to different places to perform some tasks), but also mentally.

mentally cause i was quite tired at some points (esp. the land expedition) but I still had to go on (duhh. ) and i knew that throughout the whole camp the SFs were like observing us and all (to see if we have potential, etc) so yeah. :|

okay i seriously think they don't think i have any potential! like i dunno. i wasn't like really contributing during meetings (like mental block) and I was hardly enthusiastic.
and not to mention i came late for my recent LTC meeting to discuss our project -.-

oh yes about the meeting - each group in the camp was assigned a project, and we got Total Defence Day.
okay i know, what the crap is that.

it's like a day in SG where we commemorate the fall of SG to the Japanese in WW2. so on that day we basically have to educate the students on how we all have a part to play in protecting SG, etc.

and honestly, when we got that, i was like okay i wanna go home now. pretend i never signed up for LTC.
because seriously, they gave us that project on the first night, and my mood was like, rock bottom kthx.

i mean, TDD is like one of the most boring events among all the projects (Orientation camp, orientation day, P1 picnic, cross-country, and best of all - Cycle of Hope).

okay but as we started on the project it definitely got more fun, and it started to occur to me that TDD isn't THAT bad after all.
like we had/are having fun planning it, and i think it would be nice if we could make TDD fun for once. :)

it just seems easier to make a small boring project fun, than to handle a huge project like Cycle of Hope.

but nah, i'm not saying Cycle of Hope is bad. that was the project i wanted at first. i guess every project just has its pro and cons.

so back to the meeting, the programme comm (which i'm in) met up on wed to discuss the programme for TDD, and we really had a lot of fun :D

we digressed a lot while planning and we even stayed back for one hour after that to talk ;)
i dont even remember what we talked about lol. i think it was like, teachers, kpop, tv shows, etc. LOL everything under the sun.

haha okay so for now that's it! i actually have a lot more to say, but i like keeping suspense. plus, maybe you're not so interested in my life after all. :D

OHOHOH WAIT.
before i go.

the 2018 WC host is RUSSIA; and the 2022 WC hosT is QATAR!

okay. i really don't mind russia, but QATAR?!
i honestly don't even know where that is, and according to my friend they only have a population of 1.4 million.
greeaaaaaat. have fun hosting it.

i don't mean to be mean, but i just. don't know how they're gonna handle it.

my friend and i wanted england/usa to win the 2018 WC bid cause we would probably be studying there then, and we could go watch! ):

ah well. if i have $$$ when i grow up i'll buy tickets to go watch in Qatar.

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